From the Inside

I wish that you could tell what I am wishing;
That you could read my mind
You'd be surprised I think
You'd realize that I'm
Not the person who you thought
On any given day
In fact I bet you wouldn't even come close
And if you could read my mind
You'd be impressed at what you might find
I'm not complicated in too many ways
We all have our quirks and individual displays
But the fact and point of this is
That I am me and you are you
Bound together, tethered willingly
by wedlock; we two
For better or worse
In sickness and health
Till death do us part
Change me if you will
But not conventionally please
Do it from the inside
Step inside my shoes and mind
Stay as long as you please
But be forewarned
That there's a surprise in store for you
Don't be too hasty to try and make me change
Or rearrange me
For remember that by changing me
You also change you
For every action a reaction
One turn deserves another
But what gives you the most satisfaction
Be true to yourself
And without distraction
Close your eyes, let your mind go
Think about nothing until I come to mind
I wish that you could tell what I am wishing;
That you could read my mind

Sleep

I'm laying here lonely
I wish you would speak
We've so much to say
But I can't I'm too weak
The stories of days
Days that have passed
The stories of love
We both knew would last
My mind races
in search of sleep
My body aches
from the promise to keep
Trying to stop myself
from dying
My lips try to open
But I cannot say
My thoughts are deep
But the words that I keep
Will not come
Long are the days of love
Full of thought and concern
But unlike a candle
Life has but one burn
Burn it carefully
Burn it right
Treat it tenderly
Burn it bright
If it flickers
Shelter it
Never to go out
It will keep you warm
On the coldest night
In the darkest shadows
It brings you light
Hold it close
and dear to you
It will grow
and always be near to you
But still I lay here lonely
Wishing you would speak
I would
If I could
But I am too weak
I am weary and old
I feel humbled and beaten
When I used to feel bold
Things I once did
I can no longer do
Every movement
another pain
Every thought
another memory
God I wish I were young again
I wasted my life
and so much time
On things and people
that meant so much
to this heart of mine
And in the end
I stood alone at the edge
Alone with time
Had I only listened
We all have that to say
But me I never learned a single lesson
From none of the minutes or hours
or one single day
I pissed
and I wasted
my whole life away
Thinking I was lucky
Until it was time to pay
Lucky, me
Hell yes I am
But believe me when I tell you
This is no life for a man
I've beaten and battered myself
And I'm lonely in my pain
So please say something
To help distract my brain
I love you more than life itself
I love you with all my heart
I know sometimes to see me
Really breaks your heart
But please let me apologize
Before you even start
Don't second guess your thoughts
or rearrange your words
I want and need to hear
What you think even if it hurts
A man who cries is a man who's weak
Perhaps that's true
But I've never cried out of fear for myself
Though I've cried for the love of you
The fear of being without you
Is the worst fear of all
I'm laying here lonely
I wish you would speak
We've so much to say
But I can't I'm too weak

Happy Anniversary

To the best friend
I’ve ever known
Whenever we are apart
I feel so all alone
When we’re together though
I’m so happy for I know
My heart is content
Being with you
My friend; heaven sent
A companion to walk with
hand in hand
As Autumn leaves fall all around
As we walk barefoot through the sand
Long nights shared together
Coffee into the night
Laughter that echoes forever
A confidant
I’m yours and you can be mine
Until the end of time
When your heart aches
I will cry
If you laugh at nothing
I will laugh too
I want to be your lover
To always have your trust
Exploring your passions
Be the naughty or gentle and soft
just like you
I’ll walk you the shower
And bring you coffee too
My love is not a secret
when it comes to loving you
So, to put it quite simply
Colette...
I want you!



WOW...26years babe...seems like yesterday.
I love you and am so lucky to have you...
I can't wait till tonight!

The days are ticking by and still not even one reader or follower...
I must be doing something wrong...breathing perhaps?
Hahaha...taking up space?


Whether or not

If I should die today
Shout out one last hooray
don’t shed a tear for me
The pain is gone
My soul is free
But, if I should not die today
That too would be okay
Because after all the pain
I still have you
And your love to gain.


Kinda sums it up don't it? Well I think it does, sometimes pain is worth it for what you stand to gain.