Cut without a knife
Bleeding without blood
Shot without a gun
Stepped on
Treated like mud
Gone without leaving
A race without the run
Shook until shaking
Love is not taking
But giving instead
Drowning in tears
For the past several years
Being lied to and told
What you think is true
No sooner did you learn to speak
Only to be told you'll never being heard
Too scared to sacrifice
the only thing you have
So you cling onto the hope
Of someday growing old
You feel so all alone
in your world
You feel so all alone
Your world though it's small
Closes in on you no less
Your hurt and so alone
It will be hard but
you have to stay strong
Hold close to your heart
The memories you chose
Then let love guide you
And you`ll never lose
The battle is hard
Though just a few days
It's an uphill climb
Day by day
And the farther you go
It gets harder you'll find
But once at the top
Where you belong
You can take a deep breath
Take your life and move on
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Sunday, October 21, 2012
Saturday, August 14, 2010
The blood red strand
just up ahead
right where they stand
is a line drawn
in the sand
shoulder to shoulder
they stood each man
as we moved closer
they stood firm
we could almost see their eyes
when I saw the first one
I felt the fever rise
I knew it was him
by he look in his eyes
the first one's mine I shouted
and began the attack
onward to victory came my cries
and with a swirl of my sword
and a deep lunging thrust
I killed my brother for all of his lies
I stopped for a moment
as I pulled out my sword
why my brother, why my Lord
the line drawn in the sand
the blood red strand
where we once stood hand in hand
two young boys fishing
two young boys wishing
on the future
laughing about our lives
and our future wives
two young boys
two brothers
the blood red strand
why did it happen
why did you leave
this place your homeland
we never did get along
but never fought at all
to desert your family
your Mother, Father and Brother
to desert us all
and your friends
for fame and riches
to be worshipped
and bejeweled
we were brought up to believe
that people cannot be ruled
and used by keeping them in fear
why my brother, why my Lord
and how did we get to here
the line drawn in the sand
the blood red strand
right where they stand
is a line drawn
in the sand
shoulder to shoulder
they stood each man
as we moved closer
they stood firm
we could almost see their eyes
when I saw the first one
I felt the fever rise
I knew it was him
by he look in his eyes
the first one's mine I shouted
and began the attack
onward to victory came my cries
and with a swirl of my sword
and a deep lunging thrust
I killed my brother for all of his lies
I stopped for a moment
as I pulled out my sword
why my brother, why my Lord
the line drawn in the sand
the blood red strand
where we once stood hand in hand
two young boys fishing
two young boys wishing
on the future
laughing about our lives
and our future wives
two young boys
two brothers
the blood red strand
why did it happen
why did you leave
this place your homeland
we never did get along
but never fought at all
to desert your family
your Mother, Father and Brother
to desert us all
and your friends
for fame and riches
to be worshipped
and bejeweled
we were brought up to believe
that people cannot be ruled
and used by keeping them in fear
why my brother, why my Lord
and how did we get to here
the line drawn in the sand
the blood red strand
making the right decisions in life can be the most devasting...sometimes involving the hurting of those we love most
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Taken
When darkness took me
I left the sun and moon behind
It happened so quick
Travelling at that speed
I was blind
Snatched like a mouse in field
By an eagle flying
I never knew what hit me
Never saw it coming
I was blind
I felt the warmth of a light
But I never opened my eyes
In a breath it was gone
Darkness held me tight
I'd lost all track of time
Or even what it means
In a fraction of a millisecond
I heard a trillion screams
We moved through the in betweens
We were past imagination
I tried to open my eyes
I was blind
But I felt the presence
Of everything I'd ever lost
Everything taken away from me
Somehow it felt right
It all seemed to fit
All that had happened doesn't matter
Everything glass began to shatter
I closed my eyes
I was blind
I felt a drop of troubled water
Drip upon my face
I felt it as it trickled down
And drip off my chin
Back into space
When I was a child
I almost drowned
That's how I learned to swim
I got tossed in
I took one on the chin
When I was an older child
I almost overdosed
On the basement floor
I looked down and saw myself
I'd never seem me in that way
That's how I learned to love
