Well, the countdown has begun officially now...less than 12 hours before the New Year!
I wonder what tomorrow will look like. I don't know about you but I like to go out and see how different the new year looks and feels. It is different, I can't explain it but it is and it does feel different when you're out on New Years day. I suppose it's the revitalization we feel by the fact that the new year symbolizes a new start, a new beginning, or perhaps a second chance at what you did wrong the year before. But it's not even that, I find myself feeling almost alien as I take in the new feelings on the first day of the new year. It feels virginal, it feels innocent and naked. It needs you and me to fill it, it needs what we do to make it real. I love walking or sitting outside in the cold winter sun. You can feel everything around you begin anew right along with you. The crisp cold air as it crystallizes in your nose as you inhale, the spread of your breath in a cold burst of warm fog out of your mouth. The first day of the new year, the cold of winter, nature and all her splendor, a hot cup of something and the company of those we love is probably the best way to bring in the new and toss out the old! God Bless Canada, God Bless each and everyone, God Bless the soldiers and all those who walk along side them in the endless search for peace. May 2010 be a year in which we reflect all the bad that has happened and let us turn a corner and walk int the direction of peace. It is a short walk to reach but such a long time coming. Take another person's hand and show them the way, let us become leaders to all those who are lost or too weak to find the way. Ambassadors of peace and goodwill.

My Name is Rene Mafusu in Japanese what's yours?
Rene & Koretsute, Rachiru & Seanu Mafusu

Wow...11:52...just over 24 hours to go until it's next year and what a year and number too...2010...looks good so lets all hope and help make it good! This year past was the shits at least for me. The high point was Rachel graduating from University, in second was buying our car Mazda6...Mmmmm what a sweet ride! The worst thing of all of course was my accident. Coming home from as I have a thousand times before and on the same roadways as always. Not a good idea or at least not a good place to be at that time.
Anyways I did want to just drop in and say how much I love my family, my wife Colette and kids Rachel and Sean, my Mom and Dad, my niece Melissa and her husband Kevin, my sister Donna and her Husband Mike and their kids Roger, Emily and Lucas, my Mother-in-law Irene, my brother-in-law Mark and his betrothed Ruthie, my brother-in-law Stephen and his wife Carol and their kids Gemma and Katie, my sister-in-law Karen and her husband Colbourn and their kids Micheal, Christopher and David, my friend for life Micheal and his Mother Trudy, my friend Jakob, my friend Marcin, and of course both my Tante Irmgart and cousin Roland and his wife and family as well as all of Colette's family both in London Ontario and Exeter as well as abroad with a specil hello and best wishes going out to Uncle Victor and of course sweet wee Millie, and if I forgot anyone I truly appologize I do love and appreciate each and everyone of you! God Bless you all a bring health, wealth and prosperity your way in the New Year!

What wonderful Christmas it has been...the gift exchange and jolly times around the fireplace dvd, great music. And for me personally it was a musical Christmas! Jakob surprised me with a pocket full of goodies, copy of Tesseraft's new cd, copy of Paul Cusick's new cd, AC/DC Fly on the wall & AC/DC For those about to rock. It was awesome to listen them all! Then Rachel gave me her annual surprise cd, Big Shiny Tunes #14. A very big improvement over the past 3 years, great line up and good songs! Then the kids blew me away by giving me a new camera! I have needed and wanted one for so long now, thanks kids! I think that Christmas this year was reasonable and sensible. You know, I'm sure we've all had those years when you sit there and go holy shit, gift after gift after gift to the point that there's really too much to appreciate all at once. Decadence at it's peak, so much thoughtless waste. Gifts are so much nicer when they can be enjoyed and appreciated from the moment they are received or opened. I guess that's why I love music or things to do with music so much, the immediate gratification to the giver and enjoyment to the receiver. You can listen to the music media when you receive it or play the instrument. But all this gift giving and receiving was followed by...
Three days of snack food, finger food, dips, dressings and cookies. Whew, thank goodness that's over. It was all delicious and I enjoyed it all but deep down I hear my stomach craving a bowl of soup or mashed potatoes and gravy, something wholesome and hearty. To all the people whose party presentations we tasted I say thank you very much. So much time and effort is put into making their houses festive and so much pride is put into the platter after platter of delicious food that came into the room every few minutes only to be replaced by another a few minutes later.
December 23 beltsize = 36"
December 25 beltsize = 38"
December 29 beltsize = what belt? I had to take the elastic out of my new XL
camouflage track pants!
I have the rest of today and 2 more days to rest up before we do it all over again at New Years...LOL
Hope everyone else had a wonderful Christmas and have a very happy and prosperous New Year!

Christmas Dinner Menu

Stuffed roast turkey with gravy
Roasted potatoes
Brown sugar & garlic carmalized brussel sprouts
Honey & ginger glazed carrots
Cranberry sauce with a hint of French vanilla

Mississauga Mud Pie
Apple walnut cheescake

Then, quicker than you can say Rudolf the Red Nosed Reindeer, Christmas has come and gone!
It was a good Christmas though, all things considered. It was full of fun, joy, laughter. And at the end of it all I can say it was one worth caulking up in the good books.
It's just leaving 1 am and I can't sleep. Rachel is sleeping on the couch, Sean just came home with 1/2 dozen friends in tow, seems they are having a hard time letting the spirit of Christmas go. Either that or they are having a hard time keeping the spirit in the bottle instead...LOL
If I learned something it is that as a parent or an adult in general, once we reach a certain age we are no longer the loud voice telling jokes, or the story teller, or the one how everyone knows. It's the point at which we must take the back seat and enjoy the view and the ride. We may be the bank and we may be the captain but we are no longer the focal point or the main attraction. So rather than even trying to compete, sometimes it's best to just throw in the towel and say enough is enough, you win. Once you do, it may take a few minutes, but once you do it actually changes the way you feel and how much more enjoyment you'll have by simply blending in and slowly disappearing into the woodwork, being a fly on the wall in your children's lives. Suddenly they transform into something wonderful, bright, new and exciting, they become themselves.
Christmas is such a special time of year. It seems it touches everyone. It effects the look on peoples faces, the tone of their voice and the way they act. I truly wish it could be Christmas, at least in spirit, every day!
I will have to get some sleep tonight and then in the morning we have a few hours before we get to do it all over again at Stephen's place in Burlington. We'll be in for some finger foods, plenty of finger foods, more like the whole hand food, LOL, and lot's of beverages, shooters of all imaginary flavours, beers and whiskey's and a whole lot more. If it's new and has alcohol, Stephen has either heard of it and is waiting for his delivery or he already has it in stock. I dont drink anymore so that's a good thing because from what I can remember I always had a very good time at Flynn family functions. Not that I don't have a good time anymore, it's just now I now when I'm not having a good time...hahaha.
I will report back on just how much fun it was soon.

Tears I cry

Tears I can't afford to cry
Tears I cry for you
I don't have to try
to cry for you
So many tears
So many years gone by
I forgot the many times
you made me cry
But I forgive
I don't know why
I never stopped loving you
It's the only thing I really ever knew
The only thing I ever needed was you
Tears I can't afford to cry
Tears I cry for you
I don't have to try
to cry for you
So many nights
So many lonely nights gone by
I lay alone and cry
Until I'd fall asleep
But I forgive
I don't know why
I never stopped loving you
It's the only thing I really ever knew
The only one I ever needed was you
Tears I can't afford to cry
Tears I can't afford to cry
Tears I cry for you
I don't have to try
to cry for you
I do.

disappointment

Imagine, if you will, a person, someone not unlike yourself who works for a living. They are married and have family which includes their two children, a boy and a girl. This person is a hard working, loyal and sincere. Working at the same place for the past 8 years. As you can imagine several relationships and friendships happened along the way. Special events and occasions were openly accepted and promoted by the company and BBQ's with musical entertainment were held, breakfast was served at Christmas, not to mention the company dinners and such. It was a group that was as tight as any family it seemed. In fact one of the company's main focus is on family.
Now, the person in question is involved in a serious accident on their way from an 8 hour night shift. That day they made contact with co-workers informing them of the situation. As one can expect it took a day for the severity of the personal injuries became apparent. Unable to return to work at the present time due to their injury, they contacted the office and informed them keeping them up to date.
One week passed and no on called. Two weeks passed and no one called. Months passed and not one phone call, email, or unexpected visits from any of the co-workers who might be wondering or be concerned, not a one. The months now bring us to Christmas. There are more functions around this time than any other time of year. There is a breakfast served to over 4000 people, a company Christmas dinner, a company Santa Claus night for the kids, not to mention the overall festive spirit during the entire time. Not one phone call or invite or even just a hello, no, not a one.
What should this person be feeling?
What should this person do?
What would you be feeling and/or do?

Wisdom

The search for the truth is true religion
The man searching the truth is the only religious man...
The task ahead of you is never as great
as the power behind you...

