Love torn son forlorn

Cut without a knife
Bleeding without blood
Shot without a gun
Stepped on
Treated like mud
Gone without leaving
A race without the run
Shook until shaking
Love is not taking
But giving instead
Drowning in tears
For the past several years
Being lied to and told
What you think is true
No sooner did you learn to speak
Only to be told you'll never being heard
Too scared to sacrifice
the only thing you have
So you cling onto the hope
Of someday growing old
You feel so all alone
in your world
You feel so all alone
Your world though it's small
Closes in on you no less
Your hurt and so alone
It will be hard but
you have to stay strong
Hold close to your heart
The memories you chose
Then let love guide you
And you`ll never lose
The battle is hard
Though just a few days
It's an uphill climb
Day by day
And the farther you go
It gets harder you'll find
But once at the top
Where you belong
You can take a deep breath
Take your life and move on

Love

clouds shatter like glass

frozen tears rain down

the sun has left my sky

and as I continue to die

shards of love

penetrate my armour

cutting deep

through my calloused skin

through my outer layer

slicing deep and cutting

into my pride

without the sun

there are no shadows

no place to hide

love keeps cutting

cutting me deeper inside

I try to keep busy

it seems the harder I try

still I keep my neck a wry

for love keeps me astride

waiting patiently

in subliminal latency

never losing track of me

it has a hook in me

love won't let me be

as far as the eye can see

across the open sea

love reigns on me

as dark as the sky above

try as I may for

forever and day

there is no shelter

or comfort

from ubiquitous love

Christmas time

In my heart and soul

and in my mind

in my heart and soul

all the time

I hear the laughter

I hear the children
I hear it now
it will happen soon
Christmas time

fill my heart and soul

with the thoughts

of you
and if you wish hard enough
at Christmas time it will be
Christmas time
for you and for me
it will light you up
it will lift you up
it will set you free
don`t put up a fight
put up a Christmas tree
and soon you will see
it's Christmas time
for you and me
playing in the park
rolling in the snow
laughing after dark
saying hohoho
it won`t be long
it won't be long at all
in my heart and soul
in my mind oh
I hear the laughter
I hear the children
in my heart and soul
it warms up all my thoughts
it's like a fireplace
it accompanies my mind
as soon as I open my eyes
it's seems and it feels like
Christmas time
with each carol I hear
I feel Christmas drawing near
each card that I open one at a time
I feel Christmas
Christmas floating through the air
I feel Christmas everywhere


In the malls, on the street,
all the people that I meet
seem so happy and say Merry Christmas
Makes me wish everyday
could be just like today
in my heart and soul
and in my mind
in my heart and soul
all the time
I hear the laughter
I hear the children
I hear them all the time
I want them all the time
I want Christmas time all the time
I want it in my life
I want it all the time
Christmas time
I want it in my heart and soul
I want it in my mind
Christmas time
I want it in my heart and soul
I want it all the time
in my heart and soul
in my mind
in my mind
in my mind
in my mind
in my heart and soul
in my mind
in my mind
in my mind
in my mind
in my mind
it's Christmas time
I wanna hear the laughter
I wanna  hear the children
I wanna  hear them all the time
In my life
In my life
In my life
I my life
I want them all the time.
In my life and mind
all the time.

Screw

Like a screw
tightening
into my head
I listened to
everything you said
constantly
going deeper
getting tighter
inside my head
up and down
turned all around
coming and going
all over town
do you even know
or do you care
I'm spinning
out of control
out of love
everywhere
don't you know
you only get once chance
one crack at it
you drive me crazy
complacent and lazy
you can't have one
without the other
have faith religiously
be religious faithfully
believe the intention of ascension
fear the deflation of descent
beware of the flooding damnation
avoid the detention retention
too much of a good thing
or no good at all
be careful climbing ladders
beware the fall
be a little bad
or don't be at all
the truth is
we all lie
honestly dishonest
rich beggars
climb the ladder
beware the fall
on the step stool
watch your step
and know the rule
be no ones fool
what goes up
must come down
you can't have one
without the other
have a sister
be a brother
be a man or be a woman
be a he or be a she
whatever you want
you can be
go anywhere
with no way there
find your way back
on your own
find yourself all alone
sooner or later
it had to be
all that is yours
is all that you see
play a game
play with yourself
any move you make
the next move you make
you win again
you can't be beaten
your record stands
run into the stands
your own biggest fan
you am
cheer for yourself
although it's
too little too late
it has to be fate
at the front
of the end of the line
all of the time
waiting to be first
starving obesity
drowning thirst
still watching
waiting anticipating
the tightening of the screw.

