To the bone again

What was I thinking
This can't be real
Bring on the night
bring on the pain
I've had too much
happiness once again.

My skin feels itchy
Crawling deep inside
If I could
I’d tear it off
Peel off my own hide
No longer able to hide
My feet are hot
So uncomfortable
If I could
I’d cut them off
No longer able to run
My body feels different
Sick and tired
It belongs to someone else
I feel odd, out of sorts
Not quite like myself today
If I could
I’d find myself today
Another me today
Another me to be
Another way today.

Looking through my window
Not sure what I see
Searching for something
But it’s not there for me
Shadows falling
In my direction
Streaks upon the glass
Memories of you rush in
And then they quickly pass
Streaks upon the glass
from the tears I have cried
over the lost love passed.

Reminders of all the times
we have both tried
Rays of sadness
As the sun begins to fade
Radiate in the silence
Echo the mistakes that we made.

Driven by a drive
Driven once before
Driven to a place
Driven to a door
Angels all around
What are they here for
The questions are gone
Same answer as before.

Bring on the night
And let it rain
Give it all to me
Tear out my heart
Run me over again.

I guess I was dreaming
Living with no pain
It lasted far too long
What was I thinking
It was bound to break
Happiness seems
too much to take
Bring on the night
Dark is my light
And now the rain
Make it cold and hard
Like my heart
Hit by a train
I guess I was dreaming
I must have been dreaming
again
Living life far too long
without pain
Bring on the night
bring on the pain
take it to the bone
again.