It don't come easy

It don't come easy
It ain't that hard to see
It don't come easy
In fact it don't come at all for me
I had a good life
But I gave it all away
I gave part of it to a needle
As for the rest
I cannot say
I have the heart of a young man
Bent broken and sore
I have the mind of a young man
I can't be him anymore
I could have met a woman
Instead I met myself
Somewhere between the needle
And the medicine on the shelf
It don't come easy
It ain't that hard to see
It don't come easy
In fact it don't come at all for me
I made decisions
and every day I pay
For the things I did
Mistakes I made
when choices came my way
I had a good life
But I gave it all away
It don't come easy
It ain't that hard to see
It don't come easy
In fact it don't come at all for me
I am stuck and frustrated
With the heart of a young man
Bent broken and sore
The mind of a young man
Who I can't be anymore
It don't come easy
It ain't that hard to see
It don't come easy
In fact it don't come at all for me
It don't come easy
It ain't that hard to see
It don't come easy
In fact it don't come at all for me
It don't come at all for me
No, no, no...
It don't come at all
for
me

Snapshot of Myself

As I look down I see myself, a wrinkled and abused pile of bones
A voice echoes softly though the PCP fog in the room
A strong weathered figure urgently beckons to me
Although already slowly in an upward drift; my momentum halts
Soft words tug gently on the anchor of my soul
My direction changes
Back down through the floorboards and the ceiling above
The light of my existence had almost extinguished itself it seems
I feel a flicker and my mind begins to unbend
A warmth, a rekindling form within
The drowsy numbness of narcotics still in my brain
They say only the good die young
Well, I would have made a lovely corpse
But then I then I thank Oma for this snapshot of myself
And the chance to live again.

Taken

When darkness took me
I left the sun and moon behind
It happened so quick
Travelling at that speed
I was blind
Snatched like a mouse in field
By an eagle flying
I never knew what hit me
Never saw it coming
I was blind
I felt the warmth of a light
But I never opened my eyes
In a breath it was gone
Darkness held me tight
I'd lost all track of time
Or even what it means
In a fraction of a millisecond
I heard a trillion screams
We moved through the in betweens
We were past imagination
I tried to open my eyes
I was blind
But I felt the presence
Of everything I'd ever lost
Everything taken away from me
Somehow it felt right
It all seemed to fit
All that had happened doesn't matter
Everything glass began to shatter
I closed my eyes
I was blind
I felt a drop of troubled water
Drip upon my face
I felt it as it trickled down
And drip off my chin
Back into space
When I was a child
I almost drowned
That's how I learned to swim
I got tossed in
I took one on the chin
When I was an older child
I almost overdosed
On the basement floor
I looked down and saw myself
I'd never seem me in that way
That's how I learned to love
I was brought back that day
Then again in a car
When we hadn't driven far
When it happened yet again
My friends were saved
And so was I
I lived to tell
I don't know why
But I was brought back
That day as well
Life is strange like that
You have friends
People you know
And people you never see
Until it's time to go
Seems they all show up together
At the same time and place
As you drip like troubled water
Back into space

Changes

Changes keep happening
Life keeps changing
I used to keep up with
the changes
I was good at
rearranging
It used to be
So easy
To keep changing
With the changes
To keep track of
The changes...
changes
that keep happening
But
Lately I found
The changes keep happening
And life keeps changing
But it seems to me
That the changes
are changing things
far too quickly
I can`t keep up anymore
I don`t want to
keep up anymore
Tired of trying
So tired of
Trying to keep up
Only to end up
out of breath
in pain
on the floor
Once more
Thinking
My eyes blinking
Smiling
As the thoughts keep piling
Higher and higher
And the changes
keep happening
Keep changing things
Keep changing my life
Your life and my life
Our life
I`m out of breath
I`m out of so many things
I had before
Things that are gone
That I miss
Things from before
The changes...
have changed me
I don`t even know me
anymore
Please don`t let this be
The way that changes
have changed you and me
I want things to change then
I can`t stand this
change to the way
the way that things were
back when
The changes were changes
and we could keep up
to the changes
life`s changes
once more
thinking
my eyes blinking
smiling
thinking
once more of the days
from before...

An Army of One

If your mind is broken
And your body’s bent
Your weakest moment
Is heaven sent
Capture the light
Reach, lean and repent
Heaven breathes an army of angels
On golden rays of sunshine
They are sent
A glimmer, a glimpse
A flash in the pan
A faint hope
A leap of faith
The child within the man
The darkest moments
In the heart of night
Hold the secrets
To what makes the day bright
Embrace all your fears
Hold onto them tight
Your is left is left
But your wrong will be right
With Gods angels
You’re an army of one
Trust, faith and belief
Will be the weapons
When all is said and done.