The Old Brown Cow

I guess I must be older now
I can no longer pull the plow
I wonder what will happen now
What ever happened to the Old Brown Cow

Set to pastures like being set aside
No longer able to keep astride
The cutting edge cuts deep your pride
But still those feelings you must hide

Like a head counted in a herd
Your voice alone cannot be heard
So you speak collectively
You only see what the others see

Is this the way it is when you
Get old and can no longer do
The things you did when you were you
All the things that you used to do

At times you feel alone in crowd
In a place of worship you shout out loud
You were once so strong so proud
Now you`re covered by an aging shroud

You`re in the school yard when someone fell
Now you`re waiting for the bell
Your mind is young your body`s not well
Though you walk tall the young ones can tell

I guess I must be older now
I can no longer pull the plow
I wonder what will happen now
What ever happened to the Old Brown Cow

I guess we must be older now
Those who can no longer pull the plow
I wonder what will happen now
What ever happened to the Old Brown Cow

I wonder what will happen now
What ever happened to the Old Brown Cow

I wonder what will happen now
What ever happened to the Old Brown Cow

What ever happened to the Old Brown Cow
What ever happened to the Old Brown Cow

Madness

swooping down low
hoping you won't know
that's the way it works
what is it all about
what is IT all about
what what is IT
what IS IT all about
standing right in front of you
recognizable but invisible
that's the way they are
and that's the way it works
by hiding nothing
they hope you won't see
the empty transparency
they are full of emptiness
they surround themselves
with themselves
strength in numbers
like a school of fish
controlled outnumbering
scales on a plate on a dish

they post it
to pretend it
to show they care
so leave it
like it leaves you
wrung out and strung out
hung out to dry
hung up in the air
a dangling participle
flying high again
way up high again
without a care
and running fast
never moving
never getting away
trying different things
trying every day
always abusing
the things that you're using
be sure when you're choosing
that you're not losing
and/or abusing
the very thing you need
and never negotiate out of fear
but never fear to negotiate
everything has its price
remember why you're here
when colours disappear
you'll see when they all fade away
black and white become grey
you need a bit more light
so do as night does
steal from the day
when your heart beats loud inside your head
as you lie in bed wishing you were dead
when there's nothing left to do
take stock dig deep you cannot lose
take what you need it's yours to use
and if the world begins to shake
if you feel you're going to fall
don't get too close but stand tall
so many chances and opportunities
but who's keeping score
how does it feel to be here again
here and so near again
how does it feel to be wrong again
no jumping to conclusions
don't get ahead of yourself
there's a method to all madness
so retrace your steps
but don't look back
find the step you missed
a step you took
or didn't take
one slight
might have led to all this
like being betrayed with a kiss
in the midst of all the madness

Fleeting yet again

Time is just time
isn't it
time is in the way
time is that someone
I wish I'd never met
time is my friend
but time and the mind
can be so cruel
so unkind
time stares you blankly in the face.

there they are
standing in line
p  e  r  fectly again
waiting as if to say
here we are
you know how
you know where to find us
everyday just reach and
take me, take us all
for granted if you will
but take us let us kill
together you and I
you were never good at anything
especially resistance
but you're good at this
so who cares
there's one in every crowd
there's one that rises above the clouds
take me if you dare
I will take you there
whites, blues, pinks
clears
spinning smelting
spiralling symphony
medley of medical slurry
take the next one
what's your hurry
hurry.

you can't count on people anymore
you can only count them now
whatever happened to time
the only thing that we all have
whatever happened to caring
reaching out and sharing
getting to know one another
if you were cold you'd be offered shelter
if you were hungry a meal was provided for you
now we all just stand there and stare
blankly and do nothing
if your feet were sore a massage
or the mend of a sole
when your mouth was dry
water to quench your thrist
and a tale for the soul
standing and staring
lying and dying
the end of optimism
the death of trying.