Be strong in the Lord, and in his mighty power...Ephesians 6:10

Above all take the shield of faith
use it to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one...Ephesians 6:16

Therefore the Lord himself shall give you a sign: The Virgin will be with child and will give birth to son and will call him Immanuel...Isaiah 7:14

Do not be led astray: Bad company corrupts good character...1 Corinthians 15:33

A cheerful heart is good medicine...Proverbs 17:22

In a day when you don't come across any problems, you can be sure you are travelling in the wrong path...Swami Vivekananda

All differences in this world are of degree, and not of kind, for oneness is the secret of everything...Swami Vivekananda

It’s not that bad

Buckets of big black clouds in the sky
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
Grab your stuff and come with me
Let’s leave this café
I need the company of a smile
Lets get away for a while or
Could I
Sit and stare at you for a while
Oh no
You’ve left your bag in the rain
Wet cigarettes
Like tears get washed down the drain
Isn’t it a pity
So grab your stuff and come with me
Let’s leave this place
We can sail away
Just you and me
For just one day
To a land so far away
Just you and me
It’s not the way it was way back then


Buckets of big black clouds in the sky
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
We can sail away
Just you and me
For just one day
To a land so far away
You won’t need no money
There’s nothing there to buy
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
Grab your stuff and come with me
To the land where wildweed grows
We can smoke it
Until it shows
That it’s not that bad so please don’t cry
Even though there’s
Buckets of big black clouds in the sky
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
Grab your stuff and come with me
To the land where the wildweed grows
Smoke it
Then it shows
That it’s not that bad so please don’t cry
Hold on to my hand
It’s okay to feel this way
I was going this way too today
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry.

I see Christmas lights on almost every house
Snowflakes sprayed onto window panes
All of the shops have their windows dressed up
Christmas carols coming out every front door
Power sales and specials
Of up to 80% off
Line-ups of parents, friends, lovers
and co-workers trying their very best
To get the best present and get it for less

But what I see the most
Is when I look in your eyes
For what I see the most
Is Christmas, like when I was a child
Your face covered with chocolate
Eyes sparkling and shimmering
Sitting and waiting
Feeling so grown up to be up so late
Thinking Christmas must be every night
When you get older
Boy I can hardly wait
Waiting for Santa Claus
Wow this is great

I see and hear so many ads on TV and radio
For offers and specials unheard of before
There lay-aways, give-aways, no money down
And people lining up right out of town
They all want to give something
at this special time of year
I see happy faces so full of cheer
I wish it could be just like this
every day of the year

But what I see the most
Is when I look in your eyes
For what I see the most
Is Christmas, like when I was a child
Your eyes open wider as I tell you the tale
As I was told, of the Big Man in Red
Here's another chocolate I said
As the clock ticked time
nearer to the most special time of year
It's Christmas time once again
Christmas time is here

Not even if you were the last man on earth

Oh please
Little blue planet third from the sun
Before it’s too late please tell me
For the deed has been done
Is there life, is there life,
other life way out there?

I wait for your answer
I’m ready to run
I was never part
Part of the scheme of things you see
I tried to warn them
I tried to stop them
but they would not listen to me

The horizons aglow
With a deadly halo
And although there’s not much time left
I’m ready to go
So tell me please is there life, is there life,
other life way out there?

In this dying moment
please say you care
A warm wind now surrounds me,
now a bright light moving fast
I wait for your answer
I pray t....

Venus

SHE IS A CREATURE TO BE LOVED,
AND TAMED,
AND THEN MADE WILD AGAIN.
SHE IS ONE OF A LOST RACE,
THOSE GENTLE ONES,
THOSE THAT ARE TENDER,
AND THOSE WHO LOVE PEACE.
THEY HAVE NOTHING TO GAIN,
NOTHING TO LOSE.
WE MUST INVADE HER DREAMS
WITHOUT A SOUND,
WITHOUT THE SLIGHTEST
DISTURBANCE,
AND FIND HER SECRET.
CAREFUL IF YOU AWAKEN HER
SHE MAY VANISH.

THEY ARE THE WAY THEY ARE.
DON’T TRY TO CHANGE THEM.
YOU SHOULD NEVER TRY TO,
OR WANT TO
CHANGE ANYBODY,
NOT EVEN YOURSELF.
DO NOT ALLOW
YOURSELF TO BE
CHANGED.
NO ONE HAS
THE RIGHT TO.
SHE IS INNOCENT,
AND WILL NEVER
BECOME
COMPLETELY
CIVILIZED.

WOULDN’T YOU
LIKE TO
PUT ON
HER FACE
LIKE A MASK,
SEE WHAT SHE
SEES,
SEE WHO SHE
SEES,
SEE WHO SHE
LIKES,
SEE WHAT SHE
LIKES,
AND FIND OUT
WHY.

SHE IS LIKE A CAT.
SHE SCRATCHES.
SHE’S MEAN.
BUT THEN
SHE BECOMES
TENDER AND WARM.
HER KISSES ARE
INEXHAUSTIBLE
AND
SELF-SUFFICIENT,
NOT JUST
A STEP
ON THE ROAD
TO
PLEASURE.
SHE MIGHT EASILY
KILL
YOU.
BUT THEN
CALCULATED RISKS
ARE
NOT ALWAYS
UNATTRACTIVE.
SOMETIMES SHE IS SAD,
SHE CRIES.
BUT THEN
SHE LOOKS AT YOU,
AND IN YOU
SHE SEES
THE SUN,
LOVE,
LIFE.

YET
ONE DAY
THERE WILL BE
NOTHING MORE,
JUST BLACKNESS,
ABSENCE,
DEATH.
THIS DOESN’T BOTHER HER,
ONLY THE FEAR
THAT YOU MIGHT DIE FIRST.
SHE WANTS TO GIVE,
YET TAKE
EVERYTHING
FROM YOU.
SHE WANTS
TO
POSSESS YOU
COMPLETELY.
SHE WILL NOT
LET YOU GO.

SAY YOU LOVE HER,
SAY YOU WILL PROTECT HER,
THAT NOTHING WILL HARM HER.
SAY SOMETHING
SAY SOMETHING MEANINGFUL,
SAY SOMETHING FINAL,
SAY THAT YOU WILL KILL HER
IF SHE LEAVES YOU.
SHAKE HER.
TELL HER THAT IT IS SERIOUS.
TELL HER THAT YOU ARE SERIOUS.
TELL HER THAT SHE MUST BE SERIOUS.
SAVE HER
AND SAVE YOURSELF.

Not good enough

I KNOW I KNOW SHE SAID
WITH A WAVE OF HER HAND
MY LIFE’S A MESS TOO SHE ADDED
BELIEVE ME I UNDERSTAND
ALTHOUGH THESE WORDS STILL ECHO IN MY MIND
WHAT WAS I TO SAY OR DO
I’VE BEEN TO THE DOCTOR TOO SHE SAID
HE SAYS I’M AS BAD OFF AS YOU
I'M NOT LOOKING FOR YOUR SYMPATHY THANKS
I CAN FLY LOW ENOUGH ON MY OWN
AND I’M FULLY STOCKED ON PAIN AND SELF PITY
EXPRESSED BY MY MELLOW DRAMA DRONE
INDIFFERENCE,MISUNDERSTANDING AND CONFUSION
ARE ALL PART OF LIFE’S TEST
BUT THE ENDURANCE OF SAME SURE IS TOUGH
WHEN THOSE WHO LOVE YOU
SEE YOU LIKE ALL THE REST
ON MY FACE THAT ONCE SMILED AT EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE
LUNAR DIMPLES AND ALL
I SEE ETCHED THE FROWNS OF PAIN
LIFE OFFERS LITTLE HUMOUR NOW FOR ME
HERE IN THE MIDST OF THIS FALL
HOW LOW CAN YOU GO
I’M NOT REALLY SURE
I’M NOT SURE I CARE
I CAN’T SEE THE BOTTOM
FROM OR FROM THERE
SO I MUST BE SOMEWHERE IN BETWEEN
BUT I’M WASTING MY BREATH CAUSE
YOU ALREADY KNOW
HOW I FEEL
AND EXACTLY WHAT I MEAN
I'M SORRY IF I WEIGH YOU DOWN
WITH THE OCCASIONAL LIMP
AND MY PERMA-FROST FROWN
BUT ALL I REALLY WANTED
WAS TO EXPLAIN MY SITUATION TO YOU
I THOUGHT THAT I COULD CLARIFY
MY ABSENCE AND WHATEVER IT IS
YOU THINK I DO
BUT LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE IN MY LIFE
IT’S NOT GOOD ENOUGH
IT JUST WON’T DO.
SO WITH A TEAR IN MY HEART
I WATCH AS YOU LEAVE
WEARING THE DRESS I REMEMBER
AS A CHILD
THE ONE I ALWAYS WANTED TO CLING TO
I LOVE YOU.

Black Pope

BLACK POPE
NO HOPE
NO SENTIMENT PLEASE
BLACK POPE
LINE UP
STATE YOUR DISEASE
YOU WASTED MY TIME
LIKE YOU WASTED YOUR LIFE
THINGS LEFT UNDONE
STORIES UNTOLD
BLACK POPE
NO HOPE
NO SENTIMENT PLEASE
BLACK POPE
BLACK POPE
DOWN ON YOUR KNEES

EVERYONE DIES
EVERYONE SEES
THAT EVERYONE DIES
EVERYONE DIES
DOWN ON THEIR KNEES


BLACK POPE
NO HOPE
NO SENTIMENT PLEASE
HANGMAN HANG
JUDGE THE JUDGE
BLACK POPE
LINE UP
STATE YOUR DISEASE
UNFOLD THE TRUTH
BEAR THE GRUDGE
BLACK POPE
BLACK POPE
DOWN ON YOUR KNEES

EVERYONE DIES
EVERYONE SEES
THAT EVERYONE DIES
EVERYONE GETS
DOWN ON THEIR KNEES
BLACK POPE
BLACK POPE
BLACK POPE
BLACK POPE

BLACK POPE
Yeahyeah
YEAH YEAH YEAH
Yeahyeah
Black Pope!