I was brought back that day
Then again in a car
When we hadn't driven far
When it happened yet again
My friends were saved
And so was I
I lived to tell
I don't know why
But I was brought back
That day as well
Life is strange like that
You have friends
People you know
And people you never see
Until it's time to go
Seems they all show up together
At the same time and place
As you drip like troubled water
Back into space
I left the sun and moon behind
It happened so quick
Travelling at that speed
I was blind
Snatched like a mouse in field
By an eagle flying
I never knew what hit me
Never saw it coming
I was blind
I felt the warmth of a light
But I never opened my eyes
In a breath it was gone
Darkness held me tight
I'd lost all track of time
Or even what it means
In a fraction of a millisecond
I heard a trillion screams
We moved through the in betweens
We were past imagination
I tried to open my eyes
I was blind
But I felt the presence
Of everything I'd ever lost
Everything taken away from me
Somehow it felt right
It all seemed to fit
All that had happened doesn't matter
Everything glass began to shatter
I closed my eyes
I was blind
I felt a drop of troubled water
Drip upon my face
I felt it as it trickled down
And drip off my chin
Back into space
When I was a child
I almost drowned
That's how I learned to swim
I got tossed in
I took one on the chin
When I was an older child
I almost overdosed
On the basement floor
I looked down and saw myself
I'd never seem me in that way
That's how I learned to love
I was brought back that day
Then again in a car
When we hadn't driven far
When it happened yet again
My friends were saved
And so was I
I lived to tell
I don't know why
But I was brought back
That day as well
Life is strange like that
You have friends
People you know
And people you never see
Until it's time to go
Seems they all show up together
At the same time and place
As you drip like troubled water
Back into space
Sunday, January 3, 2010
I've been blog lazy...
To tell you the truth I have been blog lazy but life busy and that's a good thing. I spent as much time as I could with Colette. We are so good together when we get along instead of fighting like cat and dog. It has been a nice beginning to the new year. I hope that everyone had a wonderful and safe time at whatever they were doing to bring in the new year.
So it's already January 3, 2010. May all your wishes come true and may you have the strength to fulfill all your New Years resolutions.
I more than anything wish good health and recovery for myself and anyone else who suffered injuries or disease. So if you're reading this and would like to share what you have gone through I would love hear from you and we can perhaps strengthen each other in the process. I have found that disclosure/sharing your condition with someone like a friend or relative can be therapeutic and cleansing at the same time.
I know talking about things to be a definite positive thing to do from my own experiences. I'm not a doctor merely someone who can say been there and done that, experienced that, went through that, I'm someone who is both sympathetic and apathetic without being an enabler. I believe in positive support and reinforcement which may mean that I don't necessarily support what you're doing but rather a different spin or more positive way of doing the same thing. I'm far from perfect and therefore cannot be your judge or jury but I do make a good sounding board to bounce things off of due to my open-mindedness. I hope to start the new year off and spend some of it helping people or simply listening because that's how we learn. I plan on making this the year in which I make my biggest and most influential changes. I hope to make my commitments a lifetime thing, a change in life style if you will. It's not all about you ya knuckledragger! I plan on practising what I preach, I plan on being patient, pleasant, nice, amiable a quiet and good listener, helpful, less critical. Sounds both hard and easy, kinda like life, but I plan to do it one day at a time.
Maybe you don't have or feel like talking about anything personal or medical well hey, that's cool too. But what about a resolution you care to share or a change that you plan on making in the new year, I'd love to hear about it.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
GOD BLESS
GOOD HEALTH
To tell you the truth I have been blog lazy but life busy and that's a good thing. I spent as much time as I could with Colette. We are so good together when we get along instead of fighting like cat and dog. It has been a nice beginning to the new year. I hope that everyone had a wonderful and safe time at whatever they were doing to bring in the new year.
