Lost my way

Tomorrow has come
Here it is today
And once again
I’ve lost my way
It’s cold
It’s Monday
Tomorrow has come
Here it is today
And today
Once again
I’ve lost my way.

Stay in bed

The sun doesn’t seem as bright
Something’s not quite right
I can’t find anything to talk about
The words are there but won’t come out
There’s a thought inside me head
But there’s nothing left to be said
Today I think I’ll stay in bed
Today
I think I’ll stay in bed
I’m not sick
I feel okay
I’m just not sure the car
Will start today


My boots would walk if
I took out the lead
But, to be perfectly honest
Today
I think I’ll stay I in bed
The phones ringing constantly
It’s just another day to me
Nothing good is ever said
Today I think I’ll stay in bed.

Passing

My eyes close slowly
The light fades away
The passing of life
Not just today
It’s been good
The parts I know
All the rest
Like the light
Can fade away
There’s not a thing
I’d care to change
To do again
Or rearrange
The past
Gives us the present
All we have and see
The slightest change
The smallest thing
Might keep you
Away from me
So, I lived my life
As best I could
To be the best me
And now that
Time has run out
The future beckons me
But don’t shed a tear
Or be afraid
I am complete
When you are near
So please take my hand
Hold it tight
My eyes close slowly
Out fades the light.

STAY

White on white and a touch of gray
Is how I saw you as you lay
In depression and selfish anger
in hospital that day.
I don’t ever remember seeing you like this
As I leaned in close and gave you a kiss
It’s moments like this
And you back at home that I’ll miss
A twinkle in your eyes and a faint smile on your lips
the gentle healing touch of your fingertips.
Your soothing words calmed me when I cried
when I was lost you were my guide.
It hurts to sit here now and listen to you saying
all those things you wish would happen to you
every night as you are praying.
I wish I could turn back the hands of time
I’d take you back to banks of the Rhine
A perfect place
A better time
Although you’ve given all that you can for me
there’s one one more thing I’d like
and it won’t come easily.
For you to gather your strength and energy
To fight and win as best you can,
please stay,
please,
do it for me.

this was a time when Oma was very sick, and the cancer was slowly gaining. She was at home with us and she kept wanting the pain to end. She used to pray to God to take her, she wanted to die. Very sad times but wonderful times at once. I love you Oma and apologize for wanting you to stay but I truly didn't realize that you had a say in it as well. God Bless and rest in peace.