feel it

do you feel it
I feel it
do you feel it
I feel it
do you feel it
I feel it too
take my hand
run with me
through the fields
the way we used to do
it has to be real
the way that we feel
let's run till we can't run
anymore
let's run to where
we've never been before
I don't want to rust
or be rooted in place
like a steel bust
of myself
sitting with dust
upon the shelf
for lack of trust
or belief in myself
I need to move
find a new groove
let's hurry together
good or bad weather
while fate allows us
let's bathe in the sound
of the music in our souls
to ourselves redound
no matter whatever may
come or pass our way
this segment, passage
moment in time
will never
be the same again
but is forever
a memory never to feign

Blue

One day soon

I’ll count the layers

in an onion.

Won’t you stay with me?

If you know what I mean

avocado green

We’ll watch the bees

alfalfa yellow

Sometimes you’ve seen

that sometimes

you need to be

blue, haven’t you?

Your man

It`s best to begin at the start
before getting into my heart
before love came
when it rained
it just rained
I was a lonely boy
looking for a lonely girl
someone just like me
too many times
I gave my heart
too many times
I cried
making all the same mistakes
every time
until one night
I almost died
I found her
with another man
I gave her everything
that I possibly could
I bought her diamond rings
and a red sports car
I took her half way round the world with me
she left my heart a scar
And now when the sun shines
it`s raining in my heart
I`m afraid to love
I`m afraid to let go
of the pain I felt that day
now I`m afraid to love
To love the way I did before
please don`t misunderstand me
don`t get up
don`t walk out the door
I`ll try to love again
but I can`t help it
when it rains in my heart
I get afraid once again
of the hurt I felt before
I hope that you can or try
to have the patience to
overlook the way I act or am
I`ll be the best that I can
for you
for now and forever
just give it a chance
and you`ll see
just like me
that I can be
that same man
I feel it
And I know I can
It`s the haunts of my past
that trapped my love for you
in a tin can
take me in your arms
take love out of the can
I can be your Genie
I can be your man.

The blood red strand

just up ahead
right where they stand
is a line drawn
in the sand
shoulder to shoulder
they stood each man
as we moved closer
they stood firm
we could almost see their eyes
when I saw the first one
I felt the fever rise
I knew it was him
by he look in his eyes
the first one's mine I shouted
and began the attack
onward to victory came my cries
and with a swirl of my sword
and a deep lunging thrust
I killed my brother for all of his lies
I stopped for a moment
as I pulled out my sword
why my brother, why my Lord
the line drawn in the sand
the blood red strand
where we once stood hand in hand
two young boys fishing
two young boys wishing
on the future
laughing about our lives
and our future wives
two young boys
two brothers
the blood red strand
why did it happen
why did you leave
this place your homeland
we never did get along
but never fought at all
to desert your family
your Mother, Father and Brother
to desert us all
and your friends
for fame and riches
to be worshipped
and bejeweled
we were brought up to believe
that people cannot be ruled
and used by keeping them in fear
why my brother, why my Lord
and how did we get to here
the line drawn in the sand
the blood red strand

making the right decisions in life can be the most devasting...sometimes involving the hurting of those we love most

Thin

I used to be thin
Thin skinned
Thin stature
Shallow minded
Quick to lash out
Quicker to blame
It was easy to be unkind
To be in control
At least that’s what I thought
Yet eaten by guilt
Lost and distraught
Varsol to paint
Tears to love
Alienation
Subjectiveness
Persecution
Demanding and
Notwithstanding
The control
I thought I had
Time connects
Wounds
As it slowly passes
Soon numbness
Followed by dumbness
Becomes me
And then you
Somehow I feel
Quiet now
I feel like glue
Thick and slow
Bonding to you
The feeling I hope
Has transcended
The thin within me
Is now thick because of you
To live a day without you
Is something I have yet to do
And until that day arrives
Let this glueleg
Stay and stick in love with you
Somehow you have managed
To change me
My heart and my soul
Your presence it calms me
When I need it most
A million dollar prize
The finest slice
A million miles walked
A language outspoken
And so much more
The rubber is connecting
Its tight band retracts
It draws near to me
A twinkle; a spark
My fluttering heart
Pounds deep inside me
It rumbles
It rolls and
It rubs me the right way
I am complete
Yet empty
Completely empty
I suppose.

From the Inside

I wish that you could tell what I am wishing;
That you could read my mind
You'd be surprised I think
You'd realize that I'm
Not the person who you thought
On any given day
In fact I bet you wouldn't even come close
And if you could read my mind
You'd be impressed at what you might find
I'm not complicated in too many ways
We all have our quirks and individual displays
But the fact and point of this is
That I am me and you are you
Bound together, tethered willingly
by wedlock; we two
For better or worse
In sickness and health
Till death do us part
Change me if you will
But not conventionally please
Do it from the inside
Step inside my shoes and mind
Stay as long as you please
But be forewarned
That there's a surprise in store for you
Don't be too hasty to try and make me change
Or rearrange me
For remember that by changing me
You also change you
For every action a reaction
One turn deserves another
But what gives you the most satisfaction
Be true to yourself
And without distraction
Close your eyes, let your mind go
Think about nothing until I come to mind
I wish that you could tell what I am wishing;
That you could read my mind

