Christmas time

In my heart and soul

and in my mind

in my heart and soul

all the time

I hear the laughter

I hear the children
I hear it now
it will happen soon
Christmas time

fill my heart and soul

with the thoughts

of you
and if you wish hard enough
at Christmas time it will be
Christmas time
for you and for me
it will light you up
it will lift you up
it will set you free
don`t put up a fight
put up a Christmas tree
and soon you will see
it's Christmas time
for you and me
playing in the park
rolling in the snow
laughing after dark
saying hohoho
it won`t be long
it won't be long at all
in my heart and soul
in my mind oh
I hear the laughter
I hear the children
in my heart and soul
it warms up all my thoughts
it's like a fireplace
it accompanies my mind
as soon as I open my eyes
it's seems and it feels like
Christmas time
with each carol I hear
I feel Christmas drawing near
each card that I open one at a time
I feel Christmas
Christmas floating through the air
I feel Christmas everywhere


In the malls, on the street,
all the people that I meet
seem so happy and say Merry Christmas
Makes me wish everyday
could be just like today
in my heart and soul
and in my mind
in my heart and soul
all the time
I hear the laughter
I hear the children
I hear them all the time
I want them all the time
I want Christmas time all the time
I want it in my life
I want it all the time
Christmas time
I want it in my heart and soul
I want it in my mind
Christmas time
I want it in my heart and soul
I want it all the time
in my heart and soul
in my mind
in my mind
in my mind
in my mind
in my heart and soul
in my mind
in my mind
in my mind
in my mind
in my mind
it's Christmas time
I wanna hear the laughter
I wanna  hear the children
I wanna  hear them all the time
In my life
In my life
In my life
I my life
I want them all the time.
In my life and mind
all the time.

like i care

sometimes
i actually give a fuck
but then again
i don`t
and sometimes
i could really fuckin care less
until
once again
i feel the caress
as you stroke my ego
again and again
yeah baby
you stroke my ego again
sometimes
i wanna make you smile
that great big smile
but then again
i don`t
and sometimes
especially when we kiss
my heart skips a beat
and then once you stroke my ego
again, again and again
yeah baby
you stroke my ego again
i feel it again
it`s somewhere in between
the kiss and caress
that i begin to miss it
i feel it less
until
you stroke my ego
again, again and again
yeah baby
you stroke my ego again
you stroked my ego
way back then
you stroke my ego now
do it again
stroke my ego
do it like you did back then
stroke my ego once again
do it again
stroke, stroke, stroke my ego
do it, do it, do it again
sometimes
i actually give a fuck
but then again
i don`t
but you can stroke my ego
anytime you like
but i could fuckin care less
ah yeah
all the while pretending
like i care
until
you stroke my ego
there you go again
i feel the caress
and your gentle smile
all the while
i could care less
i am reckless
until i feel distress
then you stroke my ego
while wearing a dress
stroke it
stroke it with finesse
you stroke my ego
again doing your best
undo the stress
and sometimes i feel it go
i feel it letting go
it feels like ice and snow
frosting my feelings
de-ice me
high and low
until
i feel the caress
as you stroke my ego
once again
stroke, stroke my ego
once again
is this heaven
am i insane
i can`t feel my legs
but i believe i`m walking
in the rain
walking in the rain again
walking on the rain
until
the clouds disappear
until the sun shines
again
i feel the caress
i dispense of the sense
the intense sense
of offence of defence
of difference
without intent
in the outs
sometimes
i actually give a fuck
but then again
i don`t
i feel as though
i should care
i do but then i don`t
it`s the same thing
everywhere
i look and go
it`s everywhere
some they do
and then they don`t
so i pretend
like i care
no eye contact
i don`t stare
to stay sane
i wear sunglasses
i see what and who
i want to see
everywhere i look
my world is free
and it gently belongs to me
when the rain falls
i drink
until the clouds disappear
drunk drinking rain
i walk without fear
numb and frustrated
like a saturated sponge
i can`t take any more
i look for another door
the in or out door
at this point i'm not sure
until
you stroke my ego
there you go again
i feel the caress
you in your dress
again
i feel the distress
but refrain
you stroke my ego
stroke it
stroke it with finesse
again, again and again
after all you`re still the same
and me
well, i`m insane
like i care

