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How many times

How many times
How many times do I dare
Before you know I care
I can't count
The sum seems to surmount
Every time I try
I feel it getting high
I count faster
But there's no reason to
I can't fly
Not that high
The number keeps growing
How many times
Without you knowing
How many times do I dare
Before I get there
I don't know
Never did
It's too far
Besides
Who will be there
To care
I'm not sure anymore
I was yesterdays
But not today
Today I lay
Emptier than ever
I thought I was clever
But I'm not a Trevor
Far from clever
Smart perhaps
But not smart enough
Good, alas
But not good enough
How many times
How many times
How many times
If I only knew
How many times
How many times
How many times
Before I get it
Get it right
How many times
How many times do I dare
Before you know I care

Not okay

While you're sleeping
Sleeping and dreaming
I am awake
Awake and scheming
It's wasted away
It's not here to stay
What can I say
Nothing`s alright
Not okay
I gave it a shot
It helped a lot
But while you`re sleeping
Fast asleep and dreaming
I am awake
Awake and scheming
Wish I were dreaming
What can I say
Nothing`s alright
Not okay

Cleanse

As many as I can man
As many as I can
I told the drunk
I bumped into
At the local bar
Where you from he asked
After what I'd just told him
I simply told him
I come from afar
Well all I can tell you
is this he said
We don't do that sort of thing
round here
I started to smile and said
Well I've only just arrived
give a guy a break I laughed
As a nervous tremor
ever so slight crossed his lips
He reached into his jacket
for what I thought was a gun
I drew first and shot faster
and now the stranger
lay dead in the alley
The stranger lay dead on the ground
another stranger lay dead on the ground
Don't try to understand me
or the reason why
So many have tried
So many have died
The story I tell them
I warn them about
I tell them
I will share the story
And what it's about
But if they want to hear it
They're in it
And there's no way out
The smart ones think they're smart
and ask me what it's all about
I don't gives clues, hints or such
You're either in or out
The self proclaimed smartest ones of all
They ask me nothing, they know it all
But their ignorance
makes them the easiest target of all
And at the end of every story
when I'm just about done
They ask me my intentions
And what it is that brought me here
Why have I come
I'd love to tell you I say
with a great big smile
but that would spoil all the fun
In natural progression
They ask if what I say is true
and if I have done this before
Do I plan to do it again
I reply
As many as I can man
As many as I can
I told the man I met at the corner store
That's messed up he told me
and by the sounds of it so are you
I told him a few things I'd done
to his mother
So he'd co-operate
By the time his first punch landed
for him it was too late
I grabbed his other arm
spin him around into a head lock
My blade met both his ears and now
grinning a bloody grin
the stranger lay dead in aisle six
The stranger lay dead on the floor
Cleanup in aisle six
another stranger lay dead on the floor
There's not much to me
or to understand
I don't give or ask the time
or for directions
pay close attention to your reflection
Don't but into line
Respect other peoples space
Avoid confrontation
Don't look me in the face
Never make eye contact
Always know your place
Never stand too close to the edge
Don't give reason
Don't give rhyme
Don't get caught
Or you too
will run out of time.

Defence Lawyer

The wind whistles
through the bramble
and thistles
The hyena laughs
his honourable giggle
Guilty of murder
the taking of life
There's no justice
in law
To protect us from
lawyers' snake wiggles.

Message

If you love me
I know that you do
If you love me
Show me you do
If you love me
You can shove me
You can pull me
Take me anywhere
If you love me
I know that you do
If you love me
Show me you do
If you love me
Take me anywhere you go
If you love me
Let the world know

Don't be late
Don't be late
I can't wait
Don't hesitate
Don't be late
There's a message
I have to relate
Don't be late
Don't be late
I can't wait
Don't hesitate
I would appreciate
it
Don't be late
Baby I can't wait
Constantly
I anticipate
So please
don't hesitate
I would appreciate
it
There's a message
I have to relate
Don't be late
Don't be late
Don't fight it
Don't fight fate
Don't be late
Don't be late
Don't fight it
Don't fight it
Don't fight fate
Don't be late