Drowning

Drowning and
I'm nowhere near water
Drowning and
I can't get out
I can't swim and
you can't help me and
you can't come in
Drowning again
always in a new place
In a new home
Wearing my own face and
Every time I think I got things
figured out
Placed my Levy's carefully
Every time I think it'll be
alright
I wake up drowning
Drowning nowhere near water
I wake up and
you're nowhere near and
I'm all alone and
drowning in a tear
There's no one near
To comfort or hold me
I'm alone in my dreams
as with eyes wide open
Listening I hear
all the words spoken
There are too many voices
too many voices and
too many people
Am I dreaming
or is this real
I'm drowning and
I'm nowhere near water
Drowning and
I can't get out
I can't swim and
you can't help me and
you can't come in and
I try to pull you in
Pull you in alongside me
Drowning alongside me
I look closer at you and
you are gone
You never did drown well
I could tell
Drowning and
I'm nowhere near water
Drowning and
I can't get out
Try as I might
Try hard as I can
Still I'm drowning and
I'm nowhere near water
Drowning and
I can't get out
Too much emotion
Too much pain
Too much loving
Wake up in a bed of water
Made up my own tears
Filled full of my own guilt and fears
Now I'm drowning in my sorrows
I can't stop the tears
And Lord you know I can't swim
I just want out of here
I can't take it anymore
I don't want it anymore
Dear God please help me
Stop me drowning and
let me stand up once more

Turn out the same

Of all the things that could go wrong

I THINK WE WERE BOTH FAR TOO YOUNG
I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT NOW IT’S GONE TOO FAR
THE ONLY THING LEFT TO DO
IS TO BREAK THE CHAIN
THAT LINKS ME TO YOU
OF ALL THE THINGS THAT COULD GO WRONG
I THINK WE WERE BOTH TOO YOUNG
I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT IT‘LL JUST TURN OUT THE SAME AGAIN

You know I cry for you
Of all the things that could go wrong

I MISS YOU
I THINK WE WERE BOTH FAR TOO YOUNG
I MISS YOU

I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
BUT NOW IT’S GONE TOO FAR
THE ONLY THING LEFT TO DO
IS TO BREAK THE CHAIN
THAT LINKS ME TO YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT WILL IT JUST TURN OUT THE SAME AGAIN.

You know I cry for you
Of all the things that could go wrong

I MISS YOU
I THINK WE WERE BOTH FAR TOO YOUNG
I MISS YOU

I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
BUT NOW IT’S GONE TOO FAR
THE ONLY THING LEFT TO DO
IS TO BREAK THE CHAIN
THAT LINKS ME TO YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT WILL IT JUST TURN OUT THE SAME AGAIN.

You know I cry for you
Of all the things that could go wrong

I MISS YOU
I THINK WE WERE BOTH FAR TOO YOUNG
I MISS YOU

I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
BUT NOW IT’S GONE TOO FAR
THE ONLY THING LEFT TO DO
IS TO BREAK THE CHAIN
THAT LINKS ME TO YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT WILL IT JUST TURN OUT THE SAME AGAIN.

The days are ticking by and still not even one reader or follower...
I must be doing something wrong...breathing perhaps?
Hahaha...taking up space?


Whether or not

If I should die today
Shout out one last hooray
don’t shed a tear for me
The pain is gone
My soul is free
But, if I should not die today
That too would be okay
Because after all the pain
I still have you
And your love to gain.


Kinda sums it up don't it? Well I think it does, sometimes pain is worth it for what you stand to gain.

I'd have no life,
If it weren't for my wife
She steers me straight
Be it forward or reverse
She's the one who turns
The one who turned me
Into who I am
I can't refute it
Or dispute it
The simple truth is
All that's good in me
All that's righteous
Respectful and cautious
All that is good in me
Is now up to and because of
My wife
To this point I have been good
But far too often less than I could
And or should
It's not that I don't know better
I learn pretty fast
And I'm no bed wetter
I was taught by the best
I was taught not to quit
Yet often I did
I was to be nice and to care
Not only what others think
But what they feel
Yet I've hurt so many
To many to count
I was told to have conscience
And I do
It eats away at me
Every single day
I have learned that
For everything you do
There's a price to pay
And sometimes
Pay and pay
I've never killed anyone
Although I probably could
I've never maimed anyone
Killing would be easier
I know that I've hurt someone
And they know who they are
If I could take back all the hurt
Take back all the pain
Take it all back
Start over again
Not in this lifetime
That's' why we have pain
First my Mom
Then Oma
And now my wife
The most influential
Where the sense of reason
The sense of fair play
And honesty came from
My emotions at times rush in
And from all directions
I feel what people feel
I feel pain and suffering
I feel anger and embarrassment
I feel pleasure and deceit
I pay for sin
Put you hand out
Reach deep within
Pull out what you can
Keep it for yourself
From me
It's all I have to give
For now...

Colour

Orange burns
Like a squirt in the eye
Green wilts
Before going dry
Red hurts
Sometimes at least
Blue soothes
The wound and the crease
Yellow aches
Grey sums them up
It’s the colour I feel.