None of this was ever planned

I don't expect you to understand
because none of this ever was planned
I heard a sound from you or was it me
they always seems to come from so far away
as we lay in bed last night
slipping into sleep under the Christmas lights
just like in the old days we did it right
I could feel something slipping away
I hope it was just the day
I can't lose anymore of you or me
I cling to you so tightly
through each and every night now
I'm afraid of being alone
I put on the station we listen to
when we're alone just we two
I'm done telling you I can't tell you anymore
I can feel you though unlike ever before
I have connected, connected well with you
but my pain swallows you now too
so well connected that my pain hurts you too
but I don't expect you to understand
because none of this was ever planned
I feel ugly I feel decayed
cancerous contagious
deformed and deranged
health and well being delayed
when you're not close by
I sometimes sit in the dark and cry
thoughts of horror and pain
seduce me and reduce me
knots of burning itching pain
thoughts of suicide again
uncontrollable physical discomfort
to the point I can't explain
between the fingers and toes
feels as though something grows
withdrawal or evil I suppose
no one knows where evil grows
but it knows it grows in me
I know it grows in me I feel it sometimes
I hate it
I don't want that shit growing in me
spreading like warm butter on toast
running and soaking into every pore
I was hoping you wouldn't understand
because none of this was ever planned
and now there you stand
with that look on your face
with that stare in your eye
please don't do that
you know it makes me cry
you can't understand the reason why
okay just one cup of tea then I'll die
but only if you promise not to ask me if I'd lie
something drew me near closer to the fire
and now it seems every time you are near
evil closes in on me
and the flames keep getting higher
but then I don't expect you to understand
because none of this shit was ever was planned
please just close the door
and help me pray that all this will go away
my tea is done and it's dying time
you held up your end of the bargain and never asked
no I have to do mine
its cold, I am so cold
its too dark to see
there are stars above me
is it night time
what's happening to me
where am I
are you close to me
I don't feel sick
and I don't feel well
I can't tell how I feel
But I think I've changed my mind
I've had a change of heart
don't try to understand
because none of this was planned
preconceived or contrived
perhaps a premonition
the things we do and how we react
depend upon a momentary condition
a chain reaction caused by
a split second decision
I've tried all kinds of ways
to try and make it stop
all of those empty words
on the tips of empty tongues
inside of empty mouths
inside of empty heads
isn't that enough emptiness
don't you think enough has been said
fuck the race, fuck the pace
nothing to understand; no plan
wait I feel hot, I feel so hot
I feel a fire burning in me
burning deep inside of me
a fire deep inside of me
take my hand feel the heat
kiss my lips the burning heat
I feel so hot, too hot
I'm burning up, I feel so hot
it's burning me, it keeps burning me
it's got a hold on me and won't let go
I can't cool down, it won't let me be
I can't escape, I can't break free
another time another place
looks like the end for me

Easy

What`s going on?
I think I should know,
my head's in the clouds though.
I don`t think that it`s as easy
it`s certainly not that easy.
Not as easy as that!
What`s the hold up?
What`s going on here?
Is there a problem?
If there`s a problem
I don`t want to hear.
I know it`s never easy,
in fact sometimes it's hard.
If it`s too hard though
I may not want to know.
But if it`s not a concern
and if it`s not my problem
I still wouldn`t think it`s that easy.
Nothing is easy these days,
at least not as easy as that!
But if it all goes well
and according to plan
well we`ll all be off better
later when this all sets in.
It won`t be easy,
but then nothing ever is.
Check back in with me later
my head's still in the clouds.
Sure, you were thinking that it`s easy,
but not as easy as that!
Thinking it's easy is easy
but even that's not as easy as that!
Nothing ever comes easy,
no Lord it don't come easy,
I thank you for the challenge though.
Things around here aren't average
they're pretty much well below.
It gets harder with each passing day
and it's time that the big easy got made
and made it this way.
Because nothing comes easy
round here anyway.
What's going on?
I think I should know?
My heads in the clouds though
but I don`t think that it`s as easy
it`s certainly not that easy...and
not as easy as that!