So it's already January 3, 2010. May all your wishes come true and may you have the strength to fulfill all your New Years resolutions.
I more than anything wish good health and recovery for myself and anyone else who suffered injuries or disease. So if you're reading this and would like to share what you have gone through I would love hear from you and we can perhaps strengthen each other in the process. I have found that disclosure/sharing your condition with someone like a friend or relative can be therapeutic and cleansing at the same time.
I know talking about things to be a definite positive thing to do from my own experiences. I'm not a doctor merely someone who can say been there and done that, experienced that, went through that, I'm someone who is both sympathetic and apathetic without being an enabler. I believe in positive support and reinforcement which may mean that I don't necessarily support what you're doing but rather a different spin or more positive way of doing the same thing. I'm far from perfect and therefore cannot be your judge or jury but I do make a good sounding board to bounce things off of due to my open-mindedness. I hope to start the new year off and spend some of it helping people or simply listening because that's how we learn. I plan on making this the year in which I make my biggest and most influential changes. I hope to make my commitments a lifetime thing, a change in life style if you will. It's not all about you ya knuckledragger! I plan on practising what I preach, I plan on being patient, pleasant, nice, amiable a quiet and good listener, helpful, less critical. Sounds both hard and easy, kinda like life, but I plan to do it one day at a time.
Maybe you don't have or feel like talking about anything personal or medical well hey, that's cool too. But what about a resolution you care to share or a change that you plan on making in the new year, I'd love to hear about it.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
GOD BLESS
GOOD HEALTH
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Well, the countdown has begun officially now...less than 12 hours before the New Year!
I wonder what tomorrow will look like. I don't know about you but I like to go out and see how different the new year looks and feels. It is different, I can't explain it but it is and it does feel different when you're out on New Years day. I suppose it's the revitalization we feel by the fact that the new year symbolizes a new start, a new beginning, or perhaps a second chance at what you did wrong the year before. But it's not even that, I find myself feeling almost alien as I take in the new feelings on the first day of the new year. It feels virginal, it feels innocent and naked. It needs you and me to fill it, it needs what we do to make it real. I love walking or sitting outside in the cold winter sun. You can feel everything around you begin anew right along with you. The crisp cold air as it crystallizes in your nose as you inhale, the spread of your breath in a cold burst of warm fog out of your mouth. The first day of the new year, the cold of winter, nature and all her splendor, a hot cup of something and the company of those we love is probably the best way to bring in the new and toss out the old! God Bless Canada, God Bless each and everyone, God Bless the soldiers and all those who walk along side them in the endless search for peace. May 2010 be a year in which we reflect all the bad that has happened and let us turn a corner and walk int the direction of peace. It is a short walk to reach but such a long time coming. Take another person's hand and show them the way, let us become leaders to all those who are lost or too weak to find the way. Ambassadors of peace and goodwill.
I wonder what tomorrow will look like. I don't know about you but I like to go out and see how different the new year looks and feels. It is different, I can't explain it but it is and it does feel different when you're out on New Years day. I suppose it's the revitalization we feel by the fact that the new year symbolizes a new start, a new beginning, or perhaps a second chance at what you did wrong the year before. But it's not even that, I find myself feeling almost alien as I take in the new feelings on the first day of the new year. It feels virginal, it feels innocent and naked. It needs you and me to fill it, it needs what we do to make it real. I love walking or sitting outside in the cold winter sun. You can feel everything around you begin anew right along with you. The crisp cold air as it crystallizes in your nose as you inhale, the spread of your breath in a cold burst of warm fog out of your mouth. The first day of the new year, the cold of winter, nature and all her splendor, a hot cup of something and the company of those we love is probably the best way to bring in the new and toss out the old! God Bless Canada, God Bless each and everyone, God Bless the soldiers and all those who walk along side them in the endless search for peace. May 2010 be a year in which we reflect all the bad that has happened and let us turn a corner and walk int the direction of peace. It is a short walk to reach but such a long time coming. Take another person's hand and show them the way, let us become leaders to all those who are lost or too weak to find the way. Ambassadors of peace and goodwill.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Wow...11:52...just over 24 hours to go until it's next year and what a year and number too...2010...looks good so lets all hope and help make it good! This year past was the shits at least for me. The high point was Rachel graduating from University, in second was buying our car Mazda6...Mmmmm what a sweet ride! The worst thing of all of course was my accident. Coming home from as I have a thousand times before and on the same roadways as always. Not a good idea or at least not a good place to be at that time.
