Life is useless from beginning to end
With spasms of pain it begins
With pain and spasms it ends
Nothing more than a hot flash in a cold pan
Life is useless from beginning to end.
Let us save our breath
For what is breath after all
But the beginning and end
For breath delivers our words
Be they kind or not so
From here I have watched you
As you walked along
The side of the street
Where the light slices
Into the darkness
Silence follows you
Everything else is left behind
Your voices echoes
Your promise is a song
Your memory is sad.
Friday, July 23, 2010
Thin
I used to be thin
Thin skinned
Thin stature
Shallow minded
Quick to lash out
Quicker to blame
It was easy to be unkind
To be in control
At least that’s what I thought
Yet eaten by guilt
Lost and distraught
Varsol to paint
Tears to love
Alienation
Subjectiveness
Persecution
Demanding and
Notwithstanding
The control
I thought I had
Time connects
Wounds
As it slowly passes
Soon numbness
Followed by dumbness
Becomes me
And then you
Somehow I feel
Quiet now
I feel like glue
Thick and slow
Bonding to you
The feeling I hope
Has transcended
The thin within me
Is now thick because of you
To live a day without you
Is something I have yet to do
And until that day arrives
Let this glueleg
Stay and stick in love with you
Somehow you have managed
To change me
My heart and my soul
Your presence it calms me
When I need it most
A million dollar prize
The finest slice
A million miles walked
A language outspoken
And so much more
The rubber is connecting
Its tight band retracts
It draws near to me
A twinkle; a spark
My fluttering heart
Pounds deep inside me
It rumbles
It rolls and
It rubs me the right way
I am complete
Yet empty
Completely empty
I suppose.
Thin skinned
Thin stature
Shallow minded
Quick to lash out
Quicker to blame
It was easy to be unkind
To be in control
At least that’s what I thought
Yet eaten by guilt
Lost and distraught
Varsol to paint
Tears to love
Alienation
Subjectiveness
Persecution
Demanding and
Notwithstanding
The control
I thought I had
Time connects
Wounds
As it slowly passes
Soon numbness
Followed by dumbness
Becomes me
And then you
Somehow I feel
Quiet now
I feel like glue
Thick and slow
Bonding to you
The feeling I hope
Has transcended
The thin within me
Is now thick because of you
To live a day without you
Is something I have yet to do
And until that day arrives
Let this glueleg
Stay and stick in love with you
Somehow you have managed
To change me
My heart and my soul
Your presence it calms me
When I need it most
A million dollar prize
The finest slice
A million miles walked
A language outspoken
And so much more
The rubber is connecting
Its tight band retracts
It draws near to me
A twinkle; a spark
My fluttering heart
Pounds deep inside me
It rumbles
It rolls and
It rubs me the right way
I am complete
Yet empty
Completely empty
I suppose.
It’s not that bad
Buckets of big black clouds in the sky
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
Grab your stuff and come with me
Let’s leave this café
I need the company
of your smile
Lets get away for a while
or
Could I
Sit and stare at you for a while
Oh no
You’ve left your bag in the rain
Wet cigarettes
Like tears get washed down the drain
Isn’t it a pity
So grab your stuff and come with me
Let’s leave this place
We can sail away
Just you and me
For just one day
To a land so far away
Just you and me
It’s not the way it seems to be
Buckets of big black clouds in the sky
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
We can sail away
Just you and me
For just one day
To a land so far away
You won’t need no money
There’s nothing there to buy
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
Grab your stuff and come with me
To the land where wildweed grows
We can smoke it, dancing and singing
Both you and I, until it shows
That it’s not that bad so please don’t cry
Even though there’s
Buckets of big black clouds in the sky
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
Grab your stuff and come with me
To the land where wildweed grows
We'll smoke it, dancing and singing
Happily you and I,then it shows
That it’s not that bad so please don’t cry
Hold on to my hand
It’s okay to feel this way
Take my hand baby it's okay
I was going this way too today
So that shows that
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry.
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
Grab your stuff and come with me
Let’s leave this café
I need the company
of your smile
Lets get away for a while
or
Could I
Sit and stare at you for a while
Oh no
You’ve left your bag in the rain
Wet cigarettes
Like tears get washed down the drain
Isn’t it a pity
So grab your stuff and come with me
Let’s leave this place
We can sail away
Just you and me
For just one day
To a land so far away
Just you and me
It’s not the way it seems to be
Buckets of big black clouds in the sky
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
We can sail away
Just you and me
For just one day
To a land so far away
You won’t need no money
There’s nothing there to buy
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
Grab your stuff and come with me
To the land where wildweed grows
We can smoke it, dancing and singing
Both you and I, until it shows
That it’s not that bad so please don’t cry
Even though there’s
Buckets of big black clouds in the sky
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
Grab your stuff and come with me
To the land where wildweed grows
We'll smoke it, dancing and singing
Happily you and I,then it shows
That it’s not that bad so please don’t cry
Hold on to my hand
It’s okay to feel this way
Take my hand baby it's okay
I was going this way too today
So that shows that
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry
It’s not that bad so don’t you cry.
Lost my way
Tomorrow has come
Here it is today
And once again
I’ve lost my way
It’s cold
It’s Monday
Tomorrow has come
Here it is today
And today
Once again
I’ve lost my way.
Here it is today
And once again
I’ve lost my way
It’s cold
It’s Monday
Tomorrow has come
Here it is today
And today
Once again
I’ve lost my way.
Thought #175
Time changes everything
Time changes you and me
Time changes everything
Things worth remembering
Things are never the way they were
Even things that reoccur
Time changes everything
We are not who we were
You’re not who you used to be
And I’m not the same old me
I remember days gone by
That special look in our eyes
We each knew
Exactly what to do
Time changes everything
Look at me
Look at you
Time changes everything
No matter what we do
Time changes everything.
Time changes you and me
Time changes everything
Things worth remembering
Things are never the way they were
Even things that reoccur
Time changes everything
We are not who we were
You’re not who you used to be
And I’m not the same old me
I remember days gone by
That special look in our eyes
We each knew
Exactly what to do
Time changes everything
Look at me
Look at you
Time changes everything
No matter what we do
Time changes everything.
Stay in bed
The sun doesn’t seem as bright
Something’s not quite right
I can’t find anything to talk about
The words are there but won’t come out
There’s a thought inside my head
But there’s nothing left to be said
Today
I think I’ll stay in bed
Today
I think I’ll stay in bed
I’m not sick
I feel okay
I’m just not sure the car
Will start today
My boots would walk if
I took out the lead
But, to be perfectly honest
Today
I think I’ll stay I in bed
The phone is ringing constantly
It’s just another day to me
Nothing good is ever said
Today
I think I’ll stay in bed.
Something’s not quite right
I can’t find anything to talk about
The words are there but won’t come out
There’s a thought inside my head
But there’s nothing left to be said
Today
I think I’ll stay in bed
Today
I think I’ll stay in bed
I’m not sick
I feel okay
I’m just not sure the car
Will start today
My boots would walk if
I took out the lead
But, to be perfectly honest
Today
I think I’ll stay I in bed
The phone is ringing constantly
It’s just another day to me
Nothing good is ever said
Today
I think I’ll stay in bed.
Thought #131
I wish there were something
I could do
To change how I’m perceived by you
But just like me
It’s in your head.
I could do
To change how I’m perceived by you
But just like me
It’s in your head.
Can I come too?
Where does my heart belong
Why does my heart beat now
Now that you’re gone
Where will my eyes look now
Why do they see at all
Now that I can’t see you
What good are my arms
What will they do for me
Now that I can’t hold you
My feet are so sore
But what good are my feet
If I can’t come to you
I can’t get you off my mind
But what good is my mind
If I’m losing it over you
I’m falling apart since losing you
And I don’t know what to do
Because
My heart still beats
And belongs
Only to you
My eyes still see
But they only see you
My arms are open wide
But only for you
My feet are happy now too
Standing here next to you
And you are always on my mind
No matter what you do
So if you're thinking of leaving
If you’re leaving
Can I come too?
Why does my heart beat now
Now that you’re gone
Where will my eyes look now
Why do they see at all
Now that I can’t see you
What good are my arms
What will they do for me
Now that I can’t hold you
My feet are so sore
But what good are my feet
If I can’t come to you
I can’t get you off my mind
But what good is my mind
If I’m losing it over you
I’m falling apart since losing you
And I don’t know what to do
Because
My heart still beats
And belongs
Only to you
My eyes still see
But they only see you
My arms are open wide
But only for you
My feet are happy now too
Standing here next to you
And you are always on my mind
No matter what you do
So if you're thinking of leaving
If you’re leaving
Can I come too?
Like a banana
Bruised like a banana
Never unbruised again
Tangled thoughts of leaving
Between the healing pain
Why is it when I think
...things are better
It begins all over again
In a different way
Seems as though
happiness doesn't
want to come today
Even when it does
it doesn't stay
Take the other day
Take it now
Take it away
Take all the other days
Take them all away!
Never unbruised again
Tangled thoughts of leaving
Between the healing pain
Why is it when I think
...things are better
It begins all over again
In a different way
Seems as though
happiness doesn't
want to come today
Even when it does
it doesn't stay
Take the other day
Take it now
Take it away
Take all the other days
Take them all away!