Screw

Like a screw
tightening
into my head
I listened to
everything you said
constantly
going deeper
getting tighter
inside my head
up and down
turned all around
coming and going
all over town
do you even know
or do you care
I'm spinning
out of control
out of love
everywhere
don't you know
you only get once chance
one crack at it
you drive me crazy
complacent and lazy
you can't have one
without the other
have faith religiously
be religious faithfully
believe the intention of ascension
fear the deflation of descent
beware of the flooding damnation
avoid the detention retention
too much of a good thing
or no good at all
be careful climbing ladders
beware the fall
be a little bad
or don't be at all
the truth is
we all lie
honestly dishonest
rich beggars
climb the ladder
beware the fall
on the step stool
watch your step
and know the rule
be no ones fool
what goes up
must come down
you can't have one
without the other
have a sister
be a brother
be a man or be a woman
be a he or be a she
whatever you want
you can be
go anywhere
with no way there
find your way back
on your own
find yourself all alone
sooner or later
it had to be
all that is yours
is all that you see
play a game
play with yourself
any move you make
the next move you make
you win again
you can't be beaten
your record stands
run into the stands
your own biggest fan
you am
cheer for yourself
although it's
too little too late
it has to be fate
at the front
of the end of the line
all of the time
waiting to be first
starving obesity
drowning thirst
still watching
waiting anticipating
the tightening of the screw.

What kind of message is death
I can`t partake in rituals
Or fearful smoke signals
As I stand here before you today
It feels different to me.
What about you, does it too?
I know I have changed
but then you have too.
Through the confusion though
I see a light guiding my way,
through the dark of night,
into the safety of collision,
death by misfortune,
death coming at you,
death coming at me,
from somewhere we cannot
comprehend
no matter which direction
it`s still death in the end.
Crossing a great divide
or the avenue
when it comes, it comes
to anyone, to me or you.
Inside, on top, or just as
should you be near me
or I be near you
impact without precise intent,
collateral damage meant.
People everywhere running around,
they can`t sit still, they can`t sit down
help us, do you hear them
they are all around
drowning in fear as they cry
feel their pain, I do,
what about you?
I can`t figure this out quite yet
But then I'm not done quite yet
Its hot sitting down on the ground
Sure it is, no matter where you go!
It's hot all around!
Seems everyone is bent
or has something to vent
they're willing to talk
unwilling to walk
I have seen so much energy
so much time spent
Some of it was wasted
Could have been better spent
Time to form a line
time to redefine
our direction
time for an incline
an increase not decline
The energy formed
comes from inside
it goes outside
shows inner energy
synergy and pride.
When we connect
with each other
we become as one.
Stronger than ever
never come undone.
All together
all as one.

Jack

This is about you Jack
and all your friends and pals
This is thanks for nothing
Jack you came here
Jack you laughed and cried
You told someone else
Jack,
and then you both laughed and cried
I'm glad you shared your findings
I'm glad that they shared your views
as well
I'm disappointed though
not one of you took the time to
join my blog and leave comments
as well as your name
As a friend I thought you cared
I didn't think that I was the joke
not once
You had me fooled
Even now I can't believe what I hear
Yes from what I hear
I have others friends
Friends that actually call me
and visit me
Friends that really mean what they say
People who honestly care
You have made fun of me in the past
behind my back
I forgave you

sticks and stones

mean nothing to me
You've made fun of me
right in front of me

I laughed too and forgave you

words are words and will always be

remembered as words you said to me
Now we've been apart for a whole year
You're making fun of me
and you're no where near
Jack you claim that we're
one of a kind
and you hold me dear
Why is it that
that's not what I hear
Jack me off again
I can't understand what you mean
by friend...
Not to leave anyone out
this also goes out
to all the other Jack's I know
and you know who you are
and to everyone that claims to know me
to everyone who puts on such a fabulously
phony show
I know I know I know
Just kidding man
thought you were on board
and cool with it
I've heard them all
save them you'll need them
to bargain with
when you meet your next friend
This is not over
nor is this the end

Ronnie's taking over
just you wait and see
He's much better

at this game than me
His skin is thicker
and he lashes out randomly
sometimes without apparent reason
but always
with such heartfelt passion
So hop aboard clowns
enjoy the ride...hahaha
Pick a bird, any bird will do
if there's not enough to go around
I can flip a few more for you
anything for you, ya bunch of low life,
self-centered,ignorant,fool hearted,
two faced,back-stabbing,gossiping,
little fucking assholes,
and you know who you are.

pocket change

if you started off with a dollar
and it costs a penny to be born
you best mind the holes in your pocket

life is nothing but a pocket full of change
spend it wisely
each day it costs us
each day we have less