Roses

you

told me

there'd be roses

that they'd be plenty

well these roses are dead

and the thorns hurt my head

like all the things that you once said

peace on Earth

Let injury heal
Let doubt find faith
Let there be hope in despair
Let sadness become joy
Let love rule over hate
And let there be peace on Earth
Let love be contagious
Let illness be gone
Let all be equal
And all live as one
Let silence be broken and heard
Let's all gather for the word
And let there be peace on Earth
Let imagination run free
Of stagnation and damnation
Let it go let it be
Let the blind see
Let there be happiness
And let there be peace on Earth

I think the world misses John, I know I do. Peace and love to all and rest in peace big brother John.

Everything and nothing

Love is everything and nothing at all
Love is wholesome and predictable
Love is to the heart like pain is to a fall
Love is right and love is strong
Love is blind and love is wrong
Love is pure and concentrated
Love is shit and constipated
Love is in the air
Love is here and there
Nowhere to be found
Love is unfair
Love moves hearts and souls
It rolls like a wheel
Love is invisible
Odourless and tasteless
Not something you can feel
Unbelievable at times
Love can be surreal
Love is you
Love is me
Love is everything
All we think, do and see
Love is everything and nothing at all

Death is a Gift

Most people don’t

Think the way I do

To me death is a gift

No longer living

In pointless pain

By choosing death

I’m in control again

Able to let loose the darkness

Gathered deep in my heart
I travelled back in time
to the innocence at the start

Simple enough it seems

To let your fortunes go

One by one as they slip away
Your feelings begin to show
Stripped bare of all material things

Without any cares or concerns

Remember me as the one
Who loved you with all his heart

Who gave up all his earns

Who was never alone
in sickness nor in health
nor my darkest hour

Who departed at will
but not before

glancing back at you.

Talk

Talk
why won`t you talk to me
Speak what`s on your mind
I don't care what it is
whatever you may find
I just need to hear you
Talk
why won`t you talk to me
Speak what`s on your mind
be it clever or unkind
Either one suits me fine
Talk
why won`t you talk to me
I just wish you would unwind
Come down off of that cloud
Down here to cloud nine
Here everything is fine
If you want it to be
Talk
why won`t you talk to me
I have the time
So tell me
what`s on your mind
It doesn`t matter
Nothing`s too much
no hill
too big to climb
Talk
why won`t you talk to me



Slow down
take the time
speak your mind
and release your heart
I will make the time
to feel your love
and make you mine
Talk
why won`t you talk to me





shouting courtesy of - bnet.com
hear no evil courtesy of - artshouston.ning.com

last kiss

Here I am today
I came here to say
today
to you
Please accept this one last gift from me
This may be your last kiss
We'll see
You know how it is
It's why you're here
But I never promised you
anything dear
So here
Here I am today
Here and I've come to say
today
to you
I never thought it would come to this
And now they say they want you too
They fucked with me
But they won't fuck with you
No matter what it takes
Or what I have to do
This may be your last kiss
We'll see
One things for certain
This is not the end
It's only the beginning
for me
You'll see.

Your man

It`s best to begin at the start
before getting into my heart
before love came
when it rained
it just rained
I was a lonely boy
looking for a lonely girl
someone just like me
too many times
I gave my heart
too many times
I cried
making all the same mistakes
every time
until one night
I almost died
I found her
with another man
I gave her everything
that I possibly could
I bought her diamond rings
and a red sports car
I took her half way round the world with me
she left my heart a scar
And now when the sun shines
it`s raining in my heart
I`m afraid to love
I`m afraid to let go
of the pain I felt that day
now I`m afraid to love
To love the way I did before
please don`t misunderstand me
don`t get up
don`t walk out the door
I`ll try to love again
but I can`t help it
when it rains in my heart
I get afraid once again
of the hurt I felt before
I hope that you can or try
to have the patience to
overlook the way I act or am
I`ll be the best that I can
for you
for now and forever
just give it a chance
and you`ll see
just like me
that I can be
that same man
I feel it
And I know I can
It`s the haunts of my past
that trapped my love for you
in a tin can
take me in your arms
take love out of the can
I can be your Genie
I can be your man.

