Showing posts with label Frustration. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Frustration. Show all posts

Sunday, September 5, 2010

thinking about hurrying

sitting on the front step
with a box knife in my hand
waiting for the sun to come
it's behind a cloud
if the sun don't come
think I'll simply
bleed out loud
I don't have patience,I can't wait
if it doesn't happen,it's too late
thought about love
but that was yesterday
thought about so many things
since then I threw love away
everybody's talking at me, to me
they got something to say
all I can do is listen
I got nothing to say
thought about killing
but that was yesterday
round about when love came
and I walked away
I wonder out loud sometimes
especially when I pray
forgive me while I sin
this life that I live in
is not the vision that I had
does this seems perfect to you
here comes the sun, thank you
but there it goes again




If you, by this strong right hand,
do not want to give the glory of my death,
you give it with your own eyes,
for the dart of your gaze
is that which kills me and consumes me.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

To the bone again

What was I thinking
This can't be real
Bring on the night
bring on the pain
I've had too much
happiness once again.

My skin feels itchy
Crawling deep inside
If I could
I’d tear it off
Peel off my own hide
No longer able to hide
My feet are hot
So uncomfortable
If I could
I’d cut them off
No longer able to run
My body feels different
Sick and tired
It belongs to someone else
I feel odd, out of sorts
Not quite like myself today
If I could
I’d find myself today
Another me today
Another me to be
Another way today.

Looking through my window
Not sure what I see
Searching for something
But it’s not there for me
Shadows falling
In my direction
Streaks upon the glass
Memories of you rush in
And then they quickly pass
Streaks upon the glass
from the tears I have cried
over the lost love passed.

Reminders of all the times
we have both tried
Rays of sadness
As the sun begins to fade
Radiate in the silence
Echo the mistakes that we made.

Driven by a drive
Driven once before
Driven to a place
Driven to a door
Angels all around
What are they here for
The questions are gone
Same answer as before.

Bring on the night
And let it rain
Give it all to me
Tear out my heart
Run me over again.

I guess I was dreaming
Living with no pain
It lasted far too long
What was I thinking
It was bound to break
Happiness seems
too much to take
Bring on the night
Dark is my light
And now the rain
Make it cold and hard
Like my heart
Hit by a train
I guess I was dreaming
I must have been dreaming
again
Living life far too long
without pain
Bring on the night
bring on the pain
take it to the bone
again.

Friday, June 25, 2010

Cleanse

As many as I can man
As many as I can
I told the drunk
I bumped into
At the local bar
Where you from he asked
After what I'd just told him
I simply told him
I come from afar
Well all I can tell you
is this he said
We don't do that sort of thing
round here
I started to smile and said
Well I've only just arrived
give a guy a break I laughed
As a nervous tremor
ever so slight crossed his lips
He reached into his jacket
for what I thought was a gun
I drew first and shot faster
and now the stranger
lay dead in the alley
The stranger lay dead on the ground
another stranger lay dead on the ground
Don't try to understand me
or the reason why
So many have tried
So many have died
The story I tell them
I warn them about
I tell them
I will share the story
And what it's about
But if they want to hear it
They're in it
And there's no way out
The smart ones think they're smart
and ask me what it's all about
I don't gives clues, hints or such
You're either in or out
The self proclaimed smartest ones of all
They ask me nothing, they know it all
But their ignorance
makes them the easiest target of all
And at the end of every story
when I'm just about done
They ask me my intentions
And what it is that brought me here
Why have I come
I'd love to tell you I say
with a great big smile
but that would spoil all the fun
In natural progression
They ask if what I say is true
and if I have done this before
Do I plan to do it again
I reply
As many as I can man
As many as I can
I told the man I met at the corner store
That's messed up he told me
and by the sounds of it so are you
I told him a few things I'd done
to his mother
So he'd co-operate
By the time his first punch landed
for him it was too late
I grabbed his other arm
spin him around into a head lock
My blade met both his ears and now
grinning a bloody grin
the stranger lay dead in aisle six
The stranger lay dead on the floor
Cleanup in aisle six
another stranger lay dead on the floor
There's not much to me
or to understand
I don't give or ask the time
or for directions
pay close attention to your reflection
Don't but into line
Respect other peoples space
Avoid confrontation
Don't look me in the face
Never make eye contact
Always know your place
Never stand too close to the edge
Don't give reason
Don't give rhyme
Don't get caught
Or you too
will run out of time.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Tired

Tired of conformity
Tired of everyone telling me
I'm fuckin tired of everything
Can’t you see

Don’t do this
You can’t do that
I don’t believe this is where its at
Mom, Dad, teachers and coaches
Bleeding, breeding, feeding cockroaches

I don’t know why I feel like I do
But I know at times
It’s all because of you
And you and you and you

I’m your parents worst nightmare
Living, breathing in real life
Nobody tells me what to do
I'll show them by what I do to you

Don’t do this
You can’t do that
I don’t believe this is where its at
Mom, Dad, teachers and coaches
Bleeding, breeding, feeding cockroaches

I don’t know why I feel the way I do
But I know at times
It’s all because of you
And you and you and you

Tired of everyone telling me
I'm fuckin tired of everything
Can’t you see
I'm even fuckin tired of me!

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Depressions resolve

How stupid can I be
How deep can I go
Trying hard to break free
Of this feeling so low
I feel so fucked up
at times I’m sure that you know
but I’ll never give in
whether it comes fast or slow.

I’ve never recognized depression before
But I know it well now
lying her on the floor.
My body’s shaking
and every bone’s aching.
But there’s no Goddamned way
I’m ever giving in
No way! Not today!