Rest in Peace

Life`s something that`s for sure
to live you have to pay
each day it costs us
each day we have less
every day costs you another day less
everything you do leaves you with even less
we work to live more
and live to work more
it costs to eat
it costs to survive
it costs to be safe
it costs to remain alive
a roof is just that
but is a home with a floor
walls, windows and a door
everything in life costs us more
and the price keeps going up
a penny here a penny there
and when enough is enough
it costs even more
we manage to keep up though
but though we complain a lot
we don`t really seem to care
we fuss over each other
we argue wrong or right
nobody ever wins though
especially when we fight
the cost of this is high
life is expensive to begin with
it costs us to survive
it costs to be safe
and to stay alive
life is so expensive
for you for me for all
where does all the money go
is what I'd like to know
and why is there so much poverty
everywhere I go
So many children crying
so many people hungry and dying
I would like to know
where does all the money go
why are people fighting instead of working
lying instead of writing
buying sin instead of groceries
in the street we pass people by
we are programmed to ignore
I would like to know why
when did this happen
please tell me why
better still tell me
where does all the money go
tell me where, tell me why
I can`t understand it anymore
children left unattended
gambling in casinos
drinking and cocaine
children left to die
we take better care of pets
than we do our own parents
a loved one left unattended
and lonely
a loved one left alone to die
I can`t understand it or why
life is so expensive
the cost of life is high
sooner or later
we all shall seek
and find the maker
we are all born to die
the journey can be
and will be
as long as it can
it`s up to each of us
to do our own part
to try to pay the price
to try and pay the man
if you believe like I do
there`s a price on all our heads
a price for a pound of flesh
comes cheap these days
so live life
for life is to live it
to feel life is to give it
take what you need to live life
and remember what it took to give it
be humble don`t brag
live has a way of equalizing itself
sooner or later one way or another
life is something that`s for sure
another day less to live
one day less to pay
what good is a nest egg
and toys are for kids
you can`t take it with you
everything is junk in the end
don`t die with it, give it away
don`t die in junk
chose where you`ll lay
when you leave clean out your closet
get rid of the junk
shine your best shoes
clean out your trunk
get rid of old news
a clean shirt and tie
don`t die in it or with it
good-bye junk
you make the memories
you chose to leave when you do
with everything precious in its place
sleep now with a smile on your face
to rest in peace is only fair
after all you went through
to get there.

thinking about hurrying

sitting on the front step
with a box knife in my hand
waiting for the sun to come
it's behind a cloud
if the sun don't come
think I'll simply
bleed out loud
I don't have patience,I can't wait
if it doesn't happen,it's too late
thought about love
but that was yesterday
thought about so many things
since then I threw love away
everybody's talking at me, to me
they got something to say
all I can do is listen
I got nothing to say
thought about killing
but that was yesterday
round about when love came
and I walked away
I wonder out loud sometimes
especially when I pray
forgive me while I sin
this life that I live in
is not the vision that I had
does this seems perfect to you
here comes the sun, thank you
but there it goes again

If you, by this strong right hand,
do not want to give the glory of my death,
you give it with your own eyes,
for the dart of your gaze
is that which kills me and consumes me.

This place

I got this feeling
deep inside my brain
I got this feeling
telling me again
I got to get out of this place
or change what`s happening here
there`s too much shit
happening here
I got to find a place
Where the people aren`t so queer
or rearrange this place
And change or rearrange this place
and all the shit that`s happening here
It`s a shame, it`s a disgrace
There has to be a better place
I am going to try to find another place
Or rearrange this place into another place
another place to stay with a lot of sunshine
every day
a place where I can relax my mind
and get away
from all the confusion
every day
I got to get to that place
there`s way too much shit happening here

I got to find a place
I got to make this place
a better place
it`s way too crazy here
So put your hand in mine
we can work together
everything will be fine

Did you hear me
I`ll say it again
I got this feeling
deep inside my brain
it keeps telling me
to get out of this place
or change what`s happening here
there`s so many people
playing way too games
got to save my own face
got to save my own name
can`t even walk the street
without being scared off your feet
people owning the streets
the neighbourhood
too many people
doing too little good
look at all of them
with all their different faces
I`ve seen them all before but
in other places

So reach out, get up
put your hand in mine
if we get together
it will work out fine
we got to put the bad people down
someone has to
put the bad people down

Perhaps someday
they too will realize
in the end we all will die
and when looking death in the eye
the strong become weak
and the strongest begin to cry
and in the end we all will die
we all will die

