Cut without a knife
Bleeding without blood
Shot without a gun
Stepped on
Treated like mud
Gone without leaving
A race without the run
Shook until shaking
Love is not taking
But giving instead
Drowning in tears
For the past several years
Being lied to and told
What you think is true
No sooner did you learn to speak
Only to be told you'll never being heard
Too scared to sacrifice
the only thing you have
So you cling onto the hope
Of someday growing old
You feel so all alone
in your world
You feel so all alone
Your world though it's small
Closes in on you no less
Your hurt and so alone
It will be hard but
you have to stay strong
Hold close to your heart
The memories you chose
Then let love guide you
And you`ll never lose
The battle is hard
Though just a few days
It's an uphill climb
Day by day
And the farther you go
It gets harder you'll find
But once at the top
Where you belong
You can take a deep breath
Take your life and move on
Showing posts with label friends. Show all posts
Showing posts with label friends. Show all posts
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Friends and lovers
Friends and lovers we all are
on life's highway
wishing on a star
Friends and lovers we all know
crossing all boundaries
letting love grow
Friends and lovers from the past
strength and experience
help to make love last
Friends and lovers yet to come
looking for a friend
waiting for the sun
though if the sun don`t come
I hope my friend will come
he usually comes
even if the sun don`t come
I say to everyone
It seems
to me
that our time has finally come
and now
after all
after all has been said and done
It appears
to me that
Friends and lovers we all are
on life's highway
wishing on a star
Friends and lovers we all know
crossing all boundaries
letting love grow
Friends and lovers from the past
strength and experience
help to make love last
Friends and lovers yet to come
looking for a friend
waiting for the sun
on life's highway
wishing on a star
Friends and lovers we all know
crossing all boundaries
letting love grow
Friends and lovers from the past
strength and experience
help to make love last
Friends and lovers yet to come
looking for a friend
waiting for the sun
though if the sun don`t come
I hope my friend will come
he usually comes
even if the sun don`t come
I say to everyone
It seems
to me
that our time has finally come
and now
after all
after all has been said and done
It appears
to me that
Friends and lovers we all are
on life's highway
wishing on a star
Friends and lovers we all know
crossing all boundaries
letting love grow
Friends and lovers from the past
strength and experience
help to make love last
Friends and lovers yet to come
looking for a friend
waiting for the sun
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Candy
Oh how I miss you
my dear old friend
We lost touch
I don't remember when
But I remember all the time
we spent together
You came to see me
When I shouldn't have been seen
You said you loved me
We both knew what that meant
I needed to hear it
And you had to say it
You were such a good friend
Somewhere in between
The day that we met
Until the last
seemed to pass so fast
I miss you and always will
My your spirit rest in peace
As is God's will
Until we meet again
Until
my dear old friend
We lost touch
I don't remember when
But I remember all the time
we spent together
You came to see me
When I shouldn't have been seen
You said you loved me
We both knew what that meant
I needed to hear it
And you had to say it
You were such a good friend
Somewhere in between
The day that we met
Until the last
seemed to pass so fast
I miss you and always will
My your spirit rest in peace
As is God's will
Until we meet again
Until
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Taken
When darkness took me
I left the sun and moon behind
It happened so quick
Travelling at that speed
I was blind
Snatched like a mouse in field
By an eagle flying
I never knew what hit me
Never saw it coming
I was blind
I felt the warmth of a light
But I never opened my eyes
In a breath it was gone
Darkness held me tight
I'd lost all track of time
Or even what it means
In a fraction of a millisecond
I heard a trillion screams
We moved through the in betweens
We were past imagination
I tried to open my eyes
I was blind
But I felt the presence
Of everything I'd ever lost
Everything taken away from me
Somehow it felt right
It all seemed to fit
All that had happened doesn't matter
Everything glass began to shatter
I closed my eyes
I was blind
I felt a drop of troubled water
Drip upon my face
I felt it as it trickled down
And drip off my chin
Back into space
When I was a child
I almost drowned
That's how I learned to swim
I got tossed in
I took one on the chin
When I was an older child
I almost overdosed
On the basement floor
I looked down and saw myself
I'd never seem me in that way
That's how I learned to love
I was brought back that day
Then again in a car
When we hadn't driven far
When it happened yet again
My friends were saved
And so was I
I lived to tell
I don't know why
But I was brought back