The end of time

The end of time
THE END OF DAYS
THE PROPHET SAYS
WE ALL MUST PAY
THE END OF TIME
THE BLACKEST DAYS
THE BLACK POPE COMES
AND TAKES IT ALL AWAY
WITH A GOLDEN SWORD IN EITHER HAND
HE SLICES THE SKY OPEN UPON COMMAND
STEALING THE LIGHT OF DAY
SENDING THE DARKNESS OUR WAY
TIME RACES FAST
NO TIME FOR SALVATION
WHEN THE BLACK CLOUDS COME
EXPLODING WITH EVIL PAIN
PAIN THAT DRIVES DESTRUCTION
UNTIL THE DAY HAS COME
THE END OF TIME
THE END OF DAYS
THE END OF TIME
THE BLACKEST DAYS
THE BLACK POPE COMES
AND TAKES IT ALL AWAY

Waking up

Woke up
WITH A PAIN INSIDE MY HEAD
SAT UP
AT THE EDGE OF THE BED
THOUGHT ABOUT
SLEEPING SOME MORE
BUT MY BACK ACHES TOO
AND MY LEGS
I CAN’T FALL ASLEEP ANY MORE
I CAN’T SLEEP WITH THE PAIN
I CAN’T REST WITH THE PAIN
I CAN’T SMILE WITH THE PAIN
FEELS LIKE I’LL NEVER SMILE AGAIN
I COULD TAKE SOME PILLS
TO HELP WITH THE PAIN
BUT I TAKE TOO MANY PILLS
THEY FUCK UP MY BRAIN
TOO MANY PILLS
TOO MUCH PAIN
DO I GET UP AND MEDICATE
THEN SHOWER TO HELP ALLEVIATE
THE PAIN
PAIN RUNS MY LIFE
PAIN STARTS THE SHOW
PAIN RULES MY WORLD
EVERYWHERE I GO
PAIN WHEN I’M HAPPY
PAIN WHEN I’M SAD
PAIN BEFORE, DURING AND AFTER
THE BEST SEX I EVER HAD
PAIN WHEN I’M PLAYING
PAIN WHEN I’M NOT
ONCE ON MY BIRTHDAY
PAIN WAS ALL I GOT
IT’S HARD TO EXPLAIN PAIN
BUT IT’S EASY TO SEE
I’M LAUGHING ON THE OUTSIDE
AT THE PAIN INSIDE ME
LATE AT NIGHT
OR AT THE BREAK OF DAWN
WHEN I’M AT WORK
OR PARTYING
BRING THE PAIN ON
IT DOESN’T MATTER MUCH TO ME
HOW I FEEL INSIDE
WHAT BOTHERS ME MOST I THINK
IS THE PAIN IS HARD TO HIDE
WHAT’S THE MATTER
ARE YOU OKAY
AND I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL
ARE THE THINGS THAT PEOPLE SAY
ITS NOT THAT I MIND ANSWERING
OR TELLING WHAT IS WRONG
IT’S JUST DAY AFTER DAY
IT’S A BROKEN RECORD
PLAYING THE SAME OLD SONG
WOKE UP
WITH A PAIN INSIDE MY HEAD

Christmas everywhere

I close my eyes and open them quickly
Then without hardly trying as though
By Magic
I see Christmas through children's eyes
Just how I used to back on that day
Voices of excitement fill the air
Sounds of Christmas everywhere
The magic and mystery
Of Christmas Eve
Begins to unfold
But the secrets are sacred
Though spoken they are never told
Sleeping the night before
Just like the year before
Waiting for Old St.Nick
Hoping he'll find me asleep
As down the chimney he came
The jolly old man, true to his name

I see Christmas through children's eyes
Just how I used to back on that day
Voices of excitement fill the air
Sounds of Christmas everywhere
I see Christmas cards hanging up
Tinsel and icicles
Hung up with so much care
Covered in Angel hair
The Christmas Tree all decorated
The smell of pine in the air
Christmas shows on the TV
With Elvis and Fred Astaire
Christmas and happiness everywhere
I remember Christmas's past
I'd be good all of the year
Just for knowing and fear
That Santa sees all
and he wants it made clear
It not just at Christmas
It's all of the year
That we have to be good
As though it were Christmas
Each and every day

I see Christmas through children's eyes
Just how I used to back on that day
Voices of excitement fill the air
Sounds of Christmas everywhere
The clock strikes twelve
There's snow on the ground
The shadows hang long
As the stockings that hang
I try to lie still
I don't make a sound
When I hear the sound
of a hoof on the roof
So I close my eyes and open them quickly
Then without hardly trying as though
By Magic
I see Christmas through children's eyes
Just how I used to back on that day
Voices of excitement fill the air
Sounds of Christmas everywhere

Easy Blues

The blues they come so easily to me
Cuz the things that make me smile
Well, they just don’t happen much to me
The wife she says I bug her
I never do anything right
She even says I bug
Sometimes late at night
The kids they're growing up much too fast
They think they know their right from wrong
I don’t know where they found out
I've been searching for so long
And it’s still not clear to me
Sometimes I don’t know which way to turn
So I can do what I want to
Just be me, so you see
The blues they come so easily
To me
The things that make me happy
Well, they just don’t ever happen to me
My life is such a struggle
I work hard at everything I do
The more I sweat
The more pain I feel
Is this my life
Is this for real
The harder I work
The longer the road
The weaker the wheel
Not sure why I feel like I do
But the blues sure come easily to me
Seems things in my life
Were never meant to be
At least not happy, not happy
For me
But one things for certain
On one thing we all agree
The blues
I said the blues
The blues sure come easily to me.

Bass stranglehold

I remember the first time
The first time I laid eyes on you
The first time I picked you up
The first time I held you
My fingers wrapped around your neck
Loosely at first
Then with a firm grasp
Feeling and fitting so nicely
My hand sliding effortlessly
Up and down
Your long slender neck
Each finger knowing exactly where to go
What to do
It was like magic
My ears smiled
As your low sensuous sounds filled the room
My chest vibrated
My heart danced
From that moment on
All my troubles
All my worries
All my aches and pains
Seemed to fade away
Further and further away
And each virginal sound
Random or intentional
Accidental or not
Became deliberate
The first time I saw you
You looked like all the rest
Just hanging around looking good
Trying to look your best
You’ve seen one you’ve seen them all
Or at least that’s what I thought
Until that day I was happy too
But the next day I was not
I was constantly thinking of you
And what we two could have
There’s nothing like your first one
You play with yours, I’ll play with mine
Play with what you have
Play all the time
There’s nothing better than the one you have
Until another comes along
I remember my first time
The first time I laid eyes on you
The first time I held you tight
My fingers wrapped around your neck
Loosely at first
Then with a firm grasp
Feeling and fitting so nicely
My hand sliding effortlessly
Up and down
Your long slender neck
Each finger knowing exactly
Where to go and what to do
It was like magic
The first time I laid eyes on you.

Alone

Its rush hour
The streets are filled with people
Rushing here and there
But for me the streets are empty
There’s no one there to care
I am lonely in crowd
I always pray for rain
To hide the tears I cry for you again
To hide the tears I cry thinking of you
Again
May the crack of dawn embrace me
Warm my heart and soul
May the first thing that I see
Be the beauty of your face
A gentle breeze blows through your hair
I smell the ocean there
Your perfect skin so soft and smooth
Your silhouette on the wall
The way you move
Just a few things to start the day
Those special things
Take my breath away
Its rush hour
The streets are filled with people
Rushing here and there
But for me the streets are empty
There’s no one there to care
I am lonely in crowd
I always pray for rain
When I'm alone
In a crowd
When I'm alone
I cry out loud
When I'm alone
I always pray for rain

Depressions resolve

How stupid can I be
How deep can I go
Trying hard to break free
Of this feeling so low
I feel so fucked up
at times I’m sure that you know
but I’ll never give in
whether it comes fast or slow.

I’ve never recognized depression before
But I know it well now
lying her on the floor.
My body’s shaking
and every bone’s aching.
But there’s no Goddamned way
I’m ever giving in
No way! Not today!

Thank You

I thank God that I am
I thank God for you too
I thank God for the future
Though less certain than today.

I thank God for the thoughts in my mind
I thank God for my compassion, strong and kind
I thank God for the future
Though less certain than today.

I thank God for the nighttime
I thank God for the light of day
I thank God for the future
Though less certain than today.

With and Without Him

Alone
he stands and faces
his foes and his fears
far away
a thought of love may come
and go.
Now he’s down
lying very low
someone help him
and
stand him up again.
Show him that you care
about the state he’s in.
Come hold his hand
so old and thin
kiss his cheek and feel
the emptiness within.

Help him
love him
stand him up again.

If he dies don’t despair
my friend
hold his hand one last time
and wipe your tears
then walk away
without him.

A Fable

Once upon a time
in a Godforsaken place
not far away
lived a man
he spat upon his neighbors
beckoned rainy days
the one who laughed
when someone passed away.
He ambles
silent
down a trodden path
of cobblestone
stumbles and fires
a loaded gun.
Now on a bridge
between sparkling waters
he throws
people
like falling rocks
to their deaths
and with each
resounding ripple
fades reality.
He finds himself transfixed
into a hall of mirrors
and seeks out his enemy
he finds him magnified many times
and then looking to God he fires
and as the glass shatters
so does he.