Anyways I did want to just drop in and say how much I love my family, my wife Colette and kids Rachel and Sean, my Mom and Dad, my niece Melissa and her husband Kevin, my sister Donna and her Husband Mike and their kids Roger, Emily and Lucas, my Mother-in-law Irene, my brother-in-law Mark and his betrothed Ruthie, my brother-in-law Stephen and his wife Carol and their kids Gemma and Katie, my sister-in-law Karen and her husband Colbourn and their kids Micheal, Christopher and David, my friend for life Micheal and his Mother Trudy, my friend Jakob, my friend Marcin, and of course both my Tante Irmgart and cousin Roland and his wife and family as well as all of Colette's family both in London Ontario and Exeter as well as abroad with a specil hello and best wishes going out to Uncle Victor and of course sweet wee Millie, and if I forgot anyone I truly appologize I do love and appreciate each and everyone of you! God Bless you all a bring health, wealth and prosperity your way in the New Year!
Anyways I did want to just drop in and say how much I love my family, my wife Colette and kids Rachel and Sean, my Mom and Dad, my niece Melissa and her husband Kevin, my sister Donna and her Husband Mike and their kids Roger, Emily and Lucas, my Mother-in-law Irene, my brother-in-law Mark and his betrothed Ruthie, my brother-in-law Stephen and his wife Carol and their kids Gemma and Katie, my sister-in-law Karen and her husband Colbourn and their kids Micheal, Christopher and David, my friend for life Micheal and his Mother Trudy, my friend Jakob, my friend Marcin, and of course both my Tante Irmgart and cousin Roland and his wife and family as well as all of Colette's family both in London Ontario and Exeter as well as abroad with a specil hello and best wishes going out to Uncle Victor and of course sweet wee Millie, and if I forgot anyone I truly appologize I do love and appreciate each and everyone of you! God Bless you all a bring health, wealth and prosperity your way in the New Year!
Friday, December 25, 2009
Christmas Dinner Menu
Stuffed roast turkey with gravy
Roasted potatoes
Brown sugar & garlic carmalized brussel sprouts
Honey & ginger glazed carrots
Cranberry sauce with a hint of French vanilla
Mississauga Mud Pie
Apple walnut cheescake
Then, quicker than you can say Rudolf the Red Nosed Reindeer, Christmas has come and gone!
It was a good Christmas though, all things considered. It was full of fun, joy, laughter. And at the end of it all I can say it was one worth caulking up in the good books.
It's just leaving 1 am and I can't sleep. Rachel is sleeping on the couch, Sean just came home with 1/2 dozen friends in tow, seems they are having a hard time letting the spirit of Christmas go. Either that or they are having a hard time keeping the spirit in the bottle instead...LOL
If I learned something it is that as a parent or an adult in general, once we reach a certain age we are no longer the loud voice telling jokes, or the story teller, or the one how everyone knows. It's the point at which we must take the back seat and enjoy the view and the ride. We may be the bank and we may be the captain but we are no longer the focal point or the main attraction. So rather than even trying to compete, sometimes it's best to just throw in the towel and say enough is enough, you win. Once you do, it may take a few minutes, but once you do it actually changes the way you feel and how much more enjoyment you'll have by simply blending in and slowly disappearing into the woodwork, being a fly on the wall in your children's lives. Suddenly they transform into something wonderful, bright, new and exciting, they become themselves.