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Thought # 127
Time passes presently
The present becomes the past
Neither past time
Nor
Future time
Like present time
Will last
Time keeps on ticking
Every day
Till today becomes yesterday
And that the day before
Once again making tomorrow today
Just like the day before…
The present becomes the past
Neither past time
Nor
Future time
Like present time
Will last
Time keeps on ticking
Every day
Till today becomes yesterday
And that the day before
Once again making tomorrow today
Just like the day before…
The Solution
TAKE AWAY THE SHOVEL
IT’S TIME TO STOP DIGGING
THE HOLE WE LIVE IN IS DEEP ENOUGH
TAKE AWAY THE SHOVEL
WE’D BETTER STOP DIGGING
BEFORE THE WALLS CAVE IN ON US
THE DIRT WE DUG
RAKED PUSHED AND SHOVED
THE MOUNTAIN HIGH
THE VALLEY LOW
MOVE THE MOUNTAIN
FILL THE HOLE
PUT AWAY THE WEAPONS
IT’S TIME TO STOP FIGHTING
THE FIGHT WE FOUGHT IS LONG ENOUGH
TAKE AWAY THE WEAPONS
WE’D BETTER STOP FIGHTING
BEFORE THE LOVE DIES
THE LIFE WE TOOK
RAPED, PILLAGED AND PLUNDERED
A PRICE SO HIGH
MORAL’S SO LOW
REMOVE THE HATE
MAKE LOVE NOT WAR
TAKE AWAY THE MONEY
IT’S TIME TO STOP SPENDING
THE DEBT WE OWE IS LARGE ENOUGH
TAKE AWAY THE MONEY
WE’D BETTER STOP SPENDING
BEFORE OUR GREED EATS UP WHAT’S LEFT
THE WAY WE LIVE
WITHOUT A CARE OR CONCERN
TAKING AND SPENDING
LYING AND CHEATING
GIVING NOTHING IN RETURN
WHEN WE SHOULD BE CARING
HOARDING INSTEAD OF SHARING
TAKE AWAY RELIGION
IT’S TO STOP THE EXCUSES
OUR DIFFERENCES ARE GREAT ENOUGH
TAKE AWAY RELIGION
WE’D BETTER STOP BLAMING
AND LOOK AT OURSELVES
WHEN WE ARE
WHAT WE SHOULD BE
THEN WE’LL BE CLOSE
TO CONNECTING
SPIRITUALLY
TAKE AWAY ETHINICITY
IT’S TIME WE ALL BECAME ONE
YOU AND ME
TAKE AWAY ETHNICITY
COLOUR OF SKIN
THE FOOD WE EAT
THE THINGS WE DO
THE PLACES WE LIVE
WE’RE ALL THE SAME
WE’RE ALL TO BLAME.
I AIN'T STUPIID
I AIN’T DUMB
I AIN’T LAZY
BUT ONE THINGS FOR SURE
LIFE SURE IS CRAZY!
GUY LOST HIS JOB
LOST HIS MIND
KILLED HIS FAMILY
TOOK HIS OWN LIFE
IN ANOTHER PLACE
ANOTHER TIME
ANOTHER WORLD
NOT MINE
SUBDIVISION
SACRED SOIL
PEACEFUL COEXISTENCE
MAKES BLOOD BOIL
I WAS HERE FIRST
GET IN LINE
IT BELONGS TO ME
NO, IT’S MINE
I AIN’T STUPID
I AIN’T DUMB
I AIN’T LAZY
BUT ONE THING’S FOR SURE
THIS WORLD SURE IS CRAZY.
IT’S TIME TO STOP DIGGING
THE HOLE WE LIVE IN IS DEEP ENOUGH
TAKE AWAY THE SHOVEL
WE’D BETTER STOP DIGGING
BEFORE THE WALLS CAVE IN ON US
THE DIRT WE DUG
RAKED PUSHED AND SHOVED
THE MOUNTAIN HIGH
THE VALLEY LOW
MOVE THE MOUNTAIN
FILL THE HOLE
PUT AWAY THE WEAPONS
IT’S TIME TO STOP FIGHTING
THE FIGHT WE FOUGHT IS LONG ENOUGH
TAKE AWAY THE WEAPONS
WE’D BETTER STOP FIGHTING
BEFORE THE LOVE DIES
THE LIFE WE TOOK
RAPED, PILLAGED AND PLUNDERED
A PRICE SO HIGH
MORAL’S SO LOW
REMOVE THE HATE
MAKE LOVE NOT WAR
TAKE AWAY THE MONEY
IT’S TIME TO STOP SPENDING
THE DEBT WE OWE IS LARGE ENOUGH
TAKE AWAY THE MONEY
WE’D BETTER STOP SPENDING
BEFORE OUR GREED EATS UP WHAT’S LEFT
THE WAY WE LIVE
WITHOUT A CARE OR CONCERN
TAKING AND SPENDING
LYING AND CHEATING
GIVING NOTHING IN RETURN
WHEN WE SHOULD BE CARING
HOARDING INSTEAD OF SHARING
TAKE AWAY RELIGION
IT’S TO STOP THE EXCUSES
OUR DIFFERENCES ARE GREAT ENOUGH
TAKE AWAY RELIGION
WE’D BETTER STOP BLAMING
AND LOOK AT OURSELVES
WHEN WE ARE
WHAT WE SHOULD BE
THEN WE’LL BE CLOSE
TO CONNECTING
SPIRITUALLY
TAKE AWAY ETHINICITY
IT’S TIME WE ALL BECAME ONE
YOU AND ME
TAKE AWAY ETHNICITY
COLOUR OF SKIN
THE FOOD WE EAT
THE THINGS WE DO
THE PLACES WE LIVE
WE’RE ALL THE SAME
WE’RE ALL TO BLAME.
I AIN'T STUPIID
I AIN’T DUMB
I AIN’T LAZY
BUT ONE THINGS FOR SURE
LIFE SURE IS CRAZY!
GUY LOST HIS JOB
LOST HIS MIND
KILLED HIS FAMILY
TOOK HIS OWN LIFE
IN ANOTHER PLACE
ANOTHER TIME
ANOTHER WORLD
NOT MINE
SUBDIVISION
SACRED SOIL
PEACEFUL COEXISTENCE
MAKES BLOOD BOIL
I WAS HERE FIRST
GET IN LINE
IT BELONGS TO ME
NO, IT’S MINE
I AIN’T STUPID
I AIN’T DUMB
I AIN’T LAZY
BUT ONE THING’S FOR SURE
THIS WORLD SURE IS CRAZY.
Snapshot of Myself
As I look down I see myself, a wrinkled and abused pile of bones
A voice echoes softly though the PCP fog in the room
A strong weathered figure urgently beckons to me
Although already slowly in an upward drift; my momentum halts
Soft words tug gently on the anchor of my soul
My direction changes
Back down through the floorboards and the ceiling above
The light of my existence had almost extinguished itself it seems
I feel a flicker and my mind begins to unbend
A warmth, a rekindling form within
The drowsy numbness of narcotics still in my brain
They say only the good die young
Well, I would have made a lovely corpse
But then I then I thank Oma for this snapshot of myself
And the chance to live again.
A voice echoes softly though the PCP fog in the room
A strong weathered figure urgently beckons to me
Although already slowly in an upward drift; my momentum halts
Soft words tug gently on the anchor of my soul
My direction changes
Back down through the floorboards and the ceiling above
The light of my existence had almost extinguished itself it seems
I feel a flicker and my mind begins to unbend
A warmth, a rekindling form within
The drowsy numbness of narcotics still in my brain
They say only the good die young
Well, I would have made a lovely corpse
But then I then I thank Oma for this snapshot of myself
And the chance to live again.
Post Mortem
The darkness of night slowly creeps in
Light flickers, then fades into a blackened sky
The minds eye plays tricks with everything you see
Imagination triggers thoughts of the fears within
Try to relax, be your best self
But all you do is worry; the gun’s in the drawer
Each person you see reminds you again
You’ve got to be certain, one hundred percent certain
You were beaten and robbed, left for dead
No one was there; you were by yourself
Critically wounded; clawing to get help
Echoes of voices, then sirens and nothing
The gavel gives justice like a loaded gun to your head,
The accused goes free; his case was self-defense
Victims are all guilty by their own choice the argument
Scenes of that night, you never forget but relive every day
A promise, a threat, uttered through a chuckle
You must take this seriously; you must take arms
If ever again, then never again, this will come to end
As you wait, time passes slowly living in fear,
Until the day you are certain, one hundred percent certain!
Light flickers, then fades into a blackened sky
The minds eye plays tricks with everything you see
Imagination triggers thoughts of the fears within
Try to relax, be your best self
But all you do is worry; the gun’s in the drawer
Each person you see reminds you again
You’ve got to be certain, one hundred percent certain
You were beaten and robbed, left for dead
No one was there; you were by yourself
Critically wounded; clawing to get help
Echoes of voices, then sirens and nothing
The gavel gives justice like a loaded gun to your head,
The accused goes free; his case was self-defense
Victims are all guilty by their own choice the argument
Scenes of that night, you never forget but relive every day
A promise, a threat, uttered through a chuckle
You must take this seriously; you must take arms
If ever again, then never again, this will come to end
As you wait, time passes slowly living in fear,
Until the day you are certain, one hundred percent certain!
Changing
Once it’s said it’s much too late
Hurt feelings don’t hesitate
The rush in like so many times before
Reciprocation leaves you broken, on the floor.
Things said with no thought or concern,
Slow this time, there’s much to learn,
Remember what happens when there’s anger in your head,
Forget competition or what some else said.