That day as well
Life is strange like that
You have friends
People you know
And people you never see
Until it's time to go
Seems they all show up together
At the same time and place
As you drip like troubled water
Back into space
I left the sun and moon behind
It happened so quick
Travelling at that speed
I was blind
Snatched like a mouse in field
By an eagle flying
I never knew what hit me
Never saw it coming
I was blind
I felt the warmth of a light
But I never opened my eyes
In a breath it was gone
Darkness held me tight
I'd lost all track of time
Or even what it means
In a fraction of a millisecond
I heard a trillion screams
We moved through the in betweens
We were past imagination
I tried to open my eyes
I was blind
But I felt the presence
Of everything I'd ever lost
Everything taken away from me
Somehow it felt right
It all seemed to fit
All that had happened doesn't matter
Everything glass began to shatter
I closed my eyes
I was blind
I felt a drop of troubled water
Drip upon my face
I felt it as it trickled down
And drip off my chin
Back into space
When I was a child
I almost drowned
That's how I learned to swim
I got tossed in
I took one on the chin
When I was an older child
I almost overdosed
On the basement floor
I looked down and saw myself
I'd never seem me in that way
That's how I learned to love
I was brought back that day
Then again in a car
When we hadn't driven far
When it happened yet again
My friends were saved
And so was I
I lived to tell
I don't know why
But I was brought back
That day as well
Life is strange like that
You have friends
People you know
And people you never see
Until it's time to go
Seems they all show up together
At the same time and place
As you drip like troubled water
Back into space
Sunday, January 3, 2010
I've been blog lazy...
To tell you the truth I have been blog lazy but life busy and that's a good thing. I spent as much time as I could with Colette. We are so good together when we get along instead of fighting like cat and dog. It has been a nice beginning to the new year. I hope that everyone had a wonderful and safe time at whatever they were doing to bring in the new year.
So it's already January 3, 2010. May all your wishes come true and may you have the strength to fulfill all your New Years resolutions.
I more than anything wish good health and recovery for myself and anyone else who suffered injuries or disease. So if you're reading this and would like to share what you have gone through I would love hear from you and we can perhaps strengthen each other in the process. I have found that disclosure/sharing your condition with someone like a friend or relative can be therapeutic and cleansing at the same time.
I know talking about things to be a definite positive thing to do from my own experiences. I'm not a doctor merely someone who can say been there and done that, experienced that, went through that, I'm someone who is both sympathetic and apathetic without being an enabler. I believe in positive support and reinforcement which may mean that I don't necessarily support what you're doing but rather a different spin or more positive way of doing the same thing. I'm far from perfect and therefore cannot be your judge or jury but I do make a good sounding board to bounce things off of due to my open-mindedness. I hope to start the new year off and spend some of it helping people or simply listening because that's how we learn. I plan on making this the year in which I make my biggest and most influential changes. I hope to make my commitments a lifetime thing, a change in life style if you will. It's not all about you ya knuckledragger! I plan on practising what I preach, I plan on being patient, pleasant, nice, amiable a quiet and good listener, helpful, less critical. Sounds both hard and easy, kinda like life, but I plan to do it one day at a time.
Maybe you don't have or feel like talking about anything personal or medical well hey, that's cool too. But what about a resolution you care to share or a change that you plan on making in the new year, I'd love to hear about it.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
GOD BLESS
GOOD HEALTH
To tell you the truth I have been blog lazy but life busy and that's a good thing. I spent as much time as I could with Colette. We are so good together when we get along instead of fighting like cat and dog. It has been a nice beginning to the new year. I hope that everyone had a wonderful and safe time at whatever they were doing to bring in the new year.
So it's already January 3, 2010. May all your wishes come true and may you have the strength to fulfill all your New Years resolutions.
I more than anything wish good health and recovery for myself and anyone else who suffered injuries or disease. So if you're reading this and would like to share what you have gone through I would love hear from you and we can perhaps strengthen each other in the process. I have found that disclosure/sharing your condition with someone like a friend or relative can be therapeutic and cleansing at the same time.