Christmas is such a special time of year. It seems it touches everyone. It effects the look on peoples faces, the tone of their voice and the way they act. I truly wish it could be Christmas, at least in spirit, every day!
I will have to get some sleep tonight and then in the morning we have a few hours before we get to do it all over again at Stephen's place in Burlington. We'll be in for some finger foods, plenty of finger foods, more like the whole hand food, LOL, and lot's of beverages, shooters of all imaginary flavours, beers and whiskey's and a whole lot more. If it's new and has alcohol, Stephen has either heard of it and is waiting for his delivery or he already has it in stock. I dont drink anymore so that's a good thing because from what I can remember I always had a very good time at Flynn family functions. Not that I don't have a good time anymore, it's just now I now when I'm not having a good time...hahaha.
I will report back on just how much fun it was soon.
Stuffed roast turkey with gravy
Roasted potatoes
Brown sugar & garlic carmalized brussel sprouts
Honey & ginger glazed carrots
Cranberry sauce with a hint of French vanilla
Mississauga Mud Pie
Apple walnut cheescake
Then, quicker than you can say Rudolf the Red Nosed Reindeer, Christmas has come and gone!
It was a good Christmas though, all things considered. It was full of fun, joy, laughter. And at the end of it all I can say it was one worth caulking up in the good books.
It's just leaving 1 am and I can't sleep. Rachel is sleeping on the couch, Sean just came home with 1/2 dozen friends in tow, seems they are having a hard time letting the spirit of Christmas go. Either that or they are having a hard time keeping the spirit in the bottle instead...LOL
If I learned something it is that as a parent or an adult in general, once we reach a certain age we are no longer the loud voice telling jokes, or the story teller, or the one how everyone knows. It's the point at which we must take the back seat and enjoy the view and the ride. We may be the bank and we may be the captain but we are no longer the focal point or the main attraction. So rather than even trying to compete, sometimes it's best to just throw in the towel and say enough is enough, you win. Once you do, it may take a few minutes, but once you do it actually changes the way you feel and how much more enjoyment you'll have by simply blending in and slowly disappearing into the woodwork, being a fly on the wall in your children's lives. Suddenly they transform into something wonderful, bright, new and exciting, they become themselves.
Christmas is such a special time of year. It seems it touches everyone. It effects the look on peoples faces, the tone of their voice and the way they act. I truly wish it could be Christmas, at least in spirit, every day!
I will have to get some sleep tonight and then in the morning we have a few hours before we get to do it all over again at Stephen's place in Burlington. We'll be in for some finger foods, plenty of finger foods, more like the whole hand food, LOL, and lot's of beverages, shooters of all imaginary flavours, beers and whiskey's and a whole lot more. If it's new and has alcohol, Stephen has either heard of it and is waiting for his delivery or he already has it in stock. I dont drink anymore so that's a good thing because from what I can remember I always had a very good time at Flynn family functions. Not that I don't have a good time anymore, it's just now I now when I'm not having a good time...hahaha.
I will report back on just how much fun it was soon.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
I'd have no life,
If it weren't for my wife
She steers me straight
Be it forward or reverse
She's the one who turns
The one who turned me
Into who I am
I can't refute it
Or dispute it
The simple truth is
All that's good in me
All that's righteous
Respectful and cautious
All that is good in me
Is now up to and because of
My wife
To this point I have been good
But far too often less than I could
And or should
It's not that I don't know better
I learn pretty fast
And I'm no bed wetter
I was taught by the best
I was taught not to quit
Yet often I did
I was to be nice and to care
Not only what others think
But what they feel
Yet I've hurt so many
To many to count
I was told to have conscience
And I do
It eats away at me
Every single day
I have learned that
For everything you do
There's a price to pay
And sometimes
Pay and pay
I've never killed anyone
Although I probably could
I've never maimed anyone
Killing would be easier
I know that I've hurt someone
And they know who they are
If I could take back all the hurt
Take back all the pain
Take it all back
Start over again
Not in this lifetime
That's' why we have pain
First my Mom
Then Oma
And now my wife
The most influential
Where the sense of reason
The sense of fair play
And honesty came from
My emotions at times rush in
And from all directions
I feel what people feel
I feel pain and suffering
I feel anger and embarrassment
I feel pleasure and deceit
I pay for sin
Put you hand out
Reach deep within
Pull out what you can
Keep it for yourself
From me
It's all I have to give
For now...