Look deep inside yourself, the answers lies there,
A fit of anger becomes a moment of care,
You’ve been here before, go back in your mind,
Don’t lash out or retaliate, say something kind,
You can change today; it’s not too late!
Hurt feelings don’t hesitate
The rush in like so many times before
Reciprocation leaves you broken, on the floor.
Things said with no thought or concern,
Slow this time, there’s much to learn,
Remember what happens when there’s anger in your head,
Forget competition or what some else said.
Look deep inside yourself, the answers lies there,
A fit of anger becomes a moment of care,
You’ve been here before, go back in your mind,
Don’t lash out or retaliate, say something kind,
You can change today; it’s not too late!
Hot as a Hemi
Bikini wax,big headlights
Waiting for me every day
Don’t know what I ever did or had
Before you came my way
Hot as a Hemi
Full tank o gas
When I sit inside you
No one can ever pass
You never let me down
You’re always there for me
I know how to turn you on
Baby I hold the key
Bikini wax,big headlights
Waiting for me every day
Don’t know what I ever did or had
Before you came my way
Hot as a Hemi
Full tank o gas
Rollin down the highway
Riding fast class
Pop the clutch
Give it some gas
Spin the tires
Pedal to the metal
We’re gonna kick some ass
You’re my little Hemi baby
Full tank o gas
You’re my hot Hemi baby
As I step on the gas
Bikini wax, big headlights
Waiting for me every day
Don’t know what I ever did or had
Before you came my way
Hot as a Hemi
Full tank o gas
No one to the left of us
No one to the right
Fading headlights in the rear view mirror
Racing through the night
Buckle up your seat belt
Baby hold on tight
Cuz you’re my little Hemi baby
Full tank o gas
You and me we can go all night
Buckle up your seat belt baby
Hold on tight
You and me forever baby
Racing through the night
Bikini wax,big headlights
You and me baby, racing through the night
Bikini wax,
big headlights
You and me baby,
racing through the night
Yeah, baby
You and me racing through the night.
Waiting for me every day
Don’t know what I ever did or had
Before you came my way
Hot as a Hemi
Full tank o gas
When I sit inside you
No one can ever pass
You never let me down
You’re always there for me
I know how to turn you on
Baby I hold the key
Bikini wax,big headlights
Waiting for me every day
Don’t know what I ever did or had
Before you came my way
Hot as a Hemi
Full tank o gas
Rollin down the highway
Riding fast class
Pop the clutch
Give it some gas
Spin the tires
Pedal to the metal
We’re gonna kick some ass
You’re my little Hemi baby
Full tank o gas
You’re my hot Hemi baby
As I step on the gas
Bikini wax, big headlights
Waiting for me every day
Don’t know what I ever did or had
Before you came my way
Hot as a Hemi
Full tank o gas
No one to the left of us
No one to the right
Fading headlights in the rear view mirror
Racing through the night
Buckle up your seat belt
Baby hold on tight
Cuz you’re my little Hemi baby
Full tank o gas
You and me we can go all night
Buckle up your seat belt baby
Hold on tight
You and me forever baby
Racing through the night
Bikini wax,big headlights
You and me baby, racing through the night
Bikini wax,
big headlights
You and me baby,
racing through the night
Yeah, baby
You and me racing through the night.
Just like you
Hurt
I've been hurt
But I've been hurt before
I love you
you love me
internal love
external love
inside of me
inside of you
Loved
I've been loved
But I've been loved before
Swept
I've been swept
But I've been swept before
right off my feet
or under the carpet on the floor
Been there done that
I'm afraid to say
I am cared for
But I've been cared for before
Cared
for and then left
to carry on alone
I'm certain
Yes I'm sure
That whatever you come up with
No matter how unusual
or obscure
be it good, bad
happy or sad
One way or another
At some time or other
I have too before
Somethings I'm not proud of
But most of them I am
I tried to live my life
As balanced as I can
And through the hurt
and the pain
Through the laughter
and the tears
I have managed to survive
throughout the years
I could complain
And I usually do
But in the end
We are no different
I am just like you
Hurt
I have been hurt
I've been hurt before
And so have you
I've been hurt
But I've been hurt before
I love you
you love me
internal love
external love
inside of me
inside of you
Loved
I've been loved
But I've been loved before
Swept
I've been swept
But I've been swept before
right off my feet
or under the carpet on the floor
Been there done that
I'm afraid to say
I am cared for
But I've been cared for before
Cared
for and then left
to carry on alone
I'm certain
Yes I'm sure
That whatever you come up with
No matter how unusual
or obscure
be it good, bad
happy or sad
One way or another
At some time or other
I have too before
Somethings I'm not proud of
But most of them I am
I tried to live my life
As balanced as I can
And through the hurt
and the pain
Through the laughter
and the tears
I have managed to survive
throughout the years
I could complain
And I usually do
But in the end
We are no different
I am just like you
Hurt
I have been hurt
I've been hurt before
And so have you
Reality trap
The fast and energetic mind and heart
Of the Hare
Working overtime to try and keep up
Inside the battered and worn out shell
Of the Tortoise
That's how I feel
The pain outside
Keeps the inside real
Of the Hare
Working overtime to try and keep up
Inside the battered and worn out shell
Of the Tortoise
That's how I feel
The pain outside
Keeps the inside real
In the dark of night
When the world is dark and cold
I hold you tight
Till night turns into day
And as I hold you tight
In the dark of night
I think of all the things I've done and said
I begin to shiver
I begin to cry
Inside my heart wants to die
I wish with all I have
That there could be a way
That I could take it all back
Make it go away
I want all your pain
I want it all
It belongs to me
I think of where I'd be
If it weren't for your love
I think of who'd be me
And who I'd be
But then you squeeze me tight
You hold me tight
Through the night
My love for you is strong enough my love
Strong enough to carry us through
My love for you is strong enough my love
It's strong enough
Strong enough for me and you
And this life of mine is never boring
In the arms of you
Yes this life of mine is never boring
In the arms of you my love
In the dark of night
When the world is dark and cold
I hold you tight
Till night turns into day
And as I hold you tight
In the dark of night
I think of all the things I've done and said
I begin to shiver
I begin to cry
Inside my heart wants to die
I wish with all I have
That there could be a way
That I could take it all back
Make it go away
I want all your pain
I want it all
It belongs to me
I think of where I'd be
If it weren't for your love
I think of who'd be me
And who I'd be
But then you squeeze me tight
You hold me tight
Through the night
Until everything`s alright
alright
I think of where I'd be
If it weren't for your love
I think of who'd be me
And who I'd be
But then you squeeze me tight
You hold me tight
Through the night
Until everything`s alright
alright
and everything`s alright
alright
When the world is dark and cold
I hold you tight
Till night turns into day
And as I hold you tight
In the dark of night
I think of all the things I've done and said
I begin to shiver
I begin to cry
Inside my heart wants to die
I wish with all I have
That there could be a way
That I could take it all back
Make it go away
I want all your pain
I want it all
It belongs to me
I think of where I'd be
If it weren't for your love
I think of who'd be me
And who I'd be
But then you squeeze me tight
You hold me tight
Through the night
My love for you is strong enough my love
Strong enough to carry us through
My love for you is strong enough my love
It's strong enough
Strong enough for me and you
And this life of mine is never boring
In the arms of you
Yes this life of mine is never boring
In the arms of you my love
In the dark of night
When the world is dark and cold
I hold you tight
Till night turns into day
And as I hold you tight
In the dark of night
I think of all the things I've done and said
I begin to shiver
I begin to cry
Inside my heart wants to die
I wish with all I have
That there could be a way
That I could take it all back
Make it go away
I want all your pain
I want it all
It belongs to me
I think of where I'd be
If it weren't for your love
I think of who'd be me
And who I'd be
But then you squeeze me tight
You hold me tight
Through the night
Until everything`s alright
alright
I think of where I'd be
If it weren't for your love
I think of who'd be me
And who I'd be
But then you squeeze me tight
You hold me tight
Through the night
Until everything`s alright
alright
and everything`s alright
alright
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Candy
Oh how I miss you
my dear old friend
We lost touch
I don't remember when
But I remember all the time
we spent together
You came to see me
When I shouldn't have been seen
You said you loved me
We both knew what that meant
I needed to hear it
And you had to say it
You were such a good friend
Somewhere in between
The day that we met
Until the last
seemed to pass so fast
I miss you and always will
My your spirit rest in peace
As is God's will
Until we meet again
Until
my dear old friend
We lost touch
I don't remember when
But I remember all the time
we spent together
You came to see me
When I shouldn't have been seen
You said you loved me
We both knew what that meant
I needed to hear it
And you had to say it
You were such a good friend
Somewhere in between
The day that we met
Until the last
seemed to pass so fast
I miss you and always will
My your spirit rest in peace
As is God's will
Until we meet again
Until
AD&G
Alcohol, drugs and guns
Always the same stories
All of them are true
All we need is somewhere to go
Gimme something to hold onto
Something else to hold onto
Something different
Something new
All the kids in the neighbourhood
Though some are bad
They all are good
They all are good at something
Everybody is
They have Mothers and Fathers
Brothers and Sisters
Just like me and you
We all do
Everyone has someone
Needs someone
To say I love you to
Alcohol, drugs and guns
Always the same stories
All of them are true
All we need is somewhere to go
Gimme something to hold onto
Something else to hold onto
Something different
Something new
When I was a kid
I had fun growing up
I played
Just like all the other kids did
I played just like everyone
has played
I used guns
and bayonets with long blades
and knives and hand grenades
and tents and nets like G.I.Joe
I played games of war
But they ended in peace
I played an explorer
Like Johnny Quest on TV
I explored the world
through my imagination
I discovered things
you wouldn't believe
Unless of course
there's always the chance
Alcohol, drugs and guns
Got in the way
Always the same stories
It wasn't me
All of them are true
I didn't do it
All we need is somewhere to go
I wasn't there
Gimme something to hold onto
it doesn't belong to me
Something else to hold onto
I didn't mean it
Something different
I'm sorry
Something new
I love you