I know talking about things to be a definite positive thing to do from my own experiences. I'm not a doctor merely someone who can say been there and done that, experienced that, went through that, I'm someone who is both sympathetic and apathetic without being an enabler. I believe in positive support and reinforcement which may mean that I don't necessarily support what you're doing but rather a different spin or more positive way of doing the same thing. I'm far from perfect and therefore cannot be your judge or jury but I do make a good sounding board to bounce things off of due to my open-mindedness. I hope to start the new year off and spend some of it helping people or simply listening because that's how we learn. I plan on making this the year in which I make my biggest and most influential changes. I hope to make my commitments a lifetime thing, a change in life style if you will. It's not all about you ya knuckledragger! I plan on practising what I preach, I plan on being patient, pleasant, nice, amiable a quiet and good listener, helpful, less critical. Sounds both hard and easy, kinda like life, but I plan to do it one day at a time.
Maybe you don't have or feel like talking about anything personal or medical well hey, that's cool too. But what about a resolution you care to share or a change that you plan on making in the new year, I'd love to hear about it.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
GOD BLESS
GOOD HEALTH
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
It’s not that bad
Buckets of big black clouds in the sky
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
Grab your stuff and come with me
Let’s leave this café
I need the company of a smile
Lets get away for a while or
Could I
Sit and stare at you for a while
Oh no
You’ve left your bag in the rain
Wet cigarettes
Like tears get washed down the drain
Isn’t it a pity
So grab your stuff and come with me
Let’s leave this place
We can sail away
Just you and me
For just one day
To a land so far away
Just you and me
It’s not the way it was way back then
Buckets of big black clouds in the sky
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
We can sail away
Just you and me
For just one day
To a land so far away
You won’t need no money
There’s nothing there to buy
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
Grab your stuff and come with me
To the land where wildweed grows
We can smoke it
Until it shows
That it’s not that bad so please don’t cry
Even though there’s
Buckets of big black clouds in the sky
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
Grab your stuff and come with me
To the land where the wildweed grows
Smoke it
Then it shows
That it’s not that bad so please don’t cry
Hold on to my hand
It’s okay to feel this way
I was going this way too today
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry.
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
Grab your stuff and come with me
Let’s leave this café
I need the company of a smile
Lets get away for a while or
Could I
Sit and stare at you for a while
Oh no
You’ve left your bag in the rain
Wet cigarettes
Like tears get washed down the drain
Isn’t it a pity
So grab your stuff and come with me
Let’s leave this place
We can sail away
Just you and me
For just one day
To a land so far away
Just you and me
It’s not the way it was way back then
Buckets of big black clouds in the sky
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
We can sail away
Just you and me
For just one day
To a land so far away
You won’t need no money
There’s nothing there to buy
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
Grab your stuff and come with me
To the land where wildweed grows
We can smoke it
Until it shows
That it’s not that bad so please don’t cry
Even though there’s
Buckets of big black clouds in the sky
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
Grab your stuff and come with me
To the land where the wildweed grows
Smoke it
Then it shows
That it’s not that bad so please don’t cry
Hold on to my hand
It’s okay to feel this way
I was going this way too today
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Turn out the same
Of all the things that could go wrong
I THINK WE WERE BOTH FAR TOO YOUNG
I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT NOW IT’S GONE TOO FAR
THE ONLY THING LEFT TO DO
IS TO BREAK THE CHAIN
THAT LINKS ME TO YOU
OF ALL THE THINGS THAT COULD GO WRONG
I THINK WE WERE BOTH TOO YOUNG
I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT IT‘LL JUST TURN OUT THE SAME AGAIN
You know I cry for you
Of all the things that could go wrong
I MISS YOU
I THINK WE WERE BOTH FAR TOO YOUNG
I MISS YOU
I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
BUT NOW IT’S GONE TOO FAR
THE ONLY THING LEFT TO DO
IS TO BREAK THE CHAIN
THAT LINKS ME TO YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT WILL IT JUST TURN OUT THE SAME AGAIN.
You know I cry for you
Of all the things that could go wrong
I MISS YOU
I THINK WE WERE BOTH FAR TOO YOUNG
I MISS YOU
I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
BUT NOW IT’S GONE TOO FAR
THE ONLY THING LEFT TO DO
IS TO BREAK THE CHAIN
THAT LINKS ME TO YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT WILL IT JUST TURN OUT THE SAME AGAIN.
You know I cry for you
Of all the things that could go wrong
I MISS YOU
I THINK WE WERE BOTH FAR TOO YOUNG
I MISS YOU
I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
BUT NOW IT’S GONE TOO FAR
THE ONLY THING LEFT TO DO
IS TO BREAK THE CHAIN
THAT LINKS ME TO YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT WILL IT JUST TURN OUT THE SAME AGAIN.
