How many times

How many times
How many times do I dare
Before you know I care
I can't count
The sum seems to surmount
Every time I try
I feel it getting high
I count faster
But there's no reason to
I can't fly
Not that high
The number keeps growing
How many times
Without you knowing
How many times do I dare
Before I get there
I don't know
Never did
It's too far
Besides
Who will be there
To care
I'm not sure anymore
I was yesterdays
But not today
Today I lay
Emptier than ever
I thought I was clever
But I'm not a Trevor
Far from clever
Smart perhaps
But not smart enough
Good, alas
But not good enough
How many times
How many times
How many times
If I only knew
How many times
How many times
How many times
Before I get it
Get it right
How many times
How many times do I dare
Before you know I care