artwork thanks to www.nataliedee.com

This place

I got this feeling
deep inside my brain
I got this feeling
telling me again
I got to get out of this place
or change what`s happening here
there`s too much shit
happening here
I got to find a place
Where the people aren`t so queer
or rearrange this place
And change or rearrange this place
and all the shit that`s happening here
It`s a shame, it`s a disgrace
There has to be a better place
I am going to try to find another place
Or rearrange this place into another place
another place to stay with a lot of sunshine
every day
a place where I can relax my mind
and get away
from all the confusion
every day
I got to get to that place
there`s way too much shit happening here

I got to find a place
I got to make this place
a better place
it`s way too crazy here
So put your hand in mine
we can work together
everything will be fine

Did you hear me
I`ll say it again
I got this feeling
deep inside my brain
it keeps telling me
to get out of this place
or change what`s happening here
there`s so many people
playing way too games
got to save my own face
got to save my own name
can`t even walk the street
without being scared off your feet
people owning the streets
the neighbourhood
too many people
doing too little good
look at all of them
with all their different faces
I`ve seen them all before but
in other places

So reach out, get up
put your hand in mine
if we get together
it will work out fine
we got to put the bad people down
someone has to
put the bad people down

Perhaps someday
they too will realize
in the end we all will die
and when looking death in the eye
the strong become weak
and the strongest begin to cry
and in the end we all will die
we all will die

Sing a song to be reborn

To tell you the truth
I never thought I'd end up like this
So far from everything
So long from everywhere
As a child I always prayed
Opened my heart to heaven above
I gave what I could
I gave all my love
But something is wrong here
So far from everything
So long from everywhere
To tell you the truth
I never thought I'd end up like this
It's a long road home
It's so long when you're all alone
So far from everything you know
So long from everywhere you go
Far away, far too far away
And it's getting farther every day
To tell you the truth
I never thought I'd end up this way
It's such a long road home
It's so long when you're all alone
It's long way home
When you've gone so far
You can't turn back
Stay straight and narrow
Cling to today for tomorrow
For tomorrow will be your today
To tell you the truth
I never thought I'd end up this way
Lying in bed
Those thoughts in my head
Thoughts of my life
Thoughts of the future
It's been so long
And soon I'll be dead
Those thoughts thought
Were not like this
Those thoughts thought
Would never be like this
So why is it like this
We never thought this
We didn't want this
To tell you the truth
I never thought we'd end like this

Waking up
Lying on the floor
In warm pool of blood
I didn't do it
I wasn't even there
How can this be
Let me go
I have to go now
I have to see
As I look down
On the floor now
I see me
Waking up
Lying on the floor
In a warm pool of blood

Lying beside me
I see them
Each and every last one
I reach to touch
But they run away from me
I want to help but I can't
I don't even know who I am
I reach out to help them
But now they are gone

Waking up
Lying on the floor
In warm pool of blood
I didn't do it
I wasn't even there
How can this be
Let me go, I have go now
I have to see
And as I look down
On the floor now
I see me
Waking up
Lying on the floor
In a warm pool of blood

Turn your head up
Turn your head up to the sky
Reach out to Heaven
Reach way up high
It's funny how you can
It's funny to be this man
The same man
Though you may not know
Till your dying day
It's the same
The same song
You know the words
How it goes
You've known it all
You've sung this song
Once before
It's history repeating itself
Like it has
In the past
It's history
It's history repeating itself

To tell you the truth
I never thought I'd end up like this
So far from everything
So long from everywhere
As a child I always prayed
Opened my heart to heaven above
So help me now
Sing a song so we may be reborn
The same song we sung before
Same song as we sung before
Before the time
Before the day
Sing the song
Sing this all away...
Sing a song so we may be reborn

Turn your head up
Turn your head up to the sky
Reach out to Heaven
Reach way up high
It's funny how you can
It's funny to be this man
The same man
Though you may not know
Till your dying day
It's the same
The same song
You know the words
How it goes
You've done it all
You've sung this song
Once before
It's history repeating itself
Like it has
In the past
It's history
Yes it's history repeating itself
Sing that song
I'll sing along
Sing a song to be reborn...