If it weren't for my wife
She steers me straight
Be it forward or reverse
She's the one who turns
The one who turned me
Into who I am
I can't refute it
Or dispute it
The simple truth is
All that's good in me
All that's righteous
Respectful and cautious
All that is good in me
Is now up to and because of
My wife
To this point I have been good
But far too often less than I could
And or should
It's not that I don't know better
I learn pretty fast
And I'm no bed wetter
I was taught by the best
I was taught not to quit
Yet often I did
I was to be nice and to care
Not only what others think
But what they feel
Yet I've hurt so many
To many to count
I was told to have conscience
And I do
It eats away at me
Every single day
I have learned that
For everything you do
There's a price to pay
And sometimes
Pay and pay
I've never killed anyone
Although I probably could
I've never maimed anyone
Killing would be easier
I know that I've hurt someone
And they know who they are
If I could take back all the hurt
Take back all the pain
Take it all back
Start over again
Not in this lifetime
That's' why we have pain
First my Mom
Then Oma
And now my wife
The most influential
Where the sense of reason
The sense of fair play
And honesty came from
My emotions at times rush in
And from all directions
I feel what people feel
I feel pain and suffering
I feel anger and embarrassment
I feel pleasure and deceit
I pay for sin
Put you hand out
Reach deep within
Pull out what you can
Keep it for yourself
From me
It's all I have to give
For now...
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Never the same again
Today
You're too old they say
You're no good
But the things I used to do
They never could
Getting beat up once or twice
isn't so bad I suppose
Unless it's daily for three or four years
It's then the feeling grows
Life takes on a new meaning
Every moment is filled with fear
Often times wondering
How'd I ever get to here
Different for no reason
But quite apparently so
Those feelings felt so strong
and so long ago
Those feelings are still strong
and they just won't go
Haunting every moment the past stays alive
Feeding on my fears to survive
Trying to belong
Since I can first remember
I was so innocent and tender
Curious and kind
Never the pretender
Never one to mind
Walking with an open heart
Open for the taking
Innocently breaking
But first came the mind
You're a bad person they say
You're no good
Then they chased me away
How bad can you be
Being barely as old as the day
What can be done
About what was done
When it was done without you
Words said in anger
Trying to even the score
With other words said in anger
Some time before
Words that started a war
Words that were said before
Then came the fight
A personal war
You get pushed, you get shoved
Until no more
Backed into a corner
The teddy bear strikes back
No one there at the time
No one ahead
No one behind
Just me alone in the line
Feeling bad but doing fine
It's tough getting there
It's an uphill climb
And the harder you try
It gets harder I find
But in the end
When the end comes
And it will
Everyone gets a chance, a second chance
To get even, to spill
The harder you try
The bigger the hill
But get there you will
I'm still trying
But mine is one big fucking hill
Next came the heart
A big one for me
Both mine
And the one that belongs to me
Big enough to share
Large enough to spare
Thoughts, feelings and emotions
Stretching from here to there
Love at first sight
Like a bee sting
A bug bite
Not unlike
The tender itch
Of loves first bite
Came to me with Herculean might
Over hill and over dale
Through hoarfrost snow
And driving hail
Caring not for what I should
Only wanting for what I could
Seeing only what I saw
Not remembering
The seeing I saw
Were it not for blinding love
I could perhaps have risen above
The perpetuation and obsession
I confused with love
Next came family
First and foremost
First for most
And second to none
You only have one
Being a loner isn't much fun
Losing touch with my Father
Father with Son
First loss came very young
I lost my Father
I lost him through the things I'd done
I can't tell you when or how
But I know I'm the one
Who lost my Father his loving Son
God Bless him for he's still living
And may he live on and on
There are the losses I shall never forget
Friends and friends and friends all my age
Doing things that we did to battle the rage
The blur of those two decades
Sometimes overwhelms me
My life has changes
I'm scared and it serves me right
I suppose
The burden is the luggage of blame
But the first loss from home
Came from far away
But cut deep into my innocence
Followed quickly by another
The deepest cut of all
I came and felt
As though it were my own heart
Cutting deep, cutting hard
Torn from my arms
Tearing me apart
As I celebrate that loss
I honour her heart
Then there was peace
But not without distress
Not without worry
God Bless
But peace does not last
All things must pass
But Such a loss
Such a terrible loss
Losing a loved one
Is like losing a limb
Life goes on
But you're never the same again.