Moral: Glasses to glasses and dust to dust

A Son’s Prayer

THE SUN HAS SET
ON MANY DAYS
BRUTAL TIMES
A BLOODY HAZE
SOMEWHERE DEEP INSIDE ME
I FEEL WARMTH WITHIN
THE THINGS I’VE LEARNED
THE THINGS I’VE DONE
IN THE DARKNESS
THEY START CLOSING IN
A SHADOW NOW APPEARS
A FEEBLE MAN
A SMALLER MAN
A MAN OF MANY YEARS
THE THINGS YOU DO
THE THINGS YOU’VE DONE
I RECOGNIZE HIM NOW
THE DAY HE WENT AWAY
IS THE DAY MY PAIN BEGAN
FATHER, PLEASE DON’T LEAVE ME NOW!

AS I AM

ALL MY LIFE I’VE BEEN CALLED CRAZY
MOM AND DAD BOTH THINK I’M CRAZY
DON’T WANT NO JOB AND GOT NO HOBBY
THERE’S NOTHING I REALLY NEED OR WANT

No one understands
NO ONE UNDERSTANDS
NO ONE UNDERSTANDS
THAT I’M HAPPY AS I AM

Sitting here, just me and my weed
GOT NO WORRIES ON MY MIND
CUZ WHENEVER WE’RE TOGETHER
WE HAVE A GOOD TIME
EVERYTHING’S FINE


My girlfriend she thinks I’m crazy
AND HER BOYFRIEND SAYS I’M LAZY
GOT NO JOB, GOT NO HOBBY OR SPORTS TO PLAY
THERE’S REALLY NOTHING THAT I WANT
I’M HAPPY THIS WAY

No one understands
HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND
CUZ NO ONE UNDERSTANDS
I’M HAPPY THIS WAY
I AM HAPPY
AS I AM

Sitting here just me and my weed
GOT NO WORRIES ON MY MIND
WHENEVER WE’RE TOGETHER
WE HAVE A GOOD TIME
EVERYTHING’S FINE

You gotta understand
YOU JUST GOTTA UNDERSTAND
I UNDERSTAND…
I’M HAPPY
AS
I
AM!

On Guard for Thee

I STRUGGLE WITH DEMONS DAILY
SOME ARE STRANGE AND NEW TO ME
BUT MOST OF THEM I KNOW
SINCE THEY BELONG TO ME
THE WAY IN WHICH I DEAL WITH THEM
DIFFERS FROM ONE MOMENT TO THE NEXT
IT ALL DEPENDS ON MY STATE OF MIND
UPON MY WEAKNESSES AND STRENGTHS
IT SEEMS TO WORK ODDLY ENOUGH
WITH DEMONS AND DEVILS IN MY MIND
BUT THE HARDEST THING OF ALL I FIND
IS TO BATTLE THEM WHILST IN THE COMPANY
OF ANGELS IN MY MIND
THE SOFTEST AND KINDEST OF HEARTS
THE SWEETNESS AND UNDERSTANDING
THAT DISTRACTS ME
AND THE BATTLE BEGINS
I TELL AT TIMES I DON’T WANT TO BE ME
RESERVED, STAGNANT IN THE PRESENCE OF EVIL
YET SO BOLD AND OUTSPOKEN WITH THOSE WHO TRULY CARE
BOGGED DOWN, WATERLOGGED FROM NO WEIGHT BUT MY OWN
MY OWN CONSCIENCE AND SINS
I SOON FIND
MY ONLY OPPONENT
TO BE MY OWN MIND
OBSCURED BY THE FOG OF THE FIGHT
I FEEL REALITY KICK IN, SUCH A BIG BITE
THE WOUND PARTS WIDER
THOUGH NO BLOOD OR FLESH EVER SHOWS
THE SCAR THAT REMAINS GOUGED OUT
THE TOLL AND ITS PRICE PAID IN FULL
LEAVING BEHIND ONLY NIGHTMARES OF WHAT HAS NOT COME
CONDUCIVE TO SELF-DESTRUCTION
WORDS SPOKEN WITHOUT DIRECTION
RICOCHET BY UNCONSCIOUS DEFLECTION
STRIKING DIRECTLY AND WITH PAINFUL ACCURACY
BUT WORDS ARE JUST WORDS
THOUGHTS ARE JUST THOUGHTS
IT’S THE LIPS AND THE MIND THAT TRULY OUGHT TO SCARE US ALL
SO WHILE YOU SLEEP AND DREAM TONIGHT
I STAND GUARD
I STAND OVER YOU, YOUR THOUGHTS, YOUR FEELINGS AND YOUR MIND
I SPEAK TO GHOSTS
I FACT I SPEAK TO MINE
THE WORLD IS TROUBLED
DOES ANYONE ELSE CARE
WHO STANDS ON GUARD FOR ME
WHO STANDS ON GUARD WHEN I SLEEP
WHO WILL AWAKEN SHOULD I FALL ASLEEP
THE FUTURE LOOKS MUCH BRIGHTER THOUGH
AT LEAST AT THIS MOMENT, WHERE I STAND
IF YOU SHOULD CARE
ONCE ALL THE PAIN HAS BEEN GIVEN
SLEEP IS ALL YOU GET
SO SLEEP WELL
ANGER AND SHAME ARE THE LESSONS OF THE DAY
I COULD GIVE UP
BUT NOT TODAY
FROM THE HOLLOW SO DEEP INSIDE ME
COMES THE TEMPEST OF YOUR LOVE
CHANGING LIKE THE SEASONS
EACH EBBING AND FLOWING
I WEAR THE NAME OF YOUR DESCRIPTION
PURE, WHITE AND FROM ABOVE
THOUGH I DRINK FROM THE CHALICE OF SIN
TAKING ALL OF IT’S DROWNING NECTAR AS IT POURS IN
SLEEP TIGHT
FOR
I STAND ON GUARD FOR THEE.

Torn

Why do you forsake me
In my mind you rape me
I try hard to bend
Don’t try to break me

Tear me open
Take me I’m yours
Tear me open
Tear me open
Tear me open

Father of mine
I hear you
As I lay me down
As I lay me down
I fear you


Why do you forsake me
In my mind you rape me
I’ll harder to bend
Please don’t break me

Tear me open
Take me I’m yours
Tear me open
Tear me open
Tear me open
I’m torn

Father of mine
I despise you
Deep inside me
I am you
I cannot hide
Deep inside me
From you

Why do you forsake me
Bless me now don’t rape me
I’m trying hard now not to bend
But I’m learning
How to pretend
Not to fear you
Sitting on the fence
Near you

Tear me open
Take me
Take me I’m yours
Tear me
Tear me
Tear me open
Open
Torn

Lead the way

Lead the way
Don’t look back
Lock the door
Seal the crack

Hide your face
Win the race
Take control
There’s no disgrace

Lead the way
Don’t look back
Lock the door
Seal the crack

Smell the smell
Inhale the stench
Place your hand
Upon the bench

Lead the way
Lead the pack
Lock the door
Seal the crack

Feel the nail
Driven deep
Crucified
You’re mine to keep

Lead the way
Don’t look back
Lock the door
Seal the crack

Lead the way
Don’t look back
Shrunken heads
Stitches black

Lead the way
Don’t look back
Lead the way
And don’t look back.

Down Below

It pulls me down
It takes me below
To the basement
Of the world
We know
How far to go
I’m not sure
I’ll send you as note
So
When it pulls you down
It takes you below
To the basement
Of the world
We know
You’ll know
Just how far to go
So you can send a note
So
When it pulls you down
It takes you below
To the basement
Of the world
We know
You’ll know when you get there
How far to go
Because once you get there
You’ll know
That I’m pulling you down
Taking you below
To the basement
Of the world we know
The only place I know
Under the world
The world that we know
Because it has pulled me
Down below
It’s pulled me
And now it wants you
Too
Down below

An Army of One

If your mind is broken
And your body’s bent
Your weakest moment
Is heaven sent
Capture the light
Reach, lean and repent
Heaven breathes an army of angels
On golden rays of sunshine
They are sent
A glimmer, a glimpse
A flash in the pan
A faint hope
A leap of faith
The child within the man
The darkest moments
In the heart of night
Hold the secrets
To what makes the day bright
Embrace all your fears
Hold onto them tight
Your is left is left
But your wrong will be right
With Gods angels
You’re an army of one
Trust, faith and belief
Will be the weapons
When all is said and done.

Sky Blue

IF I WERE THERE FOR YOU
WOULD YOU BE THERE FOR ME
IF I COULDN’T CARE
WOULD YOU CARE FOR ME
I HAVE NO ANSWERS ONLY QUESTIONS
CAN YOU ANSWER THEM FOR ME
I AM JUST A MAN
NO SUPERMAN OR HERO
THAT’S NOT ME
OR WHAT I WAS MEANT TO BE
LIFE IS ALWAYS PERFECT
EACH NIGHT WHEN I DREAM
WHY CAN’T LIFE BE LIKE IT IS
IN MY DREAMS
I’M CAUGHT IN THE IN BETWEENS
DO YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN
I KNOW YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHAT I MEAN
I’M SKY BLUE AND WRINKLE FREE
UNCOMPLICATED
STATICALLY
BOUNCING ROUND IN A HOT DRUM
I FEEL THE CHANGES AS SOON AS THEY COME
SURVIVAL IS SIMPLE
WHEN IT COMES TO THE HEART
NO ANGER
NO HATE
FOR WHEN LOVE AND COMPASSION ENTER
IT’S NEVER TOO LATE.

