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Spójrz w lustro

Czy to prawda, widzimy?
Gdy patrzę w lustro
który widzę?
Was zobaczę?
Co widzę,
lub widzę poprzez
okno
patrząc na ciebie?
Co ja widzę?
Co ja widzę?
Tak wiele twarzy,
tak wiele miejsc
przyjdzie szybko
na nas.
Czy obecny
czy przeszłość?
Czuję się jak Dorian Grey
lub jaśniejszy odcień niebieskiego.
Kiedy patrzę w lustro
co mam zrobić?
Mój umysł jest we mgle,
mi pomożecie
pokaż mi drogę?
Mógłbyś?
Czy tak?
Nie jestem pewien, można,
tyle twarze z przeszłości
trudno śledzić
i pamiętaj, kto jest kim.
Kim jesteś?
Czego chcesz?
Wiem, że
i co tylko chcesz!
Ale to zbyt późno i
jesteś zbyt późno.
Tak wiele twarzy
tak wiele miejsc
przyjdzie szybko
na nas.
Czy obecny
czy przeszłość?
Czy ta chwila trwała?

Czy ta chwila trwała?

Albo tej chwili trwa?

artwork/sketch - thanks to M.C.Escher

Sugar

I want sugar, I want something sweet
I want sugar, I want something sweet
If I had sugar I'd have something sweet
and I wouldn't need you or the way you treat
me
I want sugar, I need something sweet
If I had sugar I'd have something sweet
and I wouldn't need you or the way you treat
me
But I don't got not sugar not I don't
I don't got no sugar so for now you'll have to do
Put me down for sugar though
Sign me up for something sweet
Put me down for some sugar
God I need something sweet
Sign me up right now man, I need a treat
I'll do whatever it takes
I need sugar for heaven sakes
If I had sugar I wouldn't need you
But I don't, I said I don't have sugar
I got no sugar I've got nothing sweet
Babe I got no sugar, I got nothing sweet
I got no sugar so for now you're my treat
If I had sugar life would be sweeter
than life really is
If I had sugar life would be sweeter
than my life is
But I don't so it isn't and won't be
So won't you please help me
Lay down and melt for me
Like chocolate or ice cream
I want sugar, I want something sweet
I want sugar, I want something sweet
If I had sugar I'd have something sweet
and I wouldn't need you or the way you treat
me
If I had sugar I wouldn't need you
I want sugar, I need something sweet
If I had sugar I wouldn't need you
But I don't so for now you'll have to do
I said I don't so for now you'll have to do
I don't so for now
no I don't so for now
I don't, no I don't
so for now
you'll
have to
do
If I had sugar I'd have something sweet
and I wouldn't need you or the way you treat
me
If I had sugar I'd have something sweet
and I wouldn't need you or the way you treat
me

Fleeting yet again

Time is just time
isn't it
time is in the way
time is that someone
I wish I'd never met
time is my friend
but time and the mind
can be so cruel
so unkind
time stares you blankly in the face.

there they are
standing in line
p  e  r  fectly again
waiting as if to say
here we are
you know how
you know where to find us
everyday just reach and
take me, take us all
for granted if you will
but take us let us kill
together you and I
you were never good at anything
especially resistance
but you're good at this
so who cares
there's one in every crowd
there's one that rises above the clouds
take me if you dare
I will take you there
whites, blues, pinks
clears
spinning smelting
spiralling symphony
medley of medical slurry
take the next one
what's your hurry
hurry.

you can't count on people anymore
you can only count them now
whatever happened to time
the only thing that we all have
whatever happened to caring
reaching out and sharing
getting to know one another
if you were cold you'd be offered shelter
if you were hungry a meal was provided for you
now we all just stand there and stare
blankly and do nothing
if your feet were sore a massage
or the mend of a sole
when your mouth was dry
water to quench your thrist
and a tale for the soul
standing and staring
lying and dying
the end of optimism
the death of trying.