Intoxicate me

Your looks intoxicate me
I know at times you hate me
I close my eyes and you take me
Every breath I take you make me
In my dreams you rape me
I can't take you anymore
Every day as you walk by me
I wish you would stop and try me
You never know what you'd get
Till then please
I can't take you anymore
I take drugs I don't get high on
I stopped drinking to stay hard on
One thing I am sure of
One thing I can rely on
Your looks intoxicate me
Even though at times you hate me
But when I close my eyes
You still take me
I hyperventilate because you make me
Every night in my dreams you rape me
If there's one thing I'm sure of
I know I can rely on
I just can't take you
No I just can't take you
I just can't take you anymore

Silence

Silence is golden
Yes it's true
But words,
the right words
Can be the same too
Silence can just as easily
make you blue
Especially if it follows
I love you
To say words,
the right words
Can be hard to do
But after the silence
Those words
will come to you
At times it's best
to bite your tongue
When words fly out
like bullets from a gun
Can the pain be undone
The simplest of words
can hurt so much
Somethings are simply
too hot to touch
Silence is golden
Yes it's true...

I love you

The birds singing

I can hear the birds singing
Calling in the evening
and all through the night
Can you hear them too
Early in the morning
They sing for me and you
Some sing to signal
Letting the others know
It is the dawn of a new day
And some they sing
because they can
And others sing to warn others
Of harm that may come their way
I love all the birds
Each and every one
And all of their songs
With both eyes closed
I can fly as they do
Off to distant lands
and far away places
So if you like
close your eyes too
We can fly off together
Like birds of a feather
Me and you...
Can you hear the birds singing
I can, can you
Of course you can't
you're sleeping
Sleeping, I should be too

Ownership

Sometimes I find it hard to breathe
I get scared and the world closes in
The room is too small,
there's not enough air
I panic and try hard to maintain focus
To maintain control
But my mind wanders as I cross examine myself
First my ankles
Then my knees
Hips, arms, wrists and shoulders
Neck and back
Then each muscle, joint and tendon
And when I'm all done
There's the inside of me
The insides of a baby
So I've been told
Then how come the rest of me feels
so damn old
So let's travel further inside
To where our secrets reside
Inside our mind, inside our brain
We come face to face
with our fears, troubles and pain
For me it's the night time
Or when I'm alone
We all need a break or time to relax
No down time, no pleasure and no fun for me
When it hurts to lie down,
every joint cracks as you move
It hurts me to pee
But arthritis has befriended me
Of that I am certain
And brought along a friend for me
The last thing I needed
After hepC
Let me introduce to you
the one and only
High anxiety
Oh what would my life be
without high anxiety
Sometimes I find it hard to breathe
I get scared and the world closes in on me
Caught in a web of fear
The more I struggle
The less chance of breaking free
The more I think
The later it gets
It gets too late
I begin to hyperventilate
I cough to clear my throat
To catch my breath
But that cough leads to another
Gagging, coughing, gagging, retching
and puking is next
I no longer have control
My ribs, my back
My head and stomach pay the toll
Twelve hours in the shower
Gravol every hour
Not sure what else to do
As I beg for relief from God
and you