Heaven

Let there be light, there was
let it grow dark and it did
let there be life, there was
let it grow old and it did
You ordered all things within your heart.
All things were created through your Word,
Just as you wished.
Now
make life alive
move all things
be above all living things
and you are
try as we might
to escape heaven
be it above or below
fleeing, no matter where we go
heaven supercedes all
encompassing and guiding all
heaven energizes every sacred life
and the entire wheel of the cosmos
is centered around your word
The Word of God
The Word is living,
giving, spirit and soul,
all things living and green,
all of your creativity
All creation is awakened by you,
called upon by you,
with resounding melody,
God's invocation of the Word.
Never do I want to hear
The Angels singing to the world
of warning, singing out your scorning
we listen, I listen and obey
I am only one though
please don't turn me away
you know what I think, do and say
God of gods, creator of all.
If this were truly heaven
why are so many seeking refuge
is heaven not more beautiful
more enticing than the rest
if not then make it so
we listen, I listen and obey
it's just something I suggest
please don't turn away
a different opinion or another way
there's more than one solution
you let me think and I think this way
slow the world down, slow down time
if I could see heaven a bit longer
if heaven could be seen by everyone
on everyday
then heaven could be heaven
in every way
take away the pain and salvation
replaced with love and understanding
take away the pain and broken hearts
replace them with friends and brand new starts
peace, love and understanding
until everyone cares

A little bit at a time

A little bit at a time,
take it easy baby,
I think we'll be fine.
A little bit at a time,
take a deep breath,
I think we'll be fine.
A little bit at a time,
take it easy baby,
try not to take too much.
Love is a drug
you can't take too much
at one time
Love is a drug
do not take it lightly
Get off my chest
I can breathe again
I think we'll be fine
Look i the mirror
Can you see the wind
blowing through your hair
A little bit at a time
Take it easy baby
I think we'll be fine
Look between the words
and the rhyme
Look in the mirror
Take a deep breath
make it mine
We will be fine
Look in the mirror baby
Look in the mirror
I see you but do you see me
Take it easy baby
But take it while you can
Take it easy baby
A little bit at a time
Take it easy baby
Take it while you can
Take it easy baby
A little bit at a time.

Electric Blue

Let me tell you how clouds taste
Like tears, like the ocean
Clouds taste like the sea
Like you and me, I know it's true
Because when it rains
it tastes a little bit like me
and a little bit like you.

Like a butterfly on a moon beam
Through the shadows of the planets
Across the forests of the universe
Your love has come to me
Gently floating down on me
with an iridescent glow
sparkling at the tip of each hair
tingling and teasing
Until finally I am enveloped
completely
I feel electric blue
energized by you
The heavens are filled with clouds
I am electric blue
energized by you
eyes open wide
I feel you inside
electric blue
Drinking the nectar
wine of the clouds.

Anticipation of you
every tear that you cry
every drop that you perspire
Let me tell you how clouds taste

Let me tell you how clouds taste
Clouds taste like tears, like the ocean
Clouds taste like the sea
They taste like you and me
I know it's true
Because when it rains
it tastes a little bit like me
and a little bit like you, too.

Love costs so much

I hear and I see
But it’s all so confusing to me
The long whip of
Her eye lashes
Cools me down as
The car crashes
Long since that day
There’s been so much to say
But time carries on
Like the words to a song
That you’ve yet to hear
Waiting and anticipating
For a word for a clue
What should you do
A change of heart
A different scene
Someplace you’ve never seen
No time for reflection
Or to pretend
Love costs more
It costs more in the end
Cold harsh words
Run out across your
Blistering lips
Warm blood trickles
Between your fingertips
How come love always costs so much
It costs so much more in the end
The things I hear and I see
They are so confusing to me
The long whip of
Her eye lashes
Cools me down as
The car crashes
Long since that day
There’s been so much to say
But time carries on
Like the words to this song
That you’ve never heard
Yeah
She takes me places that I’ve never been before
She drives me crazy like no other has before
I lay naked beside her, on the kitchen floor
I think of her until I can’t think any more
She shows me things that I’ve never seen before
So tell me
How come
Love always cost so much
So tell me
How come
Love always cost so much
It always seems to cost so much
Love always costs so much
It always costs so much
In the end
In the end
In the end
The end

two paths

two paths that run parallel
at times per chance they meet
those times, like moments of passion
those times taste so sweet
sometimes meeting often
and sometimes hardly at all
those times are like a pillow
a pillow to break the fall
life is never fair it seems
so unlike the life in dreams
so like the paths that someday meet
with moments of passion
and love so sweet
let me be the pillow that lay by your feet

thought # 999

If there was a button to push
If there were a button to push
To make it all go away
It there were a button to push
I'd push it today

