thinking about hurrying

sitting on the front step
with a box knife in my hand
waiting for the sun to come
it's behind a cloud
if the sun don't come
think I'll simply
bleed out loud
I don't have patience,I can't wait
if it doesn't happen,it's too late
thought about love
but that was yesterday
thought about so many things
since then I threw love away
everybody's talking at me, to me
they got something to say
all I can do is listen
I got nothing to say
thought about killing
but that was yesterday
round about when love came
and I walked away
I wonder out loud sometimes
especially when I pray
forgive me while I sin
this life that I live in
is not the vision that I had
does this seems perfect to you
here comes the sun, thank you
but there it goes again

If you, by this strong right hand,
do not want to give the glory of my death,
you give it with your own eyes,
for the dart of your gaze
is that which kills me and consumes me.

My name

I keep hearing my name
Someone keeps calling my name
I hear my name called out loud
I'm not sure who
I don't know why
I can hear them calling
calling my name out loud
I can hear them calling
Someone keeps calling my name out loud
and I don't know why
The closer it get
the further it seems
I hear it when I'm waking
when I'm wide awake
I hear it when I'm fast asleep
I hear it in my dreams
Over and over
I hear my name whispered gently
and shouted out loud
In passion and in anger
in the midst of a crowd
It comes as the singing of a happy song
then as a warning of what is yet to come
I keep hearing my name
Someone keeps calling my name
I hear my name called out loud
It gives me shivers
all up and down my spine
I wonder who keeps calling me
all the time
When I feel good
and having a good time
my name is called out
there's no need to shout
I hear a familiar voice
calling my name out loud
I keep hearing my name
being called
when there's no one to be seen
it's like a whisper
in a dream
then it's quiet in between
the whisper and the scream
I keep hearing my name
who is calling
who is calling my name
who is playing
who is playing this game
I keep hearing my name
I wish it would stop
It's driving me insane
Finally peace and quiet
in my head
a rest for my brain.

Hello
is anyone there
or am I alone again
I used to hear my name
but lately seems like
all I hear is the rain
falling like tears drops
falling on my head
There's hardly a sound
it's as quiet as the dead
Someone used to call my name
I used to hear my name
I sure wish someone
would call out my name again

How many times

How many times
How many times do I dare
Before you know I care
I can't count
The sum seems to surmount
Every time I try
I feel it getting high
I count faster
But there's no reason to
I can't fly
Not that high
The number keeps growing
How many times
Without you knowing
How many times do I dare
Before I get there
I don't know
Never did
It's too far
Besides
Who will be there
To care
I'm not sure anymore
I was yesterdays
But not today
Today I lay
Emptier than ever
I thought I was clever
But I'm not a Trevor
Far from clever
Smart perhaps
But not smart enough
Good, alas
But not good enough
How many times
How many times
How many times
If I only knew
How many times
How many times
How many times
Before I get it
Get it right
How many times
How many times do I dare
Before you know I care