Okay....so last night I took my sweetheart out for dinner. We searched the web and destroyed our minds trying to figure out where to go. We are very experimental and broadminded when it comes to trying food. Indian, Chinese, Portuguese, Italian, German, Canadian, and each of them had a pro and con so by the time we decided to get ready, before dinner turned into breakfast, we were even more palate-ually challenged than before we started.
Well, we ended up at The Keg, again, LOL
Dinner was great we went out on a ledge and tried something completely NOT what we would normally have. Ha, Colette had chicken and I had prime rib, wow, daring, very daring might I say! I think that's what we had the last time we came here for Colette's birthday...hahaha.
Like I was saying dinner was great but the company was far greater. Far greater than I can remember too. I love you Colette. Anyhow, the waitress was nice and the manager was too. We were sitting and talking, ordered our meal and continued talking. We had to exchange Colette's drink, she'd had 1/2 already but there was SO much salt it was unbelievable. It had settled to about 1/4" deep at the bottom of her Margarita glass. She got another one without any salt and it was delicious.
Then came our appetizers, well one came, and then the manager came and apologized for the delay on our second appetizer and said that it was on the house....mmmm delicious when it came. And at the end of the night our dessert was also on the house since it was our anniversary, how nice! So, I guess that The Keg was good choice after all! LOL
But, we could have been eating out of a garbage can at the foot of some sewer grate and the night would have turned out just as nice, just as romantic, just as wonderful...because it's not about the dinner.
26 years...wow...don't wanna sound cliche but it seems like only yesterday that I first saw you walking through the mall area at Shipp Center. I knew then, and even told Mike, what my intentions were. And as hard as it was for me, being the quiet introverted type that I am, I made good on my word to him and surprisingly to me as well! LOL It took every ounce of nerve and every bit of testosterone in me to approach you and ask you out. I thought as though I was going to faint or pass-out standing in front of you. You were sitting there, like a princess on her throne or a judge on her bench, behind the reception desk while I stood before you shaking and stuttering. I felt so tiny and so insignificant as I plead my case.
And, as the all heavens angels as my witnesses, you said, `yes`..................... a long silent pause. A few years.
And here we are, I love you and want to spend the rest of our equation, together, with you Colette.
Lovehugsandkissesforever
Rene

Uncertainty

If I’m ever too old
to snuggle close and hold you
would you still love me?
Would you take care of me
if I no longer could?
Thoughts of uncertainty
cannot be denied
But I know that you would
by the way I feel inside
Someone famous once asked a question
That I must ask to be sure
“will you still love me, will you still need me,
when I’m sixty-four?”
Hard of hearing
Eyesight failing
Body stiff and sore
With so many ailments
Life tries to even the score
But as long as we’re together
who could ever ask for anything more!?

In passing

The girl who once passed me in the hall
The first time we passed
Was at school in the hall
You didn’t know me or see me
And I was not aware of you at all

Perhaps had we met then
Things would not be the same
The dating, the loving
Then you taking my name

Though I’d never go back
For fear of the refrain
Of our love
But I’m curious just the same

If time were turned back
And we passed in the hall
Would we stop and talk
Would we fall in love in the hall

Would we notice each other at all
Or would we both smile
And keep walking
Totally missing the call

Oh love in the wings
One life’s greatest things
For since I first met you
I’ve been unable to forget you
The girl who once passed me in the hall

Happy Anniversary

To the best friend
I’ve ever known
Whenever we are apart
I feel so all alone
When we’re together though
I’m so happy for I know
My heart is content
Being with you
My friend; heaven sent
A companion to walk with
hand in hand
As Autumn leaves fall all around
As we walk barefoot through the sand
Long nights shared together
Coffee into the night
Laughter that echoes forever
A confidant
I’m yours and you can be mine
Until the end of time
When your heart aches
I will cry
If you laugh at nothing
I will laugh too
I want to be your lover
To always have your trust
Exploring your passions
Be the naughty or gentle and soft
just like you
I’ll walk you the shower
And bring you coffee too
My love is not a secret
when it comes to loving you
So, to put it quite simply
Colette...
I want you!



WOW...26years babe...seems like yesterday.
I love you and am so lucky to have you...
I can't wait till tonight!

All I know

It was a cold crisp night
The winter night was aglow
The moon was eclipsing
Looking like a bright orange
Dangling in the sky
I never take the time to look
To enjoy
To wonder why
My pain is all I know
It may be cold and crisp
It may be warm and dry
Still
I never take the time to look
To enjoy
Or ever wonder why
My pain is all I know
At times surrounded by beauty
I never blink an eye
I never smell the flowers
I pass as I walk by
I never take the time to look
To enjoy
Or to wonder why
My pain is all I know
Although sometimes I try
I never take the time to look
To enjoy
Or ever wonder why
My pain is all I know
No matter how hard I try
My pain is all I’ll ever know
Until the day I die.

Thought # 101

Life is useless from beginning to end
With spasms of pain it begins
With pain and spasms it ends
Nothing more than a hot flash in a cold pan
Life is useless from beginning to end.
Let us save our breath
For what is breath after all
But the beginning and end
For breath delivers our words
Be they kind or not so
From here I have watched you
As you walked along
The side of the street
Where the light slices
Into the darkness
Silence follows you
Everything else is left behind
Your voices echoes
Your promise is a song
Your memory is sad.

Who is the potter

Who is the potter I say
Where is the pot and clay
His work's unfinished
Has he gone away
Just for today
From the belly of the earth
Came his clay
The clay he used on that day
Listen in the evening and pray
That all will be well in the morrow day
Who is the potter I say
Where is the pot and clay

The new me

I used to be thin
Thin skinned
Thin stature
Shallow minded
Quick to lash out
Quicker to blame
It was easy to be unkind
To be in control
At least that’s what I thought
Yet eaten by guilt
Lost and distraught
Varsol to paint
Tears to love
Alienation
Subjectiveness
Persecution
Demanding and
Notwithstanding
The control
I thought I had
Time connects
Wounds
As it slowly passes
Soon numbness
Followed by dumbness
Becomes me
And then you
Somehow I feel
Quiet now
I feel like glue
Thick and slow
Bonding to you
The feeling I hope
Has transcended



The thin within me
Is now thick because of you
To live a day without you
Is something I have yet to do
And until that day arrives
Let this glueleg
Stay and stick in love with you
Somehow you have managed
To change me
My heart and my soul
Your presence it calms me
When I need it most
A million dollar prize
The finest slice
A million miles walked
A language outspoken
And so much more
The rubber is connecting
Its tight band retracts
It draws near to me
A twinkle; a spark
My fluttering heart
Pounds deep inside me
It rumbles
It rolls and
It rubs me the right way
I am complete
Yet empty
Completely empty
I suppose.

It’s not that bad

Buckets of big black clouds in the sky
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
Grab your stuff and come with me
Let’s leave this café
I need the company of a smile
Lets get away for a while or
Could I
Sit and stare at you for a while
Oh no
You’ve left your bag in the rain
Wet cigarettes
Like tears get washed down the drain
Isn’t it a pity
So grab your stuff and come with me
Let’s leave this place
We can sail away
Just you and me
For just one day
To a land so far away
Just you and me
It’s not the way it was way back then


Buckets of big black clouds in the sky
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
We can sail away
Just you and me
For just one day
To a land so far away
You won’t need no money
There’s nothing there to buy
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
Grab your stuff and come with me
To the land where wildweed grows
We can smoke it
Until it shows
That it’s not that bad so please don’t cry
Even though there’s
Buckets of big black clouds in the sky
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
Grab your stuff and come with me
To the land where the wildweed grows
Smoke it
Then it shows
That it’s not that bad so please don’t cry
Hold on to my hand
It’s okay to feel this way
I was going this way too today
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry.

Retirement

Your body is country
Where I’d like to retire
A wonderful land
Of curves and secrets,
Passages and valleys,
Filled with warmth,
Pleasure and
Constant surprises.
You love is a drug and
I am an addict,
You’re my habit
And there’s no doubt.
Whenever you’re not near I panic
Knowing I could never live without
Your smile, your touch, your loving heart.
Every breath I take
I take for you
Pull me close
Pull me close to you
Take me now
And quickly smuggle me
Across the border
To your country
Filled with love
Hide me in the corner
Of your heart.

Stay in bed

The sun doesn’t seem as bright
Something’s not quite right
I can’t find anything to talk about
The words are there but won’t come out
There’s a thought inside me head
But there’s nothing left to be said
Today I think I’ll stay in bed
Today
I think I’ll stay in bed
I’m not sick
I feel okay
I’m just not sure the car
Will start today


My boots would walk if
I took out the lead
But, to be perfectly honest
Today
I think I’ll stay I in bed
The phones ringing constantly
It’s just another day to me
Nothing good is ever said
Today I think I’ll stay in bed.