Always the same stories
All of them are true
All we need is somewhere to go
Gimme something to hold onto
Something else to hold onto
Something different
Something new
All the kids in the neighbourhood
Though some are bad
They all are good
They all are good at something
Everybody is
They have Mothers and Fathers
Brothers and Sisters
Just like me and you
We all do
Everyone has someone
Needs someone
To say I love you to
Alcohol, drugs and guns
Always the same stories
All of them are true
All we need is somewhere to go
Gimme something to hold onto
Something else to hold onto
Something different
Something new
When I was a kid
I had fun growing up
I played
Just like all the other kids did
I played just like everyone
has played
I used guns
and bayonets with long blades
and knives and hand grenades
and tents and nets like G.I.Joe
I played games of war
But they ended in peace
I played an explorer
Like Johnny Quest on TV
I explored the world
through my imagination
I discovered things
you wouldn't believe
Unless of course
there's always the chance
Alcohol, drugs and guns
Got in the way
Always the same stories
It wasn't me
All of them are true
I didn't do it
All we need is somewhere to go
I wasn't there
Gimme something to hold onto
it doesn't belong to me
Something else to hold onto
I didn't mean it
Something different
I'm sorry
Something new
I love you
Before
You were here
before my friend
And so was I
Another place
Another time
Another place
and time my friend
Perhaps we passed
each other by
But I think
Much more than that
In the book of life
I turned the page
And you were there
Once I saw an eclipse
In your eyes
I could only stare
Then when I blinked
You were gone
But were you there at all
You could have been
an animal
or maybe it was me
But either way
you look at it
It still makes sense to me
You were here
before my friend
And so was I
Another place
Another time
Another place
and time my friend
Perhaps we passed
each other by
But I think
Much more than that
In the walk of life
I made a friend
or met someone
Almost every mile
Sometimes though
you walk a while
or several miles
With that same someone
It was meant be
for you to meet me
Or the way around
But either way
you look at it
It still makes sense to me
You were here
before my friend
And so was I
Another place
Another time
Another place
and time my friend
Perhaps we passed
each other by
But I think
Much more than that
I am not as strong
or as big as I feel to be
I used to be so strong
Everyone listened to me
My arms and hands are sore
I'm not who I used to be
I never needed anyone
In fact everyone needed me
I am not a rich man
Nor as rich as I claim to be
I gave to charity
I'm not the same man
That I used to be
You were there then
And you are here now with me
But either way
you look at it
It still makes sense to me
You were here
before my friend
And so was I
Another place
Another time
Another place
and time my friend
Perhaps we passed
each other by
But I think
Much more than that
we may have passed
each other by
But I think
Much more than that
Yes I think much more than that
I think much more than that
before my friend
And so was I
Another place
Another time
Another place
and time my friend
Perhaps we passed
each other by
But I think
Much more than that
In the book of life
I turned the page
And you were there
Once I saw an eclipse
In your eyes
I could only stare
Then when I blinked
You were gone
But were you there at all
You could have been
an animal
or maybe it was me
But either way
you look at it
It still makes sense to me
You were here
before my friend
And so was I
Another place
Another time
Another place
and time my friend
Perhaps we passed
each other by
But I think
Much more than that
In the walk of life
I made a friend
or met someone
Almost every mile
Sometimes though
you walk a while
or several miles
With that same someone
It was meant be
for you to meet me
Or the way around
But either way
you look at it
It still makes sense to me
You were here
before my friend
And so was I
Another place
Another time
Another place
and time my friend
Perhaps we passed
each other by
But I think
Much more than that
I am not as strong
or as big as I feel to be
I used to be so strong
Everyone listened to me
My arms and hands are sore
I'm not who I used to be
I never needed anyone
In fact everyone needed me
I am not a rich man
Nor as rich as I claim to be
I gave to charity
I'm not the same man
That I used to be
You were there then
And you are here now with me
But either way
you look at it
It still makes sense to me
You were here
before my friend
And so was I
Another place
Another time
Another place
and time my friend
Perhaps we passed
each other by
But I think
Much more than that
we may have passed
each other by
But I think
Much more than that
Yes I think much more than that
I think much more than that
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
A cottage death
I hear the haunting call of a loon
That's where I want to be
To lie my head gently down
And let my life come to me
To feel so calm, so resolute
Must be a dream come true
I feel it getting closer each day
But until then my dream is you
To lie my head gently down
And let my life come to me
I hear the haunting call of loon
That's where I want to be
That's where I want to be
To lie my head gently down
And let my life come to me
To feel so calm, so resolute
Must be a dream come true
I feel it getting closer each day
But until then my dream is you
To lie my head gently down
And let my life come to me
I hear the haunting call of loon
That's where I want to be
thought # 1923 of 2010
God my back hurts!
It hurts so much;
enough to make me cry.
Enough to make me want
to die!
God may back hurts!
The day begins okay...
Everything seems alright today.
I sit up on the edge of the bed;
that's when it hits me,
like a brick to the head!
All of my clear thoughts,
happy thoughts too,
all the things I said,
everything is dead.
Sitting on the edge of the bed...
God my back hurts!
Makes me wish I were dead.
It hurts so much;
enough to make me cry.
Enough to make me want
to die!
God may back hurts!
The day begins okay...
Everything seems alright today.
I sit up on the edge of the bed;
that's when it hits me,
like a brick to the head!
All of my clear thoughts,
happy thoughts too,
all the things I said,
everything is dead.
Sitting on the edge of the bed...
God my back hurts!
Makes me wish I were dead.
shine
What I want
is the sun to shine
What I want
is to feel fine
Take the claws out of my back
Fingers out of my eyes
But every day I feel like that
it dies
I don't know why it's so dark
What I want
is the sun to shine
What I want
is some relief
A breath of fresh air
Loosen the straps
Uncuff me
I need to feel free
But every day I feel like that
it dies
What I want
is the sun to shine
is the sun to shine
What I want
is to feel fine
Take the claws out of my back
Fingers out of my eyes
But every day I feel like that
it dies
I don't know why it's so dark
What I want
is the sun to shine
What I want
is some relief
A breath of fresh air
Loosen the straps
Uncuff me
I need to feel free
But every day I feel like that
it dies
What I want
is the sun to shine
Saturday, July 17, 2010
The Great Explorers
Columbus sailed over the ocean blue
And like a snail I shall trail over you
In search of spices and gold Vasco da Gamma
sailed around the Cape of Good Hope
Exploring, I venture to all your hidden treasures
You may feel out of control and unable to cope
Juan Ponce de Leon travelled far and wide
discovering Florida in search of The Fountain of Youth
From tip to toe, pit to pit, fingers, toes and tits
I've yet be steered wrong; seen and felt
nothing but your truth
Discovering Timbuktu and the heart of Africa
Was quite a feat for Mungo Park
but the locals didn't like him
ambushed and speared he died on the Niger
Your peaks and valleys, your bends and curves
You have me exploring fearlessly
Seems there's always something new
James Cook wow now there was a man
New Zealand and Australia and Hawaii too
The entire Pacific Ocean, not to mention
Speaking of Cook-ing as in Hot, as in you
From the way that you look and smell
To the way that you walk and talk too
I'll be your Dingo if you'll be my Cockatoo
A Missionary with a true mission of freedom
Rewarded with a true vision; Victoria Falls
and dysentery; Dr. Livingstone I presume
I have all the earthly treasures in you
And you are my stars, sun and moon
John Cabot and Jacques Cartier
we owe you so much for giving us
Newfoundland and Canada eh
I feel for all the aforementioned
They were brave all, each and everyone
All their struggles, trials and tribulations
Without these guys who knows where we'd all be
So thank you gentlemen one and all
But sometimes the biggest adventure
The greatest treasure of all
Is usually right in front of us
I know because I have you
And like a snail I shall trail over you
In search of spices and gold Vasco da Gamma
sailed around the Cape of Good Hope
Exploring, I venture to all your hidden treasures
You may feel out of control and unable to cope
Juan Ponce de Leon travelled far and wide
discovering Florida in search of The Fountain of Youth
From tip to toe, pit to pit, fingers, toes and tits
I've yet be steered wrong; seen and felt
nothing but your truth
Discovering Timbuktu and the heart of Africa
Was quite a feat for Mungo Park
but the locals didn't like him
ambushed and speared he died on the Niger
Your peaks and valleys, your bends and curves
You have me exploring fearlessly
Seems there's always something new
James Cook wow now there was a man
New Zealand and Australia and Hawaii too
The entire Pacific Ocean, not to mention
Speaking of Cook-ing as in Hot, as in you
From the way that you look and smell
To the way that you walk and talk too
I'll be your Dingo if you'll be my Cockatoo
A Missionary with a true mission of freedom
Rewarded with a true vision; Victoria Falls
and dysentery; Dr. Livingstone I presume
I have all the earthly treasures in you
And you are my stars, sun and moon
John Cabot and Jacques Cartier
we owe you so much for giving us
Newfoundland and Canada eh
I feel for all the aforementioned
They were brave all, each and everyone
All their struggles, trials and tribulations
Without these guys who knows where we'd all be
So thank you gentlemen one and all
But sometimes the biggest adventure
The greatest treasure of all
Is usually right in front of us
I know because I have you
And that was not okay
I remember the day
that my hair went away
It started off
like any other day
It started off okay
I showered
and that was okay
I shaved
and that was okay
I put on my briefs
and that was okay
I put on my socks
and that was okay
I blow dried my hair
and that was okay
The phone rang
and that was okay
I lit a smoke
and that was okay
I applied hair spray
and that was not okay
That was the day
my hair went away.
that my hair went away
It started off
like any other day
It started off okay
I showered
and that was okay
I shaved
and that was okay
I put on my briefs
and that was okay
I put on my socks
and that was okay
I blow dried my hair
and that was okay
The phone rang
and that was okay
I lit a smoke
and that was okay
I applied hair spray
and that was not okay
That was the day
my hair went away.
