The tears I cry

you were here before
but you were so young
only 3 years old
I will never forget the look on your little face
the tears in your eyes when I stood and cried
I wished for rain
in the middle of a heat wave
so I wouldn't have to explain
the tears I cry
and sure as rain you asked
and I told you to look
there's Mommy in that big shiny car
as the procession drove by
but now I realize the tears I cry
were tears of pride and tears of love
and I am not embarrassed to cry
when you were not afraid to die
oh how I miss you and love you
oh how I wish you were here
but perhaps you were chosen for a reason
there are reasons and choices for us all
when this reaches you I hope you can hear me
it seems our son has answered the call
and he leaves on Monday so I guess it's true
he is really going after all
he's so big, strong and cunning like you
his voice fills the house and when he's gone
I don't know what I'll do
so please baby when you get this
look over him please
bring him back home
my world would truly end
if I were to loose him too
I love you so much
I know your Mother would have been
very proud of  you
we'll be a world apart
you take care and stay alert
you're not going alone
and just one more thing
please come home

Madness

swooping down low
hoping you won't know
that's the way it works
what is it all about
what is IT all about
what what is IT
what IS IT all about
standing right in front of you
recognizable but invisible
that's the way they are
and that's the way it works
by hiding nothing
they hope you won't see
the empty transparency
they are full of emptiness
they surround themselves
with themselves
strength in numbers
like a school of fish
controlled outnumbering
scales on a plate on a dish

they post it
to pretend it
to show they care
so leave it
like it leaves you
wrung out and strung out
hung out to dry
hung up in the air
a dangling participle
flying high again
way up high again
without a care
and running fast
never moving
never getting away
trying different things
trying every day
always abusing
the things that you're using
be sure when you're choosing
that you're not losing
and/or abusing
the very thing you need
and never negotiate out of fear
but never fear to negotiate
everything has its price
remember why you're here
when colours disappear
you'll see when they all fade away
black and white become grey
you need a bit more light
so do as night does
steal from the day
when your heart beats loud inside your head
as you lie in bed wishing you were dead
when there's nothing left to do
take stock dig deep you cannot lose
take what you need it's yours to use
and if the world begins to shake
if you feel you're going to fall
don't get too close but stand tall
so many chances and opportunities
but who's keeping score
how does it feel to be here again
here and so near again
how does it feel to be wrong again
no jumping to conclusions
don't get ahead of yourself
there's a method to all madness
so retrace your steps
but don't look back
find the step you missed
a step you took
or didn't take
one slight
might have led to all this
like being betrayed with a kiss
in the midst of all the madness

Clock

at the point where it won't stretch any more
to the right then to the left and back again
imagine if it were as easy as a shift and slide
moving the old things from side to side
clothes in a pile like shed skin on the floor
all but forgotten behind the closet door
wash the dirt off shed this blanket of filth
so you can see me naked now let me see you
pull and stretch me, touch me and explore me
like a gentle cavity search then more intense
ripped open and torn down like a fence
expanding on the inside and pulling outside
tearing me apart looking for my heart
the piece of the puzzle you broke at the start
the pendulum swings slower and slower
the more time ticks away the louder we shout
the louder we shout the quicker time runs out
to the point where there is no more time left
shake the clock to get one more tick
and hope like hell to get the tock
days and weeks then years fly by
life is short and time keeps moving on
with some left it's the last thing on your mind
but when it runs out you're watching the clock
finally knowing what seconds mean
lying still I feel the rain of your tears
wash away the years wash this body clean
captured in pictorial symphony
remembered in words that came to me
I wish for happiness to come from this
shake it the clock won't tick any more
shake it like you did before
shake it the clock won't tick any more
shake it like you did before shake it
shake it shake it wind it shake it
shake it I guess there is no more

What was is no more

What will you do
when you can not get unbound
when things you've done
can no longer be undone
when what winds you up
won't come unwound
and the music you heard
turns into bad sound
when the hand of Christ falls
down to the ground
if his tired head leans forward
into a crumpling frown
would you believe it then
would you say then
that the time has come
and it's time to run
believing it's begun
the reclaiming of soil
the land that they toil
and oil that they sell
where they dwell
by the water, by the well
everyone eats and drinks
it has no colour or smell
in fact they will enjoy it
they never knew
they couldn't tell
who tends the garden
when no one is home
in life though you wander
in death do not roam
in death never leave home
From dust you came
to dust you shall return
when you are dead and gone
the land lays claim
earth reaches out gets even again
what once was is no more
inside your heart
and in the Crystal Palaces
far and near
the songs of the soul
filled with love and cheer
rang loud and clear
but now the song is sad
and is only sung here
I can't get no satisfaction
but the intention is loud and clear
I don't need useless information
I have my own imagination
when Christ the redeemer
comes toppling down
what happens then
what separates us from them
and from the heavens above
who will tend the sheep
free the dove
what was is no more
hundreds of years ago
when the earth was flat
perhaps then but not today
what was done won't go away
it's hard to believe
that no one knew
or knew but wouldn't say
it takes a big man to do the job
a bigger man to admit he did it
from kisses to handshakes
we've seen them all
it doesn't make a difference
round and round they go
in a circle see them fall
we won't be fooled no more
put your foot down
on the cellar floor
hard or soft
when you are touched
you are done for
it's too late to run for cover
there's no place to hide
in the morning or late at night
you can lock all the the doors
and windows
lock it all inside
it's too late to run for cover
there's no place to hide
in the city or the country
you can go and you can try
but I can tell you this
there's no reason why
you should even try
when things are not
the way they were
the day before for
what was is no more.