Thought # 127

Time passes presently
The present becomes the past
Neither past time
Nor
Future time
Like present time
Will last
Time keeps on ticking
Every day
Till today becomes yesterday
And that the day before
Once again making tomorrow today
Just like the day before…

The Kingdom

CELESTIAL SHIVERS
WASTED IN BRIGHT SUNSHINE
TREMBLING HERDS AT NIGHT
COLD COPULATION IN BROAD DAYLIGHT
WHAT A TIME TO FIND OUT
WHAT WE HAVE IS NOTHING
WHAT A TIME TO WAKE UP
WHAT A TIME TO REALIZE


WE’RE ALL LONELY IN THE NIGHT
WHAT DOES IT ALL REALLY MEAN
THE DAY WE THINK
WE FIND WHAT WE THINK
WE WERE LOOKING FOR
THE DAY WE KNOW
THERE’S ONLY ONE,
ONE TRUE KINGDOM,

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAA…

What a time to find out
WHAT WE HAVE IS NOTHING


WHAT A TIME TO WAKE UP
WHAT A TIME TO REALIZE
WE’RE ALL LONELY IN THE NIGHT

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaa
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAA…
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaa
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAA…

Castles in the Air

WHAT IS IT THAT CARRIES YOU
FROM HER TO THERE
I SEE CASTLES IN THE AIR
WHAT IS IT THAT MAKES YOU SEE
WHAT IT IS YOU WANT FROM ME
WHY DO YOU CARE FOR ME
WHAT IS IT THAT CARRIES YOU
CARRIES YOU AWAY FROM ME
I SEE CASTLES IN THE AIR
WHAT IS IT THAT MAKES YOU SEE
WHAT IS IT YOU WANT FROM ME
THAT’S ALL I ASK OF YOU
LET ME SEE JUST WHAT IT IS YOU SEE
WHAT CARRIES YOU FROM HERE TO THERE
TO THE CASTLES IN THE AIR
LET ME SEE WHAT YOU SEE
WHAT IT IS YOU WANT FROM ME
I HAVE TO SEE IT TOO
TAKE ME THERE
TO THE CASTLES IN THE AIR
WHAT IS IT THAT CARRIES YOU
CARRIES YOU FORM HERE TO THERE
I SEE CASTLES IN THE AIR.

Turn out the same

Of all the things that could go wrong

I THINK WE WERE BOTH FAR TOO YOUNG
I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT NOW IT’S GONE TOO FAR
THE ONLY THING LEFT TO DO
IS TO BREAK THE CHAIN
THAT LINKS ME TO YOU
OF ALL THE THINGS THAT COULD GO WRONG
I THINK WE WERE BOTH TOO YOUNG
I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT IT‘LL JUST TURN OUT THE SAME AGAIN

You know I cry for you
Of all the things that could go wrong

I MISS YOU
I THINK WE WERE BOTH FAR TOO YOUNG
I MISS YOU

I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
BUT NOW IT’S GONE TOO FAR
THE ONLY THING LEFT TO DO
IS TO BREAK THE CHAIN
THAT LINKS ME TO YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT WILL IT JUST TURN OUT THE SAME AGAIN.

You know I cry for you
Of all the things that could go wrong

I MISS YOU
I THINK WE WERE BOTH FAR TOO YOUNG
I MISS YOU

I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
BUT NOW IT’S GONE TOO FAR
THE ONLY THING LEFT TO DO
IS TO BREAK THE CHAIN
THAT LINKS ME TO YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT WILL IT JUST TURN OUT THE SAME AGAIN.

You know I cry for you
Of all the things that could go wrong

I MISS YOU
I THINK WE WERE BOTH FAR TOO YOUNG
I MISS YOU

I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
BUT NOW IT’S GONE TOO FAR
THE ONLY THING LEFT TO DO
IS TO BREAK THE CHAIN
THAT LINKS ME TO YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT WILL IT JUST TURN OUT THE SAME AGAIN.



I only tell one side,
My side
I tell it to please myself,
Not you
I tell you what I like
I tell you what I want
Even if it isn't true
I tell only of my goodness
Only of my good deeds
I tell the worst of others
Only their worst deeds
Others beware
Wherever you look
Whoever you may see me
For I don’t care
I go where I want,
Anywhere
I do as I please,
I don’t care
I see it my way,
And that’s all there is
I do it my way,
The right way
Like what you see,
Join in
Join me
Don’t,
Take the highway
Cross my path
You’ll soon see
Why I’m called
The king of misery
I see one side,
My side
Get it
Got it
Good
The end.

The Solution

TAKE AWAY THE SHOVEL
IT’S TIME TO STOP DIGGING
THE HOLE WE LIVE IN IS DEEP ENOUGH
TAKE AWAY THE SHOVEL
WE’D BETTER STOP DIGGING
BEFORE THE WALLS CAVE IN ON US
THE DIRT WE DUG
RAKED PUSHED AND SHOVED
THE MOUNTAIN HIGH
THE VALLEY LOW
MOVE THE MOUNTAIN
FILL THE HOLE

Put away the weapons
IT’S TIME TO STOP FIGHTING
THE FIGHT WE FOUGHT IS LONG ENOUGH
TAKE AWAY THE WEAPONS
WE’D BETTER STOP FIGHTING
BEFORE THE LOVE DIES
THE LIFE WE TOOK
RAPED, PILLAGED AND PLUNDERED
A PRICE SO HIGH
MORAL’S SO LOW
REMOVE THE HATE
MAKE LOVE NOT WAR

Take away the money
IT’S TIME TO STOP SPENDING
THE DEBT WE OWE IS LARGE ENOUGH
TAKE AWAY THE MONEY
WE’D BETTER STOP SPENDING
BEFORE OUR GREED EATS UP WHAT’S LEFT
THE WAY WE LIVE
WITHOUT A CARE OR CONCERN
TAKING AND SPENDING
LYING AND CHEATING
GIVING NOTHING IN RETURN
WHEN WE SHOULD BE CARING
HOARDING INSTEAD OF SHARING

Take away religion
IT’S TO STOP THE EXCUSES
OUR DIFFERENCES ARE GREAT ENOUGH
TAKE AWAY RELIGION
WE’D BETTER STOP BLAMING
AND LOOK AT OURSELVES
WHEN WE ARE
WHAT WE SHOULD BE
THEN WE’LL BE CLOSE
TO CONNECTING
SPIRITUALLY

Take away ethnicity
IT’S TIME WE ALL BECAME ONE
YOU AND ME
TAKE AWAY ETHNICITY
COLOUR OF SKIN
THE FOOD WE EAT
THE THINGS WE DO
THE PLACES WE LIVE
WE’RE ALL THE SAME
WE’RE ALL TO BLAME;

I AIN'T STUPID
I AIN’T DUMB
I AIN’T LAZY
BUT ONE THINGS FOR SURE
LIFE SURE IS CRAZY!
GUY LOST HIS JOB
LOST HIS MIND
KILLED HIS FAMILY
TOOK HIS OWN LIFE
IN ANOTHER PLACE
ANOTHER TIME
ANOTHER WORLD
NOT MINE
SUBDIVISION
SACRED SOIL
PEACEFUL COEXISTENCE
MAKES BLOOD BOIL
I WAS HERE FIRST
GET IN LINE
IT BELONGS TO ME
NO, IT’S MINE
I AIN’T STUPID
I AIN’T DUMB
I AIN’T LAZY
BUT ONE THING’S FOR SURE
THIS WORLD SURE IS CRAZY;

The solution is simple
It's just that we're all too fucking lazy!

The truth remains

Bathe in truth
FEEL THE PAIN
HERE IT COMES AGAIN
THE PAST WASHES OFF
BUT THE TRUTH REMAINS

There it goes, leaving now
EXIT RESTRAINT
HONESTY IS COLD
LIES DIE BUT THE TRUTH REMAINS
FOLLOW YOUR OWN WAY BACK
IN YOUR SEARCH FOR ANSWERS
QUESTION’S INSIDE YOU AGAIN

Bathed in truth
HERE IT COMES AGAIN
FEELING THE PAIN
HERE IT COMES AGAIN
HERE IT COMES AGAIN
HONESTY’S COLD
THE PAST WASHES OFF
BUT THE TRUTH REMAINS

IT’S BACK ONCE AGAIN
EXIT RESTRAINT
HONESTY IS COLD
LIES DIE BUT THE TRUTH REMAINS
FOLLOW YOUR OWN WAY BACK
IN YOUR SEARCH FOR ANSWERS
QUESTION’S INSIDE YOU AGAIN

Bathed in truth
FEELING THE PAIN
HERE IT COMES AGAIN
THE PAST WASHES OFF


BUT THE TRUTH REMAINS
BUT THE TRUTH REMAINS
THE PAST WASHES OFF
BUT THE TRUTH REMAINS
BUT THE TRUTH REMAINS.

On the page

THINGS IN LIFE
JUST HAPPEN
THEY HAPPEN
FOR A REASON
SOME WE CAN CONTROL...
IT’S WHAT
WE CAN SEE
AND LEARN
BY WATCHING
BY LISTENING...
EARLY WARNING
PROVISION
ANTI INVASION
PRO FUTURISM
ANTI SUBLIMATION
PROCREATION
ANTI INFLAMMATION
COEXIST
NONCONFORMITY
SOONER OR LATER
THERE WILL COME A TIME
WHEN
TIME MEETS TIME
AND YOU AND I
WILL MEET
I HAVE IT ALL
WORKED OUT
BECAUSE
IT ALL WORKS OUT
ON THE PAGE.

You’ll know why

THERE’S A DOG BARKING IN A TREE
SOMEWHERE OVER THERE
A CAT WALKING UPRIGHT
ONE DOG AND TWO CATFISH
SWIMMING THROUGH THE AIR
AT THIS POINT
I NO LONGER CARE
WHAT YOU SEE
ISN’T ALWAYS THERE
IT’S WHEN YOU SEE IT
YOU SHOULD CARE
IF YOU’VE NEVER EVER
SEEN
A WHALE
HOW CAN YOU
HEAR
ONE CRY
BUT IF YOU HAVE
SEEN
A WHALE
THEN YOU’LL KNOW
WHAT I MEAN
AND WHY.

