Love

clouds shatter like glass

frozen tears rain down

the sun has left my sky

and as I continue to die

shards of love

penetrate my armour

cutting deep

through my calloused skin

through my outer layer

slicing deep and cutting

into my pride

without the sun

there are no shadows

no place to hide

love keeps cutting

cutting me deeper inside

I try to keep busy

it seems the harder I try

still I keep my neck a wry

for love keeps me astride

waiting patiently

in subliminal latency

never losing track of me

it has a hook in me

love won't let me be

as far as the eye can see

across the open sea

love reigns on me

as dark as the sky above

try as I may for

forever and day

there is no shelter

or comfort

from ubiquitous love

The inside

Life! Ha!
None of it really
matters much to me
It hurts like hell that's for sure
but what I will say is this
that my life is just that way
riding high all the time
on a suicide drive-by
every day
My mind's a mess
My heart's fucked up
The harder I try to
to get my shit together
I more I hear
the same old words again
I can't believe it
I can't believe my ears
Makes me wanna quit
quit it all
everyone and everything.

What I have got
If I don't have love
I close my eyes and sleep
won't come
The dreams that you have
are nightmares to me
My fears chase me
into the night
I feel alone with you
right there beside me
I feel dark and cold
I feel old
There's so much I need
to do yet
There's so much I need
to say yet
There's so much I need
to love yet
Don't take my love away.

Spinning in a funnel
unable to grab hold
a downward spiral
I feel cold
Unable to grab hold
sometimes the end
looks better
even better than
starting over again
Perhaps it's wrong to feel
this way
but my opinion is all
I have today
It matter so much
to me today
The hurt cut so deep
there's no blood
Take to corpse away.

Another heart torn out
another death by love today
I could care
but I don't
Crack a nut
you break the shell
I'm about the inside
I am the inside
This shell you see
is not me
I'm not this, that, these or those
I'm about the inside
I'm about what I chose.

The same man

To tell you the truth
I never thought I'd end up like this
So far from everything
So long from everywhere
As a child I always prayed
Opened my heart to heaven above
I gave what I could
I gave all my love
But something is wrong here
So far from everything
So long from everywhere
To tell you the truth
I never thought I'd end up like this
It's a long road home
It's so long when you're all alone
So far from everything you know
So long from everywhere you go
Far away, far too far away
And it's getting further every day
To tell you the truth
I never thought I'd end up this way
It's such a long road home
It's so long when you're all alone
It's long way home
When you've gone so far
You can't turn back
Stay straight and narrow
Cling to today for tomorrow
For tomorrow will be your today
To tell you the truth
I never thought I'd end up this way
Lying in bed
Those thoughts in my head
Thoughts of life
Thoughts of the future
It's been so long
And soon you'll be dead
Those thoughts thought
Were not like this
Those thoughts thought
Would never be like this
So why is it like this
We never thought like this
We didn't want this
To tell you the truth
I never thought we'd end like this

Waking up
Lying on the floor
In warm pool of blood
I didn't do it
I wasn't even there
How can this be
Let me go I have to go now
I have to see
As I look down
On the floor now
I see me
Waking up
Lying on the floor
In a warm pool of blood
Lying beside me
I see them
Each and every last one
I reach to touch
But they run from me now
I want to but can't help
I don't even know who I am
I reach out to help them
But now they are gone

Waking up
Lying on the floor
In warm pool of blood
I didn't do it
I wasn't even there
How can this be
Let me go, I have go now
I have to see
And as I look down
On the floor now
I see me
Waking up
Lying on the floor
In a warm pool of blood

Turn your head up
Turn your head up to the sky
Reach out to the Heavens
Reach way up high
It's funny how you can
It's funny to be this man
The same man
Though you may not know
Till your dying day
It's the same man
The same song
You know the words
How it goes
You've done it all
You've sung this song
Once before
It's history repeating itself
Like it has
In the past
It's history
Yes it's history repeating itself

To tell you the truth
I never thought I'd end up like this
So far from everything
So long from everywhere
As a child I always prayed
Opened my heart to heaven above
So help me now
Sing a song so we may be reborn
The same song we sung before
Same song as we sung before
Before the time
Before the day
Sing the song
Sing this all away...
Sing a song so we may be reborn

Turn your head up
Turn your head up to the sky
Reach out to the Heavens
Reach way up high
It's funny how you can
It's funny to be this man
The same man
Though you may not know
Till your dying day
It's the same man
The same song
You know the words
How it goes
You've done it all
You've sung this song
Once before
It's history repeating itself
Like it has
In the past
It's history
Yes it's history repeating itself
Sing that song
I'll sing along
Sing a song to be reborn...

using confusion you can find peace and quiet

From the Inside

I wish that you could tell what I am wishing;
That you could read my mind
You'd be surprised I think
You'd realize that I'm
Not the person who you thought
On any given day
In fact I bet you wouldn't even come close
And if you could read my mind
You'd be impressed at what you might find
I'm not complicated in too many ways
We all have our quirks and individual displays
But the fact and point of this is
That I am me and you are you
Bound together, tethered willingly
by wedlock; we two
For better or worse
In sickness and health
Till death do us part
Change me if you will
But not conventionally please
Do it from the inside
Step inside my shoes and mind
Stay as long as you please
But be forewarned
That there's a surprise in store for you
Don't be too hasty to try and make me change
Or rearrange me
For remember that by changing me
You also change you
For every action a reaction
One turn deserves another
But what gives you the most satisfaction
Be true to yourself
And without distraction
Close your eyes, let your mind go
Think about nothing until I come to mind
I wish that you could tell what I am wishing;
That you could read my mind

Bloodless

There’s nothing left
No tears to weep
It’s too far gone
The wounds too deep
I feel it now
Turning inside out
Crimson, green and grey
Too weak to shout
I’ve been here before
Of that there’s no doubt
Unfortunately though
This time there’s no way out
My thoughts have all left me now
I see no evil and fear not a thing
I hear and say what I want
Hear the bell ring
As the round comes to an end
There’s nothing left
No blood to bleed
Like a Mandrake root
The devil’s seed
No imagination
My dreams are all real
I open my eyes
I walk, I creep
No escaping the pain that I feel
The cost never changes
There’s no wheel to deal
No secrets to steal
Purge the evil within
Erase all traces of where I’ve been
Silence the beast
Let it speak no more
Dead silence in between
Pain is a sensation of life
Sent to remind us to live
Compassion is what
Makes us feel
Makes us give
Understanding is what
Equalizes us all
Puts us on the same page
Love is the glue
That keeps us all together
No matter our colour,
Sex or age.