ln lustro

Spójrz w lustro

Czy to prawda, widzimy?
Gdy patrzę w lustro
który widzę?
Was zobaczę?
Co widzę,
lub widzę poprzez
okno
patrząc na ciebie?
Co ja widzę?
Co ja widzę?
Tak wiele twarzy,
tak wiele miejsc
przyjdzie szybko
na nas.
Czy obecny
czy przeszłość?
Czuję się jak Dorian Grey
lub jaśniejszy odcień niebieskiego.
Kiedy patrzę w lustro
co mam zrobić?
Mój umysł jest we mgle,
mi pomożecie
pokaż mi drogę?
Mógłbyś?
Czy tak?
Nie jestem pewien, można,
tyle twarze z przeszłości
trudno śledzić
i pamiętaj, kto jest kim.
Kim jesteś?
Czego chcesz?
Wiem, że
i co tylko chcesz!
Ale to zbyt późno i
jesteś zbyt późno.
Tak wiele twarzy
tak wiele miejsc
przyjdzie szybko
na nas.
Czy obecny
czy przeszłość?
Czy ta chwila trwała?

Czy ta chwila trwała?

Albo tej chwili trwa?

artwork/sketch - thanks to M.C.Escher

Sugar

I want sugar, I want something sweet
I want sugar, I want something sweet
If I had sugar I'd have something sweet
and I wouldn't need you or the way you treat
me
I want sugar, I need something sweet
If I had sugar I'd have something sweet
and I wouldn't need you or the way you treat
me
But I don't got not sugar not I don't
I don't got no sugar so for now you'll have to do
Put me down for sugar though
Sign me up for something sweet
Put me down for some sugar
God I need something sweet
Sign me up right now man, I need a treat
I'll do whatever it takes
I need sugar for heaven sakes
If I had sugar I wouldn't need you
But I don't, I said I don't have sugar
I got no sugar I've got nothing sweet
Babe I got no sugar, I got nothing sweet
I got no sugar so for now you're my treat
If I had sugar life would be sweeter
than life really is
If I had sugar life would be sweeter
than my life is
But I don't so it isn't and won't be
So won't you please help me
Lay down and melt for me
Like chocolate or ice cream
I want sugar, I want something sweet
I want sugar, I want something sweet
If I had sugar I'd have something sweet
and I wouldn't need you or the way you treat
me
If I had sugar I wouldn't need you
I want sugar, I need something sweet
If I had sugar I wouldn't need you
But I don't so for now you'll have to do
I said I don't so for now you'll have to do
I don't so for now
no I don't so for now
I don't, no I don't
so for now
you'll
have to
do
If I had sugar I'd have something sweet
and I wouldn't need you or the way you treat
me
If I had sugar I'd have something sweet
and I wouldn't need you or the way you treat
me

Fleeting yet again

Time is just time
isn't it
time is in the way
time is that someone
I wish I'd never met
time is my friend
but time and the mind
can be so cruel
so unkind
time stares you blankly in the face.

there they are
standing in line
p  e  r  fectly again
waiting as if to say
here we are
you know how
you know where to find us
everyday just reach and
take me, take us all
for granted if you will
but take us let us kill
together you and I
you were never good at anything
especially resistance
but you're good at this
so who cares
there's one in every crowd
there's one that rises above the clouds
take me if you dare
I will take you there
whites, blues, pinks
clears
spinning smelting
spiralling symphony
medley of medical slurry
take the next one
what's your hurry
hurry.

you can't count on people anymore
you can only count them now
whatever happened to time
the only thing that we all have
whatever happened to caring
reaching out and sharing
getting to know one another
if you were cold you'd be offered shelter
if you were hungry a meal was provided for you
now we all just stand there and stare
blankly and do nothing
if your feet were sore a massage
or the mend of a sole
when your mouth was dry
water to quench your thrist
and a tale for the soul
standing and staring
lying and dying
the end of optimism
the death of trying.