Snapshot of Myself

As I look down I see myself,
a tattered, wrinkled, abused
pile of young bones
A voice echoes softly though the PCP fog in the room
A strong weathered figure urgently beckons to me
Although already slowly in an upward drift; my momentum halts
Soft words call out and tug gently on the anchor of my soul
My direction changes
Back down through the floorboards and the ceiling above
The light of my existence had almost extinguished itself it seems
I feel a flicker and my mind begins to unbend
A warmth, a rekindling from within
The drowsy numbness of narcotics still in my brain
They say only the good die young
Well, I would have made a lovely corpse
But then I then I thank Oma for this snapshot of myself
And the chance to live again.

Post Mortem

The darkness of night slowly creeps in
Light flickers,
then fades into a blackened sky
The minds eye plays tricks with everything you see
Imagination triggers thoughts of the fears within
Try to relax, be your best self
But all you do is worry,
the gun’s in the drawer
the Bible's on the shelf
Each person you see reminds you again that
You’ve got to be certain,
one hundred percent certain
You were beaten, robbed, left for dead
No one was there,
you were by yourself
the gun’s in the drawer
the Bible's on the shelf
Critically wounded,
clawing to get help
Echoes of voices,
then sirens and nothing...

The gavel gives justice
like a loaded gun to your head,
The accused goes free,
his case was self-defense
Victims are all guilty
by their own choice the argument
Scenes of that night,
you never forget
you relive them every day
A promise, a threat,
uttered through a chuckle
You must take this seriously,
you must take arms
If ever again, then never again,
this will come to end
As you wait,
time passes slowly living in fear
Until the day you are certain,
one hundred percent certain...
the gun’s in the drawer
the Bible's on the shelf
the gun’s in the drawer
the Bible's on the shelf
time passes slowly living in fear
Until the day you are certain,
one hundred percent certain!

Changing

Once it’s said it’s much too late
Hurt feelings don’t hesitate
They rush in like so many times before
Reciprocation leaves you broken, on the floor.
Things said with no thought or concern,
Slow this time, there’s much to learn,
Remember what happens when there’s anger in your head,
Forget competition or what some else said.
Look deep inside yourself, the answers lies there,
A fit of anger becomes a moment of care,
You’ve been here before, go back in your mind,
Don’t lash out or retaliate, say something kind,
You can change today; it’s not too late!

My best parts

People often ask,
how do you do
to them I say,
parts of me are fine,
but parts of me
I’m really not sure of,
how about you?
Of course the parts of me
I like the best
are the parts of me
that have passed the test
The test of course
is the test of time
And the parts of me
that I like best
that have passed the test
are the parts I’ve managed
to refine
Other parts of me
I really love to share
And then there's those
parts of me
for which I really don’t care
But the parts that drag me down the most
Are the parts that make the doctors boast
A limp, a swagger and pain deep inside
Are the parts of me that eat up my pride
There’s no cure for cancer,
arthritis or pain
So the parts that make me happy are
the parts that make me...
Happy in love and in life...
The best parts of me
are my kids and my wife!

Fire

It dances it swirls,
in a circular motion
Hypnotic it’s power,
like a magic potion
It relaxes and warms you
With its soft glow
Sitting for hours
watching the colours flow
It draws the curious closer,
too close to pull back
Silently surrounding them,
turning them charcoal black
Yellow, orange and red
The colours dance in my head
Purple, blue and green
And every colour in between
I crouch a little closer,
to get a better view
A snap, a crackle and a pop,
the music of the hue
I love the woodsy smell,
it's the essence of home
We take it for granted though
That’s really too bad
For as we sleep it slowly dies out
And once again
Just briefly
We lose the first comfort we ever had.

Never Die

BORN TO CHEAT
LOVE TO LIE
MADE A DEAL
I’LL NEVER DIE

Look behind you I’m right there
TRY TO STOP ME IF YOU DARE
I TAKE SOULS OF THOSE WHO TRY
I LOOK THE DEVIL IN HIS EYE

Armour made of flesh and bones
BED AND BLANKETS MADE OF HAIR
IT’S UNSAFE WHEN I’M AROUND
BUT DON’T YOU WORRY; I’M ALWAYS THERE

Born to cheat
LOVE TO LIE
MADE A DEAL
I’LL NEVER DIE

DO WHAT YOU WILL, TO PREVENT THE SPILL
WHEN I WANT, I’LL MAKE THE KILL
I TAKE THE BIG; I TAKE THE SMALL,
SOONER OR LATER I’LL HAVE YOU ALL

I’m just like you or so it seems
CLOSE YOUR EYES, I’M IN YOUR DREAMS
IT’S UNSAFE; DON’T LET YOUR GUARD DOWN
COMPARED TO ME, THE DEVIL’S A CLOWN

I was born to cheat
AND I LOVE TO LIE


I MADE A DEAL
AND I WILL NEVER DIE
I MADE A DEAL
AND I WILL NEVER DIE

Feeding on his bank of bleeding souls
I SUCKED THE BASTARD DRY
I THE ONLY TIME THAT I LET GO
WAS WHEN TEAR ROLLED DOWN FROM SATAN’S EYE

Born to cheat
LIVE TO LIE
I WAS BORN TO CHEAT
AND I LOVE TO LIE
THE DEAL WENT DOWN
AND I WON’T DIE
THE DEAL WENT DOWN AND I WON’T
DIE!

IF I WAS

I’m thinking hard
MY THOUGHTS ARE DEEP
WHICH WILL GO
WHICH I WILL KEEP
THE THINGS I DO
THE THINGS I DON’T
I NEVER REST
I NEVER SLEEP
THE PAIN IT COMES
THE PAIN IT GOES
PAIN IS LIKE A RIVER
WHEN IT FLOWS
IT’S CURRENTS RUNNING DEEP
THE DAY WITH NIGHT IS BLENDED
THE RIVER NEVER SLEEPS
LIKE ACID RAIN FROM A FORMER LIFE
SILENTLY IT SEEPS
GIVE ME STRENGTH
GIVE ME POWER
AND HONOUR
HELP ME LAST JUST ONE MORE HOUR
AND ONCE THAT HOUR DOES PASS
ONCE AGAIN FILL THE HOURGLASS
I’M THINKING HARD
MY THOUGHTS ARE DEEP
THOSE ARE GONE
AND THESE I’LL KEEP
SOME THING’S I’VE DONE
AND SOME NOT YET
PILING UP
WITHOUT REGRET
IF I WAS YOUR FATHER I’D
IF I WAS YOUR FATHER I’D
IF I WAS YOUR FATHER I’D
IF I WAS YOUR FATHER I’D
IF I WAS MY FATHER I WOULD KILL ME!

Hot as a Hemi

Bikini wax and big headlights
Waiting for me every day
Don’t know what I ever did or had
Before you came my way

Hot as a Hemi
Full tank a gas
When I sit inside you
No one can ever pass
You never let me down
You’re always there for me
I know how to turn you on
Baby I got the key

Bikini wax and big headlights
Waiting for me every day
Don’t know what I ever did or had
Before you came my way

Hot as a Hemi
Full tank a gas
Rollin down the highway
Riding fast class
Pop the clutch
Give it some gas
Spin the tires
Pedal to the metal
We’re gonna kick some ass

You’re my little Hemi baby
Full tank a gas
You’re my hot Hemi baby
As I step on the gas

Bikini wax and big headlights
Waiting for me every day
Don’t know what I ever did or had
Before you came my way

Hot as a Hemi
Full tank o gas
No one to the left of us


No one to the right
Fading headlights in the rear view mirror
Racing through the night
Buckle up your seatbelt
Hold on tight
Cuz you’re my little Hemi baby
Full tank a gas
You and me we can go all night
Buckle up your seatbelt baby
Hold on tight
You and me forever baby
Racing through the night

Bikini wax and big headlights
You and me baby, racing through the night
Bikini wax and big headlights
You and me baby, racing through the night
Yeah, racing through the night.

Special ride

GOT TO HAVE YOUR LOVE BABE
GOT TO HAVE IT NOW
RACING WITH THE WIND BABE
I REMEMBER HOW
SWIMMING IN YOUR OCEAN
I COULD NEVER DROWN
CLIMBING ON YOUR MOUNTAINS
NEVER FALLING DOWN

SWARM YOU LIKE A BEEHIVE
TAKE YOU FOR A RIDE
GOT FEEL YOUR LOVE BABE
FEEL IT DEEP INSIDE
FIT ME LIKE A GLOVE
WARM, SOFT, RAWHIDE
FOLDING LIKE A LAWN CHAIR
HUNG OUT TO BE DRIED

God I need your love babe
FEEL IT DEEP INSIDE
YOUR LOVE IS WHAT I WANT BABE
THAT CAN’T BE DENIED

Salt stains on your beaches
FROM TEARS THAT WE HAVE CRIED
FROM THE PASSION AND INTENSITY
FROM THE LAST TIME THAT WE TRIED

Swarm you like a beehive
TAKE YOU FOR A RIDE
GOT FEEL YOUR LOVE BABE
FEEL IT DEEP INSIDE
FIT ME LIKE A GLOVE
WARM, SOFT, RAWHIDE


FOLDING LIKE A LAWN CHAIR
HUNG OUT TO BE DRIED

Treat you like my car girl
YOU’RE MY SPECIAL RIDE
YOU NEVER LET ME DOWN GIRL
EVERY TIME WE’VE TRIED

God I need your love babe
FEEL IT DEEP INSIDE
YOUR LOVE IS WHAT I WANT BABE
THAT CAN’T BE DENIED

YOU’RE LOVE IS WHAT I WANT RIGHT NOW
THAT CANNOT BE DENIED
SWARM YOU LIKE A BEEHIVE
TAKE YOU FOR A RIDE
TREAT YOU LIKE MY CAR GIRL
YOU’RE MY SPECIAL RIDE
TREAT YOU LIKE MY CAR GIRL
YOU’RE MY SPECIAL RIDE
YOU’RE MY SPECIAL RIDE
YOU’RE MY SPECIAL RIDE GIRL
YOU’RE MY SPECIAL RIDE.