Drowning

Drowning and
I'm nowhere near water
Drowning and
I can't get out
I can't swim and
you can't help me and
you can't come in
Drowning again
always in a new place
In a new home
Wearing my own face and
Every time I think I got things
figured out
Placed my Levy's carefully
Every time I think it'll be
alright
I wake up drowning
Drowning nowhere near water
I wake up and
you're nowhere near and
I'm all alone and
drowning in a tear
There's no one near
To comfort or hold me
I'm alone in my dreams
as with eyes wide open
Listening I hear
all the words spoken
There are too many voices
too many voices and
too many people
Am I dreaming
or is this real
I'm drowning and
I'm nowhere near water
Drowning and
I can't get out
I can't swim and
you can't help me and
you can't come in and
I try to pull you in
Pull you in alongside me
Drowning alongside me
I look closer at you and
you are gone
You never did drown well
I could tell
Drowning and
I'm nowhere near water
Drowning and
I can't get out
Try as I might
Try hard as I can
Still I'm drowning and
I'm nowhere near water
Drowning and
I can't get out
Too much emotion
Too much pain
Too much loving
Wake up in a bed of water
Made up my own tears
Filled full of my own guilt and fears
Now I'm drowning in my sorrows
I can't stop the tears
And Lord you know I can't swim
I just want out of here
I can't take it anymore
I don't want it anymore
Dear God please help me
Stop me drowning and
let me stand up once more

Don’t go

Be safe
I always said
Be safe
don’t play
where you shouldn’t go
Always look before
you go
Always know
there’s somewhere else
to go
I said
don’t play
I said
don’t play
At the side of the road
don’t play
where you shouldn’t go
Be safe
I told you so
I always said
don’t go
don’t go
where you shouldn’t
You know
not to go
On that side of the road

Anymore

Sometimes I feel it
Sometimes I’m cold,
so cold
It feels like winter
Inside my mind
But it warms me
It comes to me
When it feels kind
This may be the end of a season
But not of the way I feel,
nor the reason
There`s gold at the end of the rainbow
There`s love yet to be had
I know how I feel and the reason
But this makes no sense for some reason
How can you treat me this way
And then say you love me
I feel it, and then it goes away
It wants me too, I can feel it
I feel it, and then it goes away
No one seems to care for me
anymore
Reaching out and catching me
anymore
No one to care for me
anymore
To care for me
As I lie dying on the floor
No one`s there to care for me
anymore
Seems in life things change
They changed for me
They changed for me of that I am certain
I need a moment
I need another moment
In the corner of my life
A moment for clarity
A moment so that I can see
There`s gold at the end of the rainbow
There`s love yet to be had
And I do know how I feel and the reason
For this is the end of a season
It`s never the fortune I have sought
It`s not the pot of gold I`ve chased
It`s something I cannot put into words
It`s something I know that you have heard
But it seems the times they are a changing
As they always do
Times are changing
For both me and you
It`s time for you to hear the truth
For you to me are everything
I leave the gold for others
For I have found what I want most
I see it in your eyes
I have found what I want most
I feel it when we touch
I have found what I want most
I taste it on your lips
For there`s gold at the end of the rainbow
Yes there`s gold at the end of the rainbow
I know
But gold at the end of the rainbow
Couldn`t give what you give to me
There is only one treasure that I want
Only one treasure for me
For I have found what I want most
And that`s you

Everything and nothing

Love is everything and nothing at all
Love is wholesome and predictable
Love is to the heart like pain is to a fall
Love is right and love is strong
Love is blind and love is wrong
Love is pure and concentrated
Love is shit and constipated
Love is in the air
Love is here and there
Nowhere to be found
Love is unfair
Love moves hearts and souls
It rolls like a wheel
Love is invisible
Odourless and tasteless
Not something you can feel
Unbelievable at times
Love can be surreal
Love is you
Love is me
Love is everything
All we think, do and see
Love is everything and nothing at all

Children of the Sun

There's nothing left to say
I must be on my way
There's nothing that can be done
Grab my hand and join me now
I heading for the Sun
I'm so tired of all this
And tired of here too
I always wanted better things
Especially for you
Travelling faster than the speed of light
It seems the time is right
So I'm heading for the future
Where everything is bright
Four strong winds are blowing
To try and block my flight
But there'll be no hesitation
I'm heading for the Sun tonight
Grab my hand and join me
There's no need for fear
We'll have so much fun
We'll be heading for the Sun
Where we'll be come
The first Children of the Sun
The first of many to come
The first Children of the Sun, yeah
You and me, we will be, we will become
The first Children of the Sun
yeah Children of the Sun
You and me
Children of the Sun
Children
of
the
Sun!