I THINK WE WERE BOTH FAR TOO YOUNG
I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT NOW IT’S GONE TOO FAR
THE ONLY THING LEFT TO DO
IS TO BREAK THE CHAIN
THAT LINKS ME TO YOU
OF ALL THE THINGS THAT COULD GO WRONG
I THINK WE WERE BOTH TOO YOUNG
I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT IT‘LL JUST TURN OUT THE SAME AGAIN
You know I cry for you
Of all the things that could go wrong
I MISS YOU
I THINK WE WERE BOTH FAR TOO YOUNG
I MISS YOU
I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
BUT NOW IT’S GONE TOO FAR
THE ONLY THING LEFT TO DO
IS TO BREAK THE CHAIN
THAT LINKS ME TO YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT WILL IT JUST TURN OUT THE SAME AGAIN.
You know I cry for you
Of all the things that could go wrong
I MISS YOU
I THINK WE WERE BOTH FAR TOO YOUNG
I MISS YOU
I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
BUT NOW IT’S GONE TOO FAR
THE ONLY THING LEFT TO DO
IS TO BREAK THE CHAIN
THAT LINKS ME TO YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT WILL IT JUST TURN OUT THE SAME AGAIN.
You know I cry for you
Of all the things that could go wrong
I MISS YOU
I THINK WE WERE BOTH FAR TOO YOUNG
I MISS YOU
I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU
BUT NOW IT’S GONE TOO FAR
THE ONLY THING LEFT TO DO
IS TO BREAK THE CHAIN
THAT LINKS ME TO YOU
I WANT TO SAY I’M SORRY
BUT WILL IT JUST TURN OUT THE SAME AGAIN.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Changing
Once it’s said it’s much too late
Hurt feelings don’t hesitate
They rush in like so many times before
Reciprocation leaves you broken, on the floor.
Things said with no thought or concern,
Slow this time, there’s much to learn,
Remember what happens when there’s anger in your head,
Forget competition or what some else said.
Look deep inside yourself, the answers lies there,
A fit of anger becomes a moment of care,
You’ve been here before, go back in your mind,
Don’t lash out or retaliate, say something kind,
You can change today; it’s not too late!
Hurt feelings don’t hesitate
They rush in like so many times before
Reciprocation leaves you broken, on the floor.
Things said with no thought or concern,
Slow this time, there’s much to learn,
Remember what happens when there’s anger in your head,
Forget competition or what some else said.
Look deep inside yourself, the answers lies there,
A fit of anger becomes a moment of care,
You’ve been here before, go back in your mind,
Don’t lash out or retaliate, say something kind,
You can change today; it’s not too late!
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Never the same again
Today
You're too old they say
You're no good
But the things I used to do
They never could
Getting beat up once or twice
isn't so bad I suppose
Unless it's daily for three or four years
It's then the feeling grows
Life takes on a new meaning
Every moment is filled with fear
Often times wondering
How'd I ever get to here
Different for no reason
But quite apparently so
Those feelings felt so strong
and so long ago
Those feelings are still strong
and they just won't go
Haunting every moment the past stays alive
Feeding on my fears to survive
Trying to belong
Since I can first remember
I was so innocent and tender
Curious and kind
Never the pretender
Never one to mind
Walking with an open heart
Open for the taking
Innocently breaking
But first came the mind
You're a bad person they say
You're no good
Then they chased me away
How bad can you be
Being barely as old as the day
What can be done
About what was done
When it was done without you
Words said in anger
Trying to even the score
With other words said in anger
Some time before
Words that started a war
Words that were said before
Then came the fight
A personal war
You get pushed, you get shoved
Until no more
Backed into a corner
The teddy bear strikes back
No one there at the time
No one ahead
No one behind
Just me alone in the line
Feeling bad but doing fine
It's tough getting there
It's an uphill climb
And the harder you try
It gets harder I find
But in the end
When the end comes
And it will
Everyone gets a chance, a second chance
To get even, to spill
The harder you try
The bigger the hill
But get there you will
I'm still trying
But mine is one big fucking hill
Next came the heart
A big one for me
Both mine
And the one that belongs to me
Big enough to share
Large enough to spare
Thoughts, feelings and emotions
Stretching from here to there
Love at first sight
Like a bee sting
A bug bite
Not unlike
The tender itch
Of loves first bite
Came to me with Herculean might
Over hill and over dale
Through hoarfrost snow
And driving hail
Caring not for what I should
Only wanting for what I could
Seeing only what I saw
Not remembering
The seeing I saw
Were it not for blinding love