Hell inside

HEAVEN’S IN THE REAR VIEW MIRROR
AS I STEP ON THE GAS,
THE FUTURES CLOSING IN ON ME.
THE DEVILS TRYING TO PASS!
I’M SINKING WITH THE SUNSET
DEEP INTO A TRANCE,
I’VE LAUNDERED ALL MY THOUGHTS TODAY
STILL IN MY MIND THEY DANCE.

I can’t escape reality
OR WHO YOU ARE INSIDE OF ME,
MY PREDETERMINED DESTINY?
HEAVEN’S DRAUGHTING CLOSER NOW
THE ROAD’S A ROLLER COASTER NOW
I CAN’T SEE WHAT’S IN FRONT OF ME
BUT THE DEVIL’S PASSED ME NOW, I SEE
I’M SINKING WITH THE SUNSET
DEEP INTO A TRANCE
I’VE LAUNDERED ALL MY THOUGHTS TODAY
STILL IN MY MIND THEY DANCE
STILL IN MY MIND THEY DANCE
IN MY MIND
IN MY MIND
IN MY MIND THEY DANCE
I’VE LAUNDERED ALL MY THOUGHTS TODAY
STILL IN MY MIND THEY DANCE.

I can’t escape reality
OR WHO YOU ARE INSIDE OF ME,
MY PREDETERMINED DESTINY?
HELL IS IMMORTALITY
HELL IS HERE, INSIDE OF ME
HELL
HELL


HELL
IT’S HELL
INSIDE
INSIDE IT’S FUCKING HELL INSIDE OF ME!

Sing a song to be reborn

To tell you the truth
I never thought I'd end up like this
So far from everything
So long from everywhere
As a child I always prayed
Opened my heart to heaven above
I gave what I could
I gave all my love
But something is wrong here
So far from everything
So long from everywhere
To tell you the truth
I never thought I'd end up like this
It's a long road home
It's so long when you're all alone
So far from everything you know
So long from everywhere you go
Far away, far too far away
And it's getting farther every day
To tell you the truth
I never thought I'd end up this way
It's such a long road home
It's so long when you're all alone
It's long way home
When you've gone so far
You can't turn back
Stay straight and narrow
Cling to today for tomorrow
For tomorrow will be your today
To tell you the truth
I never thought I'd end up this way
Lying in bed
Those thoughts in my head
Thoughts of my life
Thoughts of the future
It's been so long
And soon I'll be dead
Those thoughts thought
Were not like this
Those thoughts thought
Would never be like this
So why is it like this
We never thought this
We didn't want this
To tell you the truth
I never thought we'd end like this

Waking up
Lying on the floor
In warm pool of blood
I didn't do it
I wasn't even there
How can this be
Let me go
I have to go now
I have to see
As I look down
On the floor now
I see me
Waking up
Lying on the floor
In a warm pool of blood

Lying beside me
I see them
Each and every last one
I reach to touch
But they run away from me
I want to help but I can't
I don't even know who I am
I reach out to help them
But now they are gone

Waking up
Lying on the floor
In warm pool of blood
I didn't do it
I wasn't even there
How can this be
Let me go, I have go now
I have to see
And as I look down
On the floor now
I see me
Waking up
Lying on the floor
In a warm pool of blood

Turn your head up
Turn your head up to the sky
Reach out to Heaven
Reach way up high
It's funny how you can
It's funny to be this man
The same man
Though you may not know
Till your dying day
It's the same
The same song
You know the words
How it goes
You've known it all
You've sung this song
Once before
It's history repeating itself
Like it has
In the past
It's history
It's history repeating itself

To tell you the truth
I never thought I'd end up like this
So far from everything
So long from everywhere
As a child I always prayed
Opened my heart to heaven above
So help me now
Sing a song so we may be reborn
The same song we sung before
Same song as we sung before
Before the time
Before the day
Sing the song
Sing this all away...
Sing a song so we may be reborn

Turn your head up
Turn your head up to the sky
Reach out to Heaven
Reach way up high
It's funny how you can
It's funny to be this man
The same man
Though you may not know
Till your dying day
It's the same
The same song
You know the words
How it goes
You've done it all
You've sung this song
Once before
It's history repeating itself
Like it has
In the past
It's history
Yes it's history repeating itself
Sing that song
I'll sing along
Sing a song to be reborn...

Passing

My eyes close slowly
The light fades away
The passing of life
Not just today
It’s been good
The parts I know
All the rest
Like the light
Can fade away
There’s not a thing
I’d care to change
To do again
Or rearrange
The past
Gives us the present
All we have and see
The slightest change
The smallest thing
Might keep you
Away from me
So, I lived my life
As best I could
To be the best me
And now that
Time has run out
The future beckons me
But don’t shed a tear
Or be afraid
I am complete
When you are near
So please take my hand
Hold it tight
My eyes close slowly
Out fades the light.

Tired

Tired of conformity
Tired of everyone telling me
I'm fuckin tired of everything
Can’t you see

Don’t do this
You can’t do that
I don’t believe this is where its at
Mom, Dad, teachers and coaches
Bleeding, breeding, feeding cockroaches

I don’t know why I feel like I do
But I know at times
It’s all because of you
And you and you and you

I’m your parents worst nightmare
Living, breathing in real life
Nobody tells me what to do
I'll show them by what I do to you

Don’t do this
You can’t do that
I don’t believe this is where its at
Mom, Dad, teachers and coaches
Bleeding, breeding, feeding cockroaches

I don’t know why I feel the way I do
But I know at times
It’s all because of you
And you and you and you

Tired of everyone telling me
I'm fuckin tired of everything
Can’t you see
I'm even fuckin tired of me!

Simplicity

Simple as a pimple on a dogs cock
You can tell a dog-fucker by the way that he walk
Jump in line
Everything’s fine
It’s all good
Except we’re all out of time
Hickory dickory dock
With every tick of the clock
Times keeps slipping, slipping, slipping away
Until there’s none left
Until tomorrow’s today
Rhyme without reason
Fishing out season
Ever wonder why
Things take so much longer when you watch them
Water to boiling
Paint to dry
Down by the lake
On the lakeshore
She sells cockle shells
And so much more
Down by the lake
On the lakeshore
She sells cockles shells



And much, much more
Of that you can be sure
Walk like a blind man
Talk you deaf mute
Ever wonder how others see you
Do they see what you do when you see you
Or do they see what they want when they see you
And look right through you
Locked inside the garden gate
There is no reason for the gate
Locked inside the garden gate
What’s the reason for the gate
First I saw a mountain
That’s what I saw
That’s what I saw
Then it was a molehill
That was all
That was all
Locked inside the garden gate
Locked inside the garden gate
Far too long
Far too long
Seeing things differently
From here I see
From here I see
This how the world is to me
How it appears to me
From the inside looking out
Everything is greener
Everything I see
Everything’s much greener
That I can see
From where I stand
I see the world differently
From where I stand
Seeing things differently
Is the only way to see
For me
It’s all I know
It’s all I have
And that’s how the world appears to me
To be
Spend a day in my shoes
Help me wear them in


Then fill it to the brim Jim
Gimme some more
No shirt, no shoes, no service
Toss em out the door
Locked inside my room
Locked inside my room
What’s the reason for the door
What’s the reason I am here
Were I not
Where would I be
I would not be
Locked inside my room
Inside my room
What a mess
Sitting locked with a mess
Inside my room
Inside my room
But worst of all
I can’t find a broom
A good sweep is all
That I need
Inside my room
Inside my room
Layer upon layer
Emotional dust piled high
Caked on
Baked on
After years of tears
Free to leave whenever
I want
Whenever I find the door
Inside my room
Or is it the garden gate
The hedges have grown so tall
I can’t see the garden or the gate
I can’t much
But I’m still seeing things differently
Just like before
Sure the grass might be greener now
I still can’t find the gate or the door.

Bring me home

This is a song
It is the only song
Baby please hold on
to what you can
Until the sun
sets on the day

This is a song
It is the only song
So baby please hold on
to what you can
Until the sun
sets on the day

And until then, baby
take my hand
And sing along
Help me sing this song
Take my hand
Baby hold my hand
And help me sing this song
Hold me tight until I'm gone

Sing this song along with me
Sing this song and you will see
The sun has set once again for me
My day is over

Hold my hand and sing this song
Sing loud and sing it strong
Sing for me I'll soon be gone
Won't you please sing along
Until we meet again

Hold my hand, sing this song
Baby won't you please
baby please
join in and
sing this song
until I'm home
Sing and bring me home
I'll soon be gone

Idiot

Looking in the eyes of an idiot
What do see, what do you see
What you see, what you know
Everything learned on TV

Like a bat in the caves
of your mind
Flying towards the light
of conscience
Circling round and round
only to find
There is no way to where
There is no way to there

Innocence is bliss
When you're living like this
Taught to know all we know
You can teach me like a dog
Steer me through the fog
Pretend
that you are
that you are
that you are
my friend

Looking in the eyes of an idiot
What do see, what do you see
What you see, what you know
Everything learned on TV

Do you know what you want
when you get it
And then when you have it
forget it
Take a plan or make one
either real or fake one

Look into
Look into
I said when you look into the eyes
of an idiot
What do you see
A little bit of you
and a little bit of me