You're too old they say
You're no good
But the things I used to do
They never could
Getting beat up once or twice
isn't so bad I suppose
Unless it's daily for three or four years
It's then the feeling grows
Life takes on a new meaning
Every moment is filled with fear
Often times wondering
How'd I ever get to here
Different for no reason
But quite apparently so
Those feelings felt so strong
and so long ago
Those feelings are still strong
and they just won't go
Haunting every moment the past stays alive
Feeding on my fears to survive
Trying to belong
Since I can first remember
I was so innocent and tender
Curious and kind
Never the pretender
Never one to mind
Walking with an open heart
Open for the taking
Innocently breaking
But first came the mind
You're a bad person they say
You're no good
Then they chased me away
How bad can you be
Being barely as old as the day
What can be done
About what was done
When it was done without you
Words said in anger
Trying to even the score
With other words said in anger
Some time before
Words that started a war
Words that were said before
Then came the fight
A personal war
You get pushed, you get shoved
Until no more
Backed into a corner
The teddy bear strikes back
No one there at the time
No one ahead
No one behind
Just me alone in the line
Feeling bad but doing fine
It's tough getting there
It's an uphill climb
And the harder you try
It gets harder I find
But in the end
When the end comes
And it will
Everyone gets a chance, a second chance
To get even, to spill
The harder you try
The bigger the hill
But get there you will
I'm still trying
But mine is one big fucking hill
Next came the heart
A big one for me
Both mine
And the one that belongs to me
Big enough to share
Large enough to spare
Thoughts, feelings and emotions
Stretching from here to there
Love at first sight
Like a bee sting
A bug bite
Not unlike
The tender itch
Of loves first bite
Came to me with Herculean might
Over hill and over dale
Through hoarfrost snow
And driving hail
Caring not for what I should
Only wanting for what I could
Seeing only what I saw
Not remembering
The seeing I saw
Were it not for blinding love
I could perhaps have risen above
The perpetuation and obsession
I confused with love
Next came family
First and foremost
First for most
And second to none
You only have one
Being a loner isn't much fun
Losing touch with my Father
Father with Son
First loss came very young
I lost my Father
I lost him through the things I'd done
I can't tell you when or how
But I know I'm the one
Who lost my Father his loving Son
God Bless him for he's still living
And may he live on and on
There are the losses I shall never forget
Friends and friends and friends all my age
Doing things that we did to battle the rage
The blur of those two decades
Sometimes overwhelms me
My life has changes
I'm scared and it serves me right
I suppose
The burden is the luggage of blame
But the first loss from home
Came from far away
But cut deep into my innocence
Followed quickly by another
The deepest cut of all
I came and felt
As though it were my own heart
Cutting deep, cutting hard
Torn from my arms
Tearing me apart
As I celebrate that loss
I honour her heart
Then there was peace
But not without distress
Not without worry
God Bless
But peace does not last
All things must pass
But Such a loss
Such a terrible loss
Losing a loved one
Is like losing a limb
Life goes on
But you're never the same again.
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