Friday, July 16, 2010
From the Inside
I wish that you could tell what I am wishing;
That you could read my mind
You'd be surprised I think
You'd realize that I'm
Not the person who you thought
On any given day
In fact I bet you wouldn't even come close
And if you could read my mind
You'd be impressed at what you might find
I'm not complicated in too many ways
We all have our quirks and individual displays
But the fact and point of this is
That I am me and you are you
Bound together, tethered willingly
by wedlock; we two
For better or worse
In sickness and health
Till death do us part
Change me if you will
But not conventionally please
Do it from the inside
Step inside my shoes and mind
Stay as long as you please
But be forewarned
That there's a surprise in store for you
Don't be too hasty to try and make me change
Or rearrange me
For remember that by changing me
You also change you
For every action a reaction
One turn deserves another
But what gives you the most satisfaction
Be true to yourself
And without distraction
Close your eyes, let your mind go
Think about nothing until I come to mind
I wish that you could tell what I am wishing;
That you could read my mind
That you could read my mind
You'd be surprised I think
You'd realize that I'm
Not the person who you thought
On any given day
In fact I bet you wouldn't even come close
And if you could read my mind
You'd be impressed at what you might find
I'm not complicated in too many ways
We all have our quirks and individual displays
But the fact and point of this is
That I am me and you are you
Bound together, tethered willingly
by wedlock; we two
For better or worse
In sickness and health
Till death do us part
Change me if you will
But not conventionally please
Do it from the inside
Step inside my shoes and mind
Stay as long as you please
But be forewarned
That there's a surprise in store for you
Don't be too hasty to try and make me change
Or rearrange me
For remember that by changing me
You also change you
For every action a reaction
One turn deserves another
But what gives you the most satisfaction
Be true to yourself
And without distraction
Close your eyes, let your mind go
Think about nothing until I come to mind
I wish that you could tell what I am wishing;
That you could read my mind
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Taken
When darkness took me
I left the sun and moon behind
It happened so quick
Travelling at that speed
I was blind
Snatched like a mouse in field
By an eagle flying
I never knew what hit me
Never saw it coming
I was blind
I felt the warmth of a light
But I never opened my eyes
In a breath it was gone
Darkness held me tight
I'd lost all track of time
Or even what it means
In a fraction of a millisecond
I heard a trillion screams
We moved through the in betweens
We were past imagination
I tried to open my eyes
I was blind
But I felt the presence
Of everything I'd ever lost
Everything taken away from me
Somehow it felt right
It all seemed to fit
All that had happened doesn't matter
Everything glass began to shatter
I closed my eyes
I was blind
I felt a drop of troubled water
Drip upon my face
I felt it as it trickled down
And drip off my chin
Back into space
When I was a child
I almost drowned
That's how I learned to swim
I got tossed in
I took one on the chin
When I was an older child
I almost overdosed
On the basement floor
I looked down and saw myself
I'd never seem me in that way
That's how I learned to love
I was brought back that day
Then again in a car
When we hadn't driven far
When it happened yet again
My friends were saved
And so was I
I lived to tell
I don't know why
But I was brought back
That day as well
Life is strange like that
You have friends
People you know
And people you never see
Until it's time to go
Seems they all show up together
At the same time and place
As you drip like troubled water
Back into space
I left the sun and moon behind
It happened so quick
Travelling at that speed
I was blind
Snatched like a mouse in field
By an eagle flying
I never knew what hit me
Never saw it coming
I was blind
I felt the warmth of a light
But I never opened my eyes
In a breath it was gone
Darkness held me tight
I'd lost all track of time
Or even what it means
In a fraction of a millisecond
I heard a trillion screams
We moved through the in betweens
We were past imagination
I tried to open my eyes
I was blind
But I felt the presence
Of everything I'd ever lost
Everything taken away from me
Somehow it felt right
It all seemed to fit
All that had happened doesn't matter
Everything glass began to shatter
I closed my eyes
I was blind
I felt a drop of troubled water
Drip upon my face
I felt it as it trickled down
And drip off my chin
Back into space
When I was a child
I almost drowned
That's how I learned to swim
I got tossed in
I took one on the chin
When I was an older child
I almost overdosed
On the basement floor
I looked down and saw myself
I'd never seem me in that way
That's how I learned to love
I was brought back that day
Then again in a car
When we hadn't driven far
When it happened yet again
My friends were saved
And so was I
I lived to tell
I don't know why
But I was brought back
That day as well
Life is strange like that
You have friends
People you know
And people you never see
Until it's time to go
Seems they all show up together
At the same time and place
As you drip like troubled water
Back into space
Darken
As the sky begins to Darken
In my room I sit in fright
As the walls become shadows
I wait for the light
I know I'm not alone
But I can't tell you why
I often get the feeling
That someone else is with me
I know I'm not alone
I try to close my eyes
Thinking this is just a dream
But each time try
it's the same thing every time
As the sky begins to Darken
And the world falls into night
I'm alone in my room again
Sitting in fright
Then suddenly it came to me
The room began to Darken
Darkness embraced me
As did the shadows
That once chased me
No longer worried about looks
Or how I may appear to be
The more things Darken
The stronger I seem to be
I used to sit
and wait for the light
In my darkened room
Alone in fright
Now I cant't wait
For the sky to Darken
I long for the night
To play with the shadows
Freely and equally
Without fright
I Darken everything
Everything I touch and see
Keeping balance of the light
Darkness needs to be
Don't be afraid
Things may Darken now
And it's not even night...
In my room I sit in fright
As the walls become shadows
I wait for the light
I know I'm not alone
But I can't tell you why
I often get the feeling
That someone else is with me
I know I'm not alone
I try to close my eyes
Thinking this is just a dream
But each time try
it's the same thing every time
As the sky begins to Darken
And the world falls into night
I'm alone in my room again
Sitting in fright
Then suddenly it came to me
The room began to Darken
Darkness embraced me
As did the shadows
That once chased me
No longer worried about looks
Or how I may appear to be
The more things Darken
The stronger I seem to be
I used to sit
and wait for the light
In my darkened room
Alone in fright
Now I cant't wait
For the sky to Darken
I long for the night
To play with the shadows
Freely and equally
Without fright
I Darken everything
Everything I touch and see
Keeping balance of the light
Darkness needs to be
Don't be afraid
Things may Darken now
And it's not even night...
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Friendship
It grows sometimes from nothing and ends up in your heart
It never loses contact during times you spend apart
A word or two of confidence at times is all you need
But when you’re down and troubled help comes with lightning speed
A place to go when times get tough, a place to sit and cry
A hand held out to help you and never asking why
Joy and laughter shared together in a carefree way
Oh friend of mine forever so close to my heart, I think of you today.
It never loses contact during times you spend apart
A word or two of confidence at times is all you need
But when you’re down and troubled help comes with lightning speed
A place to go when times get tough, a place to sit and cry
A hand held out to help you and never asking why
Joy and laughter shared together in a carefree way
Oh friend of mine forever so close to my heart, I think of you today.
At Times
At times it oozes slowly
and at times it just pours out
At times I speak softly
and at times I just shout
at times I speak from a tense mouth
my lips begin to pout
at times I wish that I could speak
but the words just won’t come out
at times it seems to fit right in
even after I’ve just pulled it out
At times it will not return to where it came from
my own beastly snout!
and at times it just pours out
At times I speak softly
and at times I just shout
at times I speak from a tense mouth
my lips begin to pout
at times I wish that I could speak
but the words just won’t come out
at times it seems to fit right in
even after I’ve just pulled it out
At times it will not return to where it came from
my own beastly snout!
To start the day
Its rush hour
The streets are filled with people
Rushing here and there
But for me the streets are empty
There’s no one there to care
I am lonely in crowd
I always pray for rain
To hide the tears I cry for you again
To hide the tears I cry thinking of you
again
May the crack of dawn embrace me
Warm my heart and soul
May the first thing that I see
Be the beauty of your face
As a gentle breeze blows through your hair
I smell the ocean there
Your perfect skin so soft and smooth
Your silhouette on the wall
The way you move
Just a few things to start the day
Those special things just like you
Take my breath away.