With the flick of a switch
It's a brand new day
And all my pain fades away
I'm not a quitter
I can take it
I'm not a faker
I will make it
If there were a time to end it
If ever a day came to end it
To end it all and start over
Today was that day for me
I opened my eyes as usual
I took a deep breath as usual
I felt the pain as usual
I cried as usual
I tried as usual
I stood and cried
I thought my next move
I cried
I focused on the best of me
On the best parts of my life
My kids and my wife
I cried
The weight of my burden
Is too much
It's too much to carry
The guilt kills me slowly
I have become a job
I have become the thought
The special consideration
Not the vision I had
Not the vision I had
My future seems painfully bleak
One day passes like a week
The times I felt good are gone
I felt them as hard as I could
I lived my life accordingly
I did my best to be me
The times I felt good are gone
Will they ever come back
Will I ever break free
of the pain that bends
binds and chokes me
The pills I take seem dandy
like grown up candy
Some to sleep and eat
and take the pain away
and even some that make you randy
With the flick of a switch
It's a brand new day
I'm ten again and eating candy
No wait I'm sixteen
with a girl named Mandy
Life was good before the pain
I wish I could feel like that again
Pain is such a powerful motivation
It can crumble your mind and body
Pain can make you think and do things
you never thought or did before
Lash out in anger without concern
Expecting all to be normal
When your normal thoughts return
I can't function or concentrate
The pain is so bad I can't wait
To take more pills and medicate
My mind is a blender
filled with medicine and love
I've been upset
I've been lonely
I've been depressed
I've all those things enough
Enough to consider ending it
Suicide is such an awful thing
It's full of uncertainty
It's full of emptiness
I'm sure it's full
full of all the things
we want to escape
or is it wait
but that's the thing
you can't wait
there's is no second chance
Once done it's done
and there's no where to hide anymore
you are an open book
That is if you care
but if it were me
I'd clean up my closets
before heading there
So much to do
So many thoughts
Until I think about you
My love is dying for you
everyday crying for you
Then I think about this life
I have with you
It's never boring
when I'm in your arms
when I hear their voices
I know I'm near nirvana
at least what it is for me
I can't speak or think
as the pain moves
back in on me
but I know exactly
where I want to be
But being trapped
in this body
in this chair
in this house
unable to disable
what disables me

If there was a button to push
If there were a button to push
To make it all go away
It there were a button to push
I'd push it today

Thought # 101

Life is useless from beginning to end
With spasms of pain it begins
With pain and spasms it ends
Nothing more than a hot flash in a cold pan
Life is useless from beginning to end.

Let us save our breath
For what is breath after all
But the beginning and end
For breath delivers our words
Be they kind or not so
From here I have watched you
As you walked along
The side of the street
Where the light slices
Into the darkness
Silence follows you
Everything else is left behind
Your voices echoes
Your promise is a song
Your memory is sad.

Thin

I used to be thin
Thin skinned
Thin stature
Shallow minded
Quick to lash out
Quicker to blame
It was easy to be unkind
To be in control
At least that’s what I thought
Yet eaten by guilt
Lost and distraught
Varsol to paint
Tears to love
Alienation
Subjectiveness
Persecution
Demanding and
Notwithstanding
The control
I thought I had
Time connects
Wounds
As it slowly passes
Soon numbness
Followed by dumbness
Becomes me
And then you
Somehow I feel
Quiet now
I feel like glue
Thick and slow
Bonding to you
The feeling I hope
Has transcended
The thin within me
Is now thick because of you
To live a day without you
Is something I have yet to do
And until that day arrives
Let this glueleg
Stay and stick in love with you
Somehow you have managed
To change me
My heart and my soul
Your presence it calms me
When I need it most
A million dollar prize
The finest slice
A million miles walked
A language outspoken
And so much more
The rubber is connecting
Its tight band retracts
It draws near to me
A twinkle; a spark
My fluttering heart
Pounds deep inside me
It rumbles
It rolls and
It rubs me the right way
I am complete
Yet empty
Completely empty
I suppose.

Can I come too?

Where does my heart belong
Why does my heart beat now
Now that you’re gone
Where will my eyes look now
Why do they see at all
Now that I can’t see you
What good are my arms
What will they do for me
Now that I can’t hold you
My feet are so sore
But what good are my feet
If I can’t come to you
I can’t get you off my mind
But what good is my mind
If I’m losing it over you
I’m falling apart since losing you
And I don’t know what to do
Because
My heart still beats
And belongs
Only to you
My eyes still see
But they only see you
My arms are open wide
But only for you
My feet are happy now too
Standing here next to you
And you are always on my mind
No matter what you do
So if you're thinking of leaving
If you’re leaving
Can I come too?