Sevens and elevens

Thrown down
like a king without a crown
Thrown down
without a thought
without a care
Thrown down
I see sevens and elevens
rolling everywhere
craps all around
Thrown down
turn the throne
upside down
Thrown down
Who are you
to critizize me
who are you to say
what you think I feel
who are you
you're not real
I did my best
to impress you
I did my best
only to be thrown
with the rest
Thrown down
like a king without a crown
Thrown down
without a thought
without a care
Thrown down
I see sevens and elevens
rolling everywhere
sevens and elevens
craps all around
sevens and elevens
Thrown down
Thrown down
It's time go double
or nothing
leave it all downtown
leave it all thrown down
thrown down
sevens and elevens
thrown down
all thrown down
sevens and elevens

Life has no meaning

OIL IN OUR WATER
FISH NOWHERE TO BE FOUND
THE MODERN DAY MURDERER
SEEPS POISON INTO THE GROUND

FOSSIL FUEL EMISSIONS
HANG HEAVY IN THE AIR
BLATANT SIGNS OF WASTEFULNESS
AND DECADENCE EVERYWHERE

TOXIC WASTE STORED AND DUMPED EVERYWHERE
BIGGER ENGINES AND BIGGER CARS
PUMP EVEN MORE POISON INTO OUR AIR
DO WE REALLY NEED WHAT WE HAVE
AND DO WE EVEN CARE

THE ANSWERS ARE SIMPLE
AND THE SOLUTIONS THE SAME
WE DID THIS TO OURSELVES
LET'S TRY THIS ONCE AGAIN

THE FARMERS PLIGHT, THE WORKING CLASS
LESS FOOD THAN MOUTHS TO FEED
OUR CHILDREN, OUR PEOPLE ONE AND ALL
SUFFER FOR MANKIND’S GREED TO SUCCEED

THE WARS OVER SEAS THAT NOBODY SEES
PICTURES AND STORIES BEYOND BELIEF
OF TORTURE, DEATH AND GRIEF
DESENSITIZING US MORE EVERY DAY
AND OUR COMPASSION BEGINS TO FADE AWAY

THE KILLING FIELDS, OUR OWN PEACEFUL TOWNS
RAVAGED BY FEAR, DEATH AND PAIN
HELD HOSTAGES ARE WE, NEVER TO BE SET FREE
FROM THE CLUTCHES OF GREED'S BLOODY REIGN

OUR PURPOSE IN LIFE HAS NO MEANING
THOUGH WE ALL TRY HARD TO BELIEVE
BUT THE TRICK IS NOT TRYING, IT’S LIVING
TO GIVE EACH LIFE MEANING
BEFORE WE HAVE TO LEAVE

THERE'S NO SECRET TO OUR FUTURE
IT SHINES BRIGHTLY THROUGH ALL OF THIS
GET RID OF OPPRESSION AND DISCRIMINATION
EQUALITY FOR ONE AND ALL
TEAR DOWN ALL BOUNDARIES AND BORDERS
EVERY FENCE AND EVERY WALL

ONE PEOPLE, ONE CAUSE
ONE WORLD, ONE NATION

THE UNIVERSE WILL BEAR ITS SOUL TO US
ONE PEOPLE WITH ONE GOAL IN TRUST
TO GO FORTH INTO THE REALM OF DARKNESS
AND THE UNKNOWN
BRINGING THE LIGHT OF PROSPERITY FOR ALL
AND MAKING THE WHOLE WORLD OUR HOME

IT'S A DREAM I HAVE
I HOPE SOMEDAY WILL COME TRUE
WITH A PEACEFUL COEXISTENCE FOR
THEM, US AND YOU.

thoughts

Life is useless from beginning to end
With spasms and pain it begins
With pain and spasms it ends
Nothing more than a hot flash
in cold, cold world
Life is useless from beginning to end
Let us save our breath
For what is breath after all
But the beginning and the end
For breath delivers our first cry
And steals our last word
Life is useless from beginning to end

From here I have watched you
As you walked along the side of the street
where the light slices into the darkness
Silence follows you
Everything else is left behind
Your voice echoes
Your promise is a song
Your memory is sad

Who is the potter I say
Where is the pot
And where is the clay
His work's unfinished
Has he gone for the day
Just for today
From the belly of the Earth
came the clay
Came the clay he used
on that day
Listen in the evening
Listen and pray
That all will be well
in the morrow day
Who is the potter I say
Where is the pot
And where is the clay