I could perhaps have risen above
The perpetuation and obsession
I confused with love
Next came family
First and foremost
First for most
And second to none
You only have one
Being a loner isn't much fun
Losing touch with my Father
Father with Son
First loss came very young
I lost my Father
I lost him through the things I'd done
I can't tell you when or how
But I know I'm the one
Who lost my Father his loving Son
God Bless him for he's still living
And may he live on and on
There are the losses I shall never forget
Friends and friends and friends all my age
Doing things that we did to battle the rage
The blur of those two decades
Sometimes overwhelms me
My life has changes
I'm scared and it serves me right
I suppose
The burden is the luggage of blame
But the first loss from home
Came from far away
But cut deep into my innocence
Followed quickly by another
The deepest cut of all
I came and felt
As though it were my own heart
Cutting deep, cutting hard
Torn from my arms
Tearing me apart
As I celebrate that loss
I honour her heart
Then there was peace
But not without distress
Not without worry
God Bless
But peace does not last
All things must pass
But Such a loss
Such a terrible loss
Losing a loved one
Is like losing a limb
Life goes on
But you're never the same again.
You're too old they say
You're no good
But the things I used to do
They never could
Getting beat up once or twice
isn't so bad I suppose
Unless it's daily for three or four years
It's then the feeling grows
Life takes on a new meaning
Every moment is filled with fear
Often times wondering
How'd I ever get to here
Different for no reason
But quite apparently so
Those feelings felt so strong
and so long ago
Those feelings are still strong
and they just won't go
Haunting every moment the past stays alive
Feeding on my fears to survive
Trying to belong
Since I can first remember
I was so innocent and tender
Curious and kind
Never the pretender
Never one to mind
Walking with an open heart
Open for the taking
Innocently breaking
But first came the mind
You're a bad person they say
You're no good
Then they chased me away
How bad can you be
Being barely as old as the day
What can be done
About what was done
When it was done without you
Words said in anger
Trying to even the score
With other words said in anger
Some time before
Words that started a war
Words that were said before
Then came the fight
A personal war
You get pushed, you get shoved
Until no more
Backed into a corner
The teddy bear strikes back
No one there at the time
No one ahead
No one behind
Just me alone in the line
Feeling bad but doing fine
It's tough getting there
It's an uphill climb
And the harder you try
It gets harder I find
But in the end
When the end comes
And it will
Everyone gets a chance, a second chance
To get even, to spill
The harder you try
The bigger the hill
But get there you will
I'm still trying
But mine is one big fucking hill
Next came the heart
A big one for me
Both mine
And the one that belongs to me
Big enough to share
Large enough to spare
Thoughts, feelings and emotions
Stretching from here to there
Love at first sight
Like a bee sting
A bug bite
Not unlike
The tender itch
Of loves first bite
Came to me with Herculean might
Over hill and over dale
Through hoarfrost snow
And driving hail
Caring not for what I should
Only wanting for what I could
Seeing only what I saw
Not remembering
The seeing I saw
Were it not for blinding love
I could perhaps have risen above
The perpetuation and obsession
I confused with love
Next came family
First and foremost
First for most
And second to none
You only have one
Being a loner isn't much fun
Losing touch with my Father
Father with Son
First loss came very young
I lost my Father
I lost him through the things I'd done
I can't tell you when or how
But I know I'm the one
Who lost my Father his loving Son
God Bless him for he's still living
And may he live on and on
There are the losses I shall never forget
Friends and friends and friends all my age
Doing things that we did to battle the rage
The blur of those two decades
Sometimes overwhelms me
My life has changes
I'm scared and it serves me right
I suppose
The burden is the luggage of blame
But the first loss from home
Came from far away
But cut deep into my innocence
Followed quickly by another
The deepest cut of all
I came and felt
As though it were my own heart
Cutting deep, cutting hard
Torn from my arms
Tearing me apart
As I celebrate that loss
I honour her heart
Then there was peace
But not without distress
Not without worry
God Bless
But peace does not last
All things must pass
But Such a loss
Such a terrible loss
Losing a loved one
Is like losing a limb
Life goes on
But you're never the same again.
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