The streets are filled with people
Rushing here and there
But for me the streets are empty
There’s no one there to care
I am lonely in crowd
I always pray for rain
To hide the tears I cry for you again
To hide the tears I cry thinking of you
again
May the crack of dawn embrace me
Warm my heart and soul
May the first thing that I see
Be the beauty of your face
As a gentle breeze blows through your hair
I smell the ocean there
Your perfect skin so soft and smooth
Your silhouette on the wall
The way you move
Just a few things to start the day
Those special things just like you
Take my breath away.
Alone
Its rush hour
The streets are filled with people
Rushing here and there
But for me the streets are empty
There’s no one there to care
I am lonely in crowd
I always pray for rain
To hide the tears I cry for you again
To hide the tears I cry thinking of you
Again
May the crack of dawn embrace me
Warm my heart and soul
May the first thing that I see
Be the beauty of your face
A gentle breeze blows through your hair
I smell the ocean there
Your perfect skin so soft and smooth
Your silhouette on the wall
The way you move
Just a few things to start the day
Those special things
Take my breath away
The streets are filled with people
Rushing here and there
But for me the streets are empty
There’s no one there to care
I am lonely in crowd
I always pray for rain
To hide the tears I cry for you again
To hide the tears I cry thinking of you
Again
May the crack of dawn embrace me
Warm my heart and soul
May the first thing that I see
Be the beauty of your face
A gentle breeze blows through your hair
I smell the ocean there
Your perfect skin so soft and smooth
Your silhouette on the wall
The way you move
Just a few things to start the day
Those special things
Take my breath away
Bloodless
There’s nothing left
No tears to weep
It’s too far gone
The wounds too deep
I feel it now
Turning inside out
Crimson, green and grey
Too weak to shout
I’ve been here before
Of that there’s no doubt
Unfortunately though
This time there’s no way out
My thoughts have all left me now
I see no evil and fear not a thing
I hear and say what I want
Hear the bell ring
As the round comes to an end
There’s nothing left
No blood to bleed
Like a Mandrake root
The devil’s seed
No imagination
My dreams are all real
I open my eyes
I walk, I creep
No escaping the pain that I feel
The cost never changes
There’s no wheel to deal
No secrets to steal
Purge the evil within
Erase all traces of where I’ve been
Silence the beast
Let it speak no more
Dead silence in between
Pain is a sensation of life
Sent to remind us to live
Compassion is what
Makes us feel
Makes us give
Understanding is what
Equalizes us all
Puts us on the same page
Love is the glue
That keeps us all together
No matter our colour,
Sex or age.
No tears to weep
It’s too far gone
The wounds too deep
I feel it now
Turning inside out
Crimson, green and grey
Too weak to shout
I’ve been here before
Of that there’s no doubt
Unfortunately though
This time there’s no way out
My thoughts have all left me now
I see no evil and fear not a thing
I hear and say what I want
Hear the bell ring
As the round comes to an end
There’s nothing left
No blood to bleed
Like a Mandrake root
The devil’s seed
No imagination
My dreams are all real
I open my eyes
I walk, I creep
No escaping the pain that I feel
The cost never changes
There’s no wheel to deal
No secrets to steal
Purge the evil within
Erase all traces of where I’ve been
Silence the beast
Let it speak no more
Dead silence in between
Pain is a sensation of life
Sent to remind us to live
Compassion is what
Makes us feel
Makes us give
Understanding is what
Equalizes us all
Puts us on the same page
Love is the glue
That keeps us all together
No matter our colour,
Sex or age.
Easy Blues
The blues they come so easily to me
The things that make me smile don’t happen much to me
The wife she says I bug her
Never do anything right
She even says I bug
Sometimes late at night
The kids are growing up much to fast
They think they know right from wrong
I don’t know where they found out
When it’s still not clear to me
Sometimes I don’t know which way to turn
So I can just be me
The blues they come so easily to me
The things that make me happy don’t ever happen to me
My life is such a struggle...
I work hard at everything I do
The more I sweat
The more pain I feel
The harder I work
The longer the road
Not sure why I feel like I do
But the blues sure come easily to me.
The things that make me smile don’t happen much to me
The wife she says I bug her
Never do anything right
She even says I bug
Sometimes late at night
The kids are growing up much to fast
They think they know right from wrong
I don’t know where they found out
When it’s still not clear to me
Sometimes I don’t know which way to turn
So I can just be me
The blues they come so easily to me
The things that make me happy don’t ever happen to me
My life is such a struggle...
I work hard at everything I do
The more I sweat
The more pain I feel
The harder I work
The longer the road
Not sure why I feel like I do
But the blues sure come easily to me.
Cheer my soul
Oh how you cheer my soul
Demonstrating your magic
In this world full of profit
And all the greed
Between the north and south pole
There are kings and queens vying for power and control
Though obeyed in the land they rule
They do not raise the wind nor move the clouds
Stretching their power by flexing their armies
They are feared in the minds of most
Till the roar of your thunderous magic rolls across the land
A sound that rumbles and shakes the very foundation
With a magic that can make or break any nation
Such astounding magic can only be attributed to you
Our Mighty God
Only to you
In all my labours, in everything I do
I embrace all of nature’s treasures given us by you
Filled like a glutton, filled full with deceit
The mutates
And with each day that passes by
You vision remains incomplete
Your wish is my command
But alas my dear Lord
I am but one man
Fear not though, nor doubt my resolution
But resolve me of all ambiguities
So that when I walk through the valley
In the shadow of death
I walk with the armour of your commandments and the helmet
of your wrath upon my head
for dear Lord, dear Lord above
oh how you cheer my soul
and fill me with love.
Demonstrating your magic
In this world full of profit
And all the greed
Between the north and south pole
There are kings and queens vying for power and control
Though obeyed in the land they rule
They do not raise the wind nor move the clouds
Stretching their power by flexing their armies
They are feared in the minds of most
Till the roar of your thunderous magic rolls across the land
A sound that rumbles and shakes the very foundation
With a magic that can make or break any nation
Such astounding magic can only be attributed to you
Our Mighty God
Only to you
In all my labours, in everything I do
I embrace all of nature’s treasures given us by you
Filled like a glutton, filled full with deceit
The mutates
And with each day that passes by
You vision remains incomplete
Your wish is my command
But alas my dear Lord
I am but one man
Fear not though, nor doubt my resolution
But resolve me of all ambiguities
So that when I walk through the valley
In the shadow of death
I walk with the armour of your commandments and the helmet
of your wrath upon my head
for dear Lord, dear Lord above
oh how you cheer my soul
and fill me with love.
Nirvana
It’s fundamental my dear friend
This will to live
This will I know
And this will we all have
This will, will soon show
That our constant strife
And our instinct to survive
Though insatiable
Will not keep us alive
Unlike the seed we sow
Which lay fertile
Soon to grow
The will we have
In harvest
Yields only
Suffering and pain
To show for
The love we have
For the will to live
And the life we live
To die
Let music fill the air
Portraits
Landscapes
Graffiti everywhere
Seems like we are happiest
With tragedy
Tragedy and despair
The path winds on forever
Unfolding what lies ahead
Showing us the way there
The way
To a place
A place where no earth
No water
No fire nor wind exists
A place where the mind and soul
Are equal
Are one
No dimension
No thing here
No thing there
No thing to see or feel
No thing to care
No reason
No rhyme or logic
No consciousness
No tragedy
Or despair
A place without foundation
With never the same road to there
It is the beginning
It is the end
It is birth and
Reincarnation
It is death
No earth
No moon
No sun
Freedom
Experienced immediately
Crystal clear vision and wisdom
It is neither here nor there
Neither heaven nor hell
Welcome to Nirvana
The un for all
Everything for everyone
And nothing for all.
This will to live
This will I know
And this will we all have
This will, will soon show
That our constant strife
And our instinct to survive
Though insatiable
Will not keep us alive
Unlike the seed we sow
Which lay fertile
Soon to grow
The will we have
In harvest
Yields only
Suffering and pain
To show for
The love we have
For the will to live
And the life we live
To die
Let music fill the air
Portraits
Landscapes
Graffiti everywhere
Seems like we are happiest
With tragedy
Tragedy and despair
The path winds on forever
Unfolding what lies ahead
Showing us the way there
The way
To a place
A place where no earth
No water
No fire nor wind exists
A place where the mind and soul
Are equal
Are one
No dimension
No thing here
No thing there
No thing to see or feel
No thing to care
No reason
No rhyme or logic
No consciousness
No tragedy
Or despair
A place without foundation
With never the same road to there
It is the beginning
It is the end
It is birth and
Reincarnation
It is death
No earth
No moon
No sun
Freedom
Experienced immediately
Crystal clear vision and wisdom
It is neither here nor there
Neither heaven nor hell
Welcome to Nirvana
The un for all
Everything for everyone
And nothing for all.
Truth
Blinded by determinism
Science and religion
Clearly one
For science without religion is lame
As religion without science is blind
God reveals himself daily
The presence and performance
Of the harmony
That is the spirit
Which links all living things
God does not concern himself
With the doings nor the fate of mankind
God is not a lawgiver who rewards
And punishes accordingly
God cannot be seen
But he interacts in everyway
He is in everything
Inside me
The knowledge of an existence
Admiration for the structure that is the world
Impenetrable
Radiant beauty
A strong sense of life
Profoundness without explanation
Things only accessible to out reason
Simple, elementary forms
Emotions
All of these forming a religious attitude
And with this said
I am a deeply religious man.