Let injury heal
Let doubt find faith
Let there be hope in despair
let sadness become joy
Let love rule over hate
And let there be peace on Earth

Changing

Once it’s said it’s much too late
Hurt feelings don’t hesitate
The rush in like so many times before
Reciprocation leaves you broken, on the floor.
Things said with no thought or concern,
Slow this time, there’s much to learn,
Remember what happens when there’s anger in your head,
Forget competition or what some else said.
Look deep inside yourself, the answers lies there,
A fit of anger becomes a moment of care,
You’ve been here before, go back in your mind,
Don’t lash out or retaliate, say something kind,
You can change today; it’s not too late!

Nirvana

It’s fundamental my dear friend
This will to live
This will I know
And this will we all have
This will, will soon show
That our constant strife
And our instinct to survive
Though insatiable
Will not keep us alive
Unlike the seed we sow
Which lay fertile
Soon to grow
The will we have
In harvest
Yields only
Suffering and pain
To show for
The love we have
For the will to live
And the life we live
To die
Let music fill the air
Portraits
Landscapes
Graffiti everywhere
Seems like we are happiest
With tragedy
Tragedy and despair
The path winds on forever
Unfolding what lies ahead
Showing us the way there
The way
To a place
A place where no earth
No water
No fire nor wind exists
A place where the mind and soul
Are equal
Are one
No dimension
No thing here
No thing there
No thing to see or feel
No thing to care
No reason
No rhyme or logic
No consciousness
No tragedy
Or despair
A place without foundation
With never the same road to there
It is the beginning
It is the end
It is birth and
Reincarnation
It is death
No earth
No moon
No sun
Freedom
Experienced immediately
Crystal clear vision and wisdom
It is neither here nor there
Neither heaven nor hell
Welcome to Nirvana
The un for all
Everything for everyone
And nothing for all.

The birds singing

I can hear the birds singing
Calling in the evening
and all through the night
Can you hear them too
Early in the morning
They sing for me and you
Some sing to signal
Letting the others know
It is the dawn of a new day
And some they sing
because they can
And others sing to warn others
Of harm that may come their way
I love all the birds
Each and every one
And all of their songs
With both eyes closed
I can fly as they do
Off to distant lands
and far away places
So if you like
close your eyes too
We can fly off together
Like birds of a feather
Me and you...
Can you hear the birds singing
I can, can you
Of course you can't
you're sleeping
Sleeping, I should be too

Drowning

Drowning and
I'm nowhere near water
Drowning and
I can't get out
I can't swim and
you can't help me and
you can't come in
Drowning again
always in a new place
In a new home
Wearing my own face and
Every time I think I got things
figured out
Placed my Levy's carefully
Every time I think it'll be
alright
I wake up drowning
Drowning nowhere near water
I wake up and
you're nowhere near and
I'm all alone and
drowning in a tear
There's no one near
To comfort or hold me
I'm alone in my dreams
as with eyes wide open
Listening I hear
all the words spoken
There are too many voices
too many voices and
too many people
Am I dreaming
or is this real
I'm drowning and
I'm nowhere near water
Drowning and
I can't get out
I can't swim and
you can't help me and
you can't come in and
I try to pull you in
Pull you in alongside me
Drowning alongside me
I look closer at you and
you are gone
You never did drown well
I could tell
Drowning and
I'm nowhere near water
Drowning and
I can't get out
Try as I might
Try hard as I can
Still I'm drowning and
I'm nowhere near water
Drowning and
I can't get out
Too much emotion
Too much pain
Too much loving
Wake up in a bed of water
Made up my own tears
Filled full of my own guilt and fears
Now I'm drowning in my sorrows
I can't stop the tears
And Lord you know I can't swim
I just want out of here
I can't take it anymore
I don't want it anymore
Dear God please help me
Stop me drowning and
let me stand up once more

Don’t go

Be safe
I always said
Be safe
don’t play
where you shouldn’t go
Always look before
you go
Always know
there’s somewhere else
to go
I said
don’t play
I said
don’t play
At the side of the road
don’t play
where you shouldn’t go
Be safe
I told you so
I always said
don’t go
don’t go
where you shouldn’t
You know
not to go
On that side of the road