Sleep

I'm laying here lonely
I wish you would speak
We've so much to say
But I can't I'm too weak
The stories of days
Days that have passed
The stories of love
We both knew would last
My mind races
in search of sleep
My body aches
from the promise to keep
Trying to stop myself
from dying
My lips try to open
But I cannot say
My thoughts are deep
But the words that I keep
Will not come
Long are the days of love
Full of thought and concern
But unlike a candle
Life has but one burn
Burn it carefully
Burn it right
Treat it tenderly
Burn it bright
If it flickers
Shelter it
Never to go out
It will keep you warm
On the coldest night
In the darkest shadows
It brings you light
Hold it close
and dear to you
It will grow
and always be near to you
But still I lay here lonely
Wishing you would speak
I would
If I could
But I am too weak
I am weary and old
I feel humbled and beaten
When I used to feel bold
Things I once did
I can no longer do
Every movement
another pain
Every thought
another memory
God I wish I were young again
I wasted my life
and so much time
On things and people
that meant so much
to this heart of mine
And in the end
I stood alone at the edge
Alone with time
Had I only listened
We all have that to say
But me I never learned a single lesson
From none of the minutes or hours
or one single day
I pissed
and I wasted
my whole life away
Thinking I was lucky
Until it was time to pay
Lucky, me
Hell yes I am
But believe me when I tell you
This is no life for a man
I've beaten and battered myself
And I'm lonely in my pain
So please say something
To help distract my brain
I love you more than life itself
I love you with all my heart
I know sometimes to see me
Really breaks your heart
But please let me apologize
Before you even start
Don't second guess your thoughts
or rearrange your words
I want and need to hear
What you think even if it hurts
A man who cries is a man who's weak
Perhaps that's true
But I've never cried out of fear for myself
Though I've cried for the love of you
The fear of being without you
Is the worst fear of all
I'm laying here lonely
I wish you would speak
We've so much to say
But I can't I'm too weak