Science and religion
Clearly one
For science without religion is lame
As religion without science is blind
God reveals himself daily
The presence and performance
Of the harmony
That is the spirit
Which links all living things
God does not concern himself
With the doings nor the fate of mankind
God is not a lawgiver who rewards
And punishes accordingly
God cannot be seen
But he interacts in everyway
He is in everything
Inside me
The knowledge of an existence
Admiration for the structure that is the world
Impenetrable
Radiant beauty
A strong sense of life
Profoundness without explanation
Things only accessible to out reason
Simple, elementary forms
Emotions
All of these forming a religious attitude
And with this said
I am a deeply religious man.
Waking up
Woke up
WITH A PAIN INSIDE MY HEAD
SAT UP
AT THE EDGE OF THE BED
THOUGHT ABOUT
SLEEPING SOME MORE
BUT MY BACK ACHES TOO
AND MY LEGS
I CAN’T FALL ASLEEP ANY MORE
I CAN’T SLEEP WITH THE PAIN
I CAN’T REST WITH THE PAIN
I CAN’T SMILE WITH THE PAIN
FEELS LIKE I’LL NEVER SMILE AGAIN
I COULD TAKE SOME PILLS
TO HELP WITH THE PAIN
BUT I TAKE TOO MANY PILLS
THEY FUCK UP MY BRAIN
TOO MANY PILLS
TOO MUCH PAIN
DO I GET UP AND MEDICATE
THEN SHOWER TO HELP ALLEVIATE
THE PAIN
PAIN RUNS MY LIFE
PAIN STARTS THE SHOW
PAIN RULES MY WORLD
EVERYWHERE I GO
PAIN WHEN I’M HAPPY
PAIN WHEN I’M SAD
PAIN BEFORE, DURING AND AFTER
THE BEST SEX I EVER HAD
PAIN WHEN I’M PLAYING
PAIN WHEN I’M NOT
ONCE ON MY BIRTHDAY
PAIN WAS ALL I GOT
IT’S HARD TO EXPLAIN PAIN
BUT IT’S EASY TO SEE
I’M LAUGHING ON THE OUTSIDE
AT THE PAIN INSIDE ME
LATE AT NIGHT
OR AT THE BREAK OF DAWN
WHEN I’M AT WORK
OR PARTYING
BRING THE PAIN ON
IT DOESN’T MATTER MUCH TO ME
HOW I FEEL INSIDE
WHAT BOTHERS ME MOST I THINK
IS THE PAIN IS HARD TO HIDE
WHAT’S THE MATTER
ARE YOU OKAY
AND I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL
ARE THE THINGS THAT PEOPLE SAY
ITS NOT THAT I MIND ANSWERING
OR TELLING WHAT IS WRONG
IT’S JUST DAY AFTER DAY
IT’S A BROKEN RECORD
PLAYING THE SAME OLD SONG
WOKE UP
WITH A PAIN INSIDE MY HEAD
WITH A PAIN INSIDE MY HEAD
SAT UP
AT THE EDGE OF THE BED
THOUGHT ABOUT
SLEEPING SOME MORE
BUT MY BACK ACHES TOO
AND MY LEGS
I CAN’T FALL ASLEEP ANY MORE
I CAN’T SLEEP WITH THE PAIN
I CAN’T REST WITH THE PAIN
I CAN’T SMILE WITH THE PAIN
FEELS LIKE I’LL NEVER SMILE AGAIN
I COULD TAKE SOME PILLS
TO HELP WITH THE PAIN
BUT I TAKE TOO MANY PILLS
THEY FUCK UP MY BRAIN
TOO MANY PILLS
TOO MUCH PAIN
DO I GET UP AND MEDICATE
THEN SHOWER TO HELP ALLEVIATE
THE PAIN
PAIN RUNS MY LIFE
PAIN STARTS THE SHOW
PAIN RULES MY WORLD
EVERYWHERE I GO
PAIN WHEN I’M HAPPY
PAIN WHEN I’M SAD
PAIN BEFORE, DURING AND AFTER
THE BEST SEX I EVER HAD
PAIN WHEN I’M PLAYING
PAIN WHEN I’M NOT
ONCE ON MY BIRTHDAY
PAIN WAS ALL I GOT
IT’S HARD TO EXPLAIN PAIN
BUT IT’S EASY TO SEE
I’M LAUGHING ON THE OUTSIDE
AT THE PAIN INSIDE ME
LATE AT NIGHT
OR AT THE BREAK OF DAWN
WHEN I’M AT WORK
OR PARTYING
BRING THE PAIN ON
IT DOESN’T MATTER MUCH TO ME
HOW I FEEL INSIDE
WHAT BOTHERS ME MOST I THINK
IS THE PAIN IS HARD TO HIDE
WHAT’S THE MATTER
ARE YOU OKAY
AND I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL
ARE THE THINGS THAT PEOPLE SAY
ITS NOT THAT I MIND ANSWERING
OR TELLING WHAT IS WRONG
IT’S JUST DAY AFTER DAY
IT’S A BROKEN RECORD
PLAYING THE SAME OLD SONG
WOKE UP
WITH A PAIN INSIDE MY HEAD
Torn
Why do you forsake me
In my mind you rape me
I try hard to bend
Don’t try to break me
Tear me open
Take me I’m yours
Tear me open
Tear me open
Tear me open
Father of mine
I hear you
As I lay me down
As I lay me down
I fear you
Why do you forsake me
In my mind you rape me
I’ll harder to bend
Please don’t break me
Tear me open
Take me I’m yours
Tear me open
Tear me open
Tear me open
I’m torn
Father of mine
I despise you
Deep inside me
I am you
I cannot hide
Deep inside me
From you
Why do you forsake me
Bless me now don’t rape me
I’m trying hard now not to bend
But I’m learning
How to pretend
Not to fear you
Sitting on the fence
Near you
Tear me open
Take me
Take me I’m yours
Tear me
Tear me
Tear me open
Open
Torn
In my mind you rape me
I try hard to bend
Don’t try to break me
Tear me open
Take me I’m yours
Tear me open
Tear me open
Tear me open
Father of mine
I hear you
As I lay me down
As I lay me down
I fear you
Why do you forsake me
In my mind you rape me
I’ll harder to bend
Please don’t break me
Tear me open
Take me I’m yours
Tear me open
Tear me open
Tear me open
I’m torn
Father of mine
I despise you
Deep inside me
I am you
I cannot hide
Deep inside me
From you
Why do you forsake me
Bless me now don’t rape me
I’m trying hard now not to bend
But I’m learning
How to pretend
Not to fear you
Sitting on the fence
Near you
Tear me open
Take me
Take me I’m yours
Tear me
Tear me
Tear me open
Open
Torn
Lead the way
Lead the way
Don’t look back
Lock the door
Seal the crack
Hide your face
Win the race
Take control
There’s no disgrace
Lead the way
Don’t look back
Lock the door
Seal the crack
Smell the smell
Inhale the stench
Place your hand
Upon the bench
Lead the way
Lead the pack
Lock the door
Seal the crack
Feel the nail
Driven deep
Crucified
You’re mine to keep
Lead the way
Don’t look back
Lock the door
Seal the crack
Lead the way
Don’t look back
Shrunken heads
Stitches black
Lead the way
Don’t look back
Lead the way
And don’t look back.
Don’t look back
Lock the door
Seal the crack
Hide your face
Win the race
Take control
There’s no disgrace
Lead the way
Don’t look back
Lock the door
Seal the crack
Smell the smell
Inhale the stench
Place your hand
Upon the bench
Lead the way
Lead the pack
Lock the door
Seal the crack
Feel the nail
Driven deep
Crucified
You’re mine to keep
Lead the way
Don’t look back
Lock the door
Seal the crack
Lead the way
Don’t look back
Shrunken heads
Stitches black
Lead the way
Don’t look back
Lead the way
And don’t look back.
On Guard for Thee
I STRUGGLE WITH DEMONS DAILY
SOME ARE STRANGE AND NEW TO ME
BUT MOST OF THEM I KNOW
SINCE THEY BELONG TO ME
THE WAY IN WHICH I DEAL WITH THEM
DIFFERS FROM ONE MOMENT TO THE NEXT
IT ALL DEPENDS ON MY STATE OF MIND
UPON MY WEAKNESSES AND STRENGTHS
IT SEEMS TO WORK ODDLY ENOUGH
WITH DEMONS AND DEVILS IN MY MIND
BUT THE HARDEST THING OF ALL I FIND
IS TO BATTLE THEM WHILST IN THE COMPANY
OF ANGELS IN MY MIND
THE SOFTEST AND KINDEST OF HEARTS
THE SWEETNESS AND UNDERSTANDING
THAT DISTRACTS ME
AND THE BATTLE BEGINS
I TELL AT TIMES I DON’T WANT TO BE ME
RESERVED, STAGNANT IN THE PRESENCE OF EVIL
YET SO BOLD AND OUTSPOKEN WITH THOSE WHO TRULY CARE
BOGGED DOWN, WATERLOGGED FROM NO WEIGHT BUT MY OWN
MY OWN CONSCIENCE AND SINS
I SOON FIND
MY ONLY OPPONENT
TO BE MY OWN MIND
OBSCURED BY THE FOG OF THE FIGHT
I FEEL REALITY KICK IN, SUCH A BIG BITE
THE WOUND PARTS WIDER
THOUGH NO BLOOD OR FLESH EVER SHOWS
THE SCAR THAT REMAINS GOUGED OUT
THE TOLL AND ITS PRICE PAID IN FULL
LEAVING BEHIND ONLY NIGHTMARES OF WHAT HAS NOT COME
CONDUCIVE TO SELF-DESTRUCTION
WORDS SPOKEN WITHOUT DIRECTION
RICOCHET BY UNCONSCIOUS DEFLECTION
STRIKING DIRECTLY AND WITH PAINFUL ACCURACY
BUT WORDS ARE JUST WORDS
THOUGHTS ARE JUST THOUGHTS
IT’S THE LIPS AND THE MIND THAT TRULY OUGHT TO SCARE US ALL
SO WHILE YOU SLEEP AND DREAM TONIGHT
I STAND GUARD
I STAND OVER YOU, YOUR THOUGHTS, YOUR FEELINGS AND YOUR MIND
I SPEAK TO GHOSTS
I FACT I SPEAK TO MINE
THE WORLD IS TROUBLED
DOES ANYONE ELSE CARE
WHO STANDS ON GUARD FOR ME
WHO STANDS ON GUARD WHEN I SLEEP
WHO WILL AWAKEN SHOULD I FALL ASLEEP
THE FUTURE LOOKS MUCH BRIGHTER THOUGH
AT LEAST AT THIS MOMENT, WHERE I STAND
IF YOU SHOULD CARE
ONCE ALL THE PAIN HAS BEEN GIVEN
SLEEP IS ALL YOU GET
SO SLEEP WELL
ANGER AND SHAME ARE THE LESSONS OF THE DAY
I COULD GIVE UP
BUT NOT TODAY
FROM THE HOLLOW SO DEEP INSIDE ME
COMES THE TEMPEST OF YOUR LOVE
CHANGING LIKE THE SEASONS
EACH EBBING AND FLOWING
I WEAR THE NAME OF YOUR DESCRIPTION
PURE, WHITE AND FROM ABOVE
THOUGH I DRINK FROM THE CHALICE OF SIN
TAKING ALL OF IT’S DROWNING NECTAR AS IT POURS IN
SLEEP TIGHT
FOR
I STAND ON GUARD FOR THEE.
SOME ARE STRANGE AND NEW TO ME
BUT MOST OF THEM I KNOW
SINCE THEY BELONG TO ME
THE WAY IN WHICH I DEAL WITH THEM
DIFFERS FROM ONE MOMENT TO THE NEXT
IT ALL DEPENDS ON MY STATE OF MIND
UPON MY WEAKNESSES AND STRENGTHS
IT SEEMS TO WORK ODDLY ENOUGH
WITH DEMONS AND DEVILS IN MY MIND
BUT THE HARDEST THING OF ALL I FIND
IS TO BATTLE THEM WHILST IN THE COMPANY
OF ANGELS IN MY MIND
THE SOFTEST AND KINDEST OF HEARTS
THE SWEETNESS AND UNDERSTANDING
THAT DISTRACTS ME
AND THE BATTLE BEGINS
I TELL AT TIMES I DON’T WANT TO BE ME
RESERVED, STAGNANT IN THE PRESENCE OF EVIL
YET SO BOLD AND OUTSPOKEN WITH THOSE WHO TRULY CARE
BOGGED DOWN, WATERLOGGED FROM NO WEIGHT BUT MY OWN
MY OWN CONSCIENCE AND SINS
I SOON FIND
MY ONLY OPPONENT
TO BE MY OWN MIND
OBSCURED BY THE FOG OF THE FIGHT
I FEEL REALITY KICK IN, SUCH A BIG BITE
THE WOUND PARTS WIDER
THOUGH NO BLOOD OR FLESH EVER SHOWS
THE SCAR THAT REMAINS GOUGED OUT
THE TOLL AND ITS PRICE PAID IN FULL
LEAVING BEHIND ONLY NIGHTMARES OF WHAT HAS NOT COME
CONDUCIVE TO SELF-DESTRUCTION
WORDS SPOKEN WITHOUT DIRECTION
RICOCHET BY UNCONSCIOUS DEFLECTION
STRIKING DIRECTLY AND WITH PAINFUL ACCURACY
BUT WORDS ARE JUST WORDS
THOUGHTS ARE JUST THOUGHTS
IT’S THE LIPS AND THE MIND THAT TRULY OUGHT TO SCARE US ALL
SO WHILE YOU SLEEP AND DREAM TONIGHT
I STAND GUARD
I STAND OVER YOU, YOUR THOUGHTS, YOUR FEELINGS AND YOUR MIND
I SPEAK TO GHOSTS
I FACT I SPEAK TO MINE
THE WORLD IS TROUBLED
DOES ANYONE ELSE CARE
WHO STANDS ON GUARD FOR ME
WHO STANDS ON GUARD WHEN I SLEEP
WHO WILL AWAKEN SHOULD I FALL ASLEEP
THE FUTURE LOOKS MUCH BRIGHTER THOUGH
AT LEAST AT THIS MOMENT, WHERE I STAND
IF YOU SHOULD CARE
ONCE ALL THE PAIN HAS BEEN GIVEN
SLEEP IS ALL YOU GET
SO SLEEP WELL
ANGER AND SHAME ARE THE LESSONS OF THE DAY
I COULD GIVE UP
BUT NOT TODAY
FROM THE HOLLOW SO DEEP INSIDE ME
COMES THE TEMPEST OF YOUR LOVE
CHANGING LIKE THE SEASONS
EACH EBBING AND FLOWING
I WEAR THE NAME OF YOUR DESCRIPTION
PURE, WHITE AND FROM ABOVE
THOUGH I DRINK FROM THE CHALICE OF SIN
TAKING ALL OF IT’S DROWNING NECTAR AS IT POURS IN
SLEEP TIGHT
FOR
I STAND ON GUARD FOR THEE.
Drainage
The drains are plugged
They’re full of shit
They just can’t take anymore
The drains are plugged
They’re full shit
And now it’s running out the door
The more they talk
The more it builds and fills up
The more the drains plug up
They just can’t take anymore
There’s so much from all around
There’s shit from everywhere
The drains are plugged
They’re full of shit
And no one seems to care
There’s shit from him and him and them
There’s shit from her here too
There’s shit from us and them
There’s shit from me and you
There’s so much shit
What can we do?
Although I can’t remember when
The drains weren’t plugged
But at least the shit used to move
But the drains are plugged
They’re full of shit
And if we don’t act soon
All this shit’ll really back up
And it’ll fill this whole fucking room
So, shut your mouth and move your ass
And maybe all this shit will pass, soon.
They’re full of shit
They just can’t take anymore
The drains are plugged
They’re full shit
And now it’s running out the door
The more they talk
The more it builds and fills up
The more the drains plug up
They just can’t take anymore
There’s so much from all around
There’s shit from everywhere
The drains are plugged
They’re full of shit
And no one seems to care
There’s shit from him and him and them
There’s shit from her here too
There’s shit from us and them
There’s shit from me and you
There’s so much shit
What can we do?
Although I can’t remember when
The drains weren’t plugged
But at least the shit used to move
But the drains are plugged
They’re full of shit
And if we don’t act soon
All this shit’ll really back up
And it’ll fill this whole fucking room
So, shut your mouth and move your ass
And maybe all this shit will pass, soon.
The key
Not sure where I've been
Beyond within
I have been there before
I think
Though I can never
remember the way there
It's best not to try
just let it be
It's great
You'll see
Not sure where I've been
Beyond within
I've been dead
perhaps that's the key
allowing me
Beyond within
Beyond within
I have been there before
I think
Though I can never
remember the way there
It's best not to try
just let it be
It's great
You'll see
Not sure where I've been
Beyond within
I've been dead
perhaps that's the key
allowing me
Beyond within
Shaving
What is it that's bothering me
making me so sick
I am not well
and I get much worse so quick
It wrinkles me
it wrecks me
until what I see
is no longer me
The man in mirror
looking back at me
is no longer me
It scares me sometimes
if the man in the mirror
is not me
Who can can he be
What is it that's bothering me
making me so sick
I am not well
and I get much worse so quick
Dr Jekyll, Mr Hyde
Inside me, deep inside
Out of fear in the house I hide
afraid of people
afraid of outside
There's blood on my hands
I don't know why
I can't remember what day it is
What the hell have I gotten into
there's no place to hide
if I open the door
they'll all come crashing in
through an open window they'd all get out
I can't win for losing
I just want to shout
What's this feeling inside
What is it that's bothering me
making me so sick
I am not well
and I get much worse so quick
A little less here inside
A little less for me to hide
It wrinkles me
it wrecks me
What is it that's bothering me
making me so sick.
making me so sick
I am not well
and I get much worse so quick
It wrinkles me
it wrecks me
until what I see
is no longer me
The man in mirror
looking back at me
is no longer me
It scares me sometimes
if the man in the mirror
is not me
Who can can he be
What is it that's bothering me
making me so sick
I am not well
and I get much worse so quick
Dr Jekyll, Mr Hyde
Inside me, deep inside
Out of fear in the house I hide
afraid of people
afraid of outside
There's blood on my hands
I don't know why
I can't remember what day it is
What the hell have I gotten into
there's no place to hide
if I open the door
they'll all come crashing in
through an open window they'd all get out
I can't win for losing
I just want to shout
What's this feeling inside
What is it that's bothering me
making me so sick
I am not well
and I get much worse so quick
A little less here inside
A little less for me to hide
It wrinkles me
it wrecks me
What is it that's bothering me
making me so sick.
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