None of this was ever planned

I don't expect you to understand
because none of this ever was planned
I heard a sound from you or was it me
they always seems to come from so far away
as we lay in bed last night
slipping into sleep under the Christmas lights
just like in the old days we did it right
I could feel something slipping away
I hope it was just the day
I can't lose anymore of you or me
I cling to you so tightly
through each and every night now
I'm afraid of being alone
I put on the station we listen to
when we're alone just we two
I'm done telling you I can't tell you anymore
I can feel you though unlike ever before
I have connected, connected well with you
but my pain swallows you now too
so well connected that my pain hurts you too
but I don't expect you to understand
because none of this was ever planned
I feel ugly I feel decayed
cancerous contagious
deformed and deranged
health and well being delayed
when you're not close by
I sometimes sit in the dark and cry
thoughts of horror and pain
seduce me and reduce me
knots of burning itching pain
thoughts of suicide again
uncontrollable physical discomfort
to the point I can't explain
between the fingers and toes
feels as though something grows
withdrawal or evil I suppose
no one knows where evil grows
but it knows it grows in me
I know it grows in me I feel it sometimes
I hate it
I don't want that shit growing in me
spreading like warm butter on toast
running and soaking into every pore
I was hoping you wouldn't understand
because none of this was ever planned
and now there you stand
with that look on your face
with that stare in your eye
please don't do that
you know it makes me cry
you can't understand the reason why
okay just one cup of tea then I'll die
but only if you promise not to ask me if I'd lie
something drew me near closer to the fire
and now it seems every time you are near
evil closes in on me
and the flames keep getting higher
but then I don't expect you to understand
because none of this shit was ever was planned
please just close the door
and help me pray that all this will go away
my tea is done and it's dying time
you held up your end of the bargain and never asked
no I have to do mine
its cold, I am so cold
its too dark to see
there are stars above me
is it night time
what's happening to me
where am I
are you close to me
I don't feel sick
and I don't feel well
I can't tell how I feel
But I think I've changed my mind
I've had a change of heart
don't try to understand
because none of this was planned
preconceived or contrived
perhaps a premonition
the things we do and how we react
depend upon a momentary condition
a chain reaction caused by
a split second decision
I've tried all kinds of ways
to try and make it stop
all of those empty words
on the tips of empty tongues
inside of empty mouths
inside of empty heads
isn't that enough emptiness
don't you think enough has been said
fuck the race, fuck the pace
nothing to understand; no plan
wait I feel hot, I feel so hot
I feel a fire burning in me
burning deep inside of me
a fire deep inside of me
take my hand feel the heat
kiss my lips the burning heat
I feel so hot, too hot
I'm burning up, I feel so hot
it's burning me, it keeps burning me
it's got a hold on me and won't let go
I can't cool down, it won't let me be
I can't escape, I can't break free
another time another place
looks like the end for me

Gaultier

He was a stupid motherfuckin asshole
No one ever got where he was at
even when he was right where he was at
He was such a fuckin dweeb and his name was,
let me get it right
Walter!
Gaultier never ever got an invite
an invite
to any parties or celebrations
held in his home town
In school he had no friends
For him there were no friends to be found
He was chased and beaten daily
He stood and took it, he always held his ground
Until one day when things turned around
He stood but he no longer took it
He lashed out at the very first sound
He never stopped until he was done
and then when all the dust had settled
it was totally quiet
and as he looked around
The stupid motherfuckin asshole
was the only one laughing for miles around
Seems now he's someone special
A holiday in his honour
is celebrated not once but twice a year
it is the best celebration
of all the celebrations
held in his home town
He was a stupid motherfuckin asshole
No one ever got where he was at
even when he was right where he was at
He was such a fuckin dweeb and his name was,
let me get it right
Walter!
Gaultier never ever got an invite
got an invite
to any parties or celebrations
held in his home town
From a candy assed weakling
to a strong 12 inch ruler, he's man about town
Nothing anyone could do
Nothing could ever put old Gaultier down
He was a stupid motherfuckin asshole
such a fuckin clown
No one ever got where he was at
even when he was right where he was at
But nothing now
No nothing now
Nothing will ever put old Gaultier down again.

Christmas time

In my heart and soul

and in my mind

in my heart and soul

all the time

I hear the laughter

I hear the children
I hear it now
it will happen soon
Christmas time

fill my heart and soul

with the thoughts

of you
and if you wish hard enough
at Christmas time it will be
Christmas time
for you and for me
it will light you up
it will lift you up
it will set you free
don`t put up a fight
put up a Christmas tree
and soon you will see
it's Christmas time
for you and me
playing in the park
rolling in the snow
laughing after dark
saying hohoho
it won`t be long
it won't be long at all
in my heart and soul
in my mind oh
I hear the laughter
I hear the children
in my heart and soul
it warms up all my thoughts
it's like a fireplace
it accompanies my mind
as soon as I open my eyes
it's seems and it feels like
Christmas time
with each carol I hear
I feel Christmas drawing near
each card that I open one at a time
I feel Christmas
Christmas floating through the air
I feel Christmas everywhere


In the malls, on the street,
all the people that I meet
seem so happy and say Merry Christmas
Makes me wish everyday
could be just like today
in my heart and soul
and in my mind
in my heart and soul
all the time
I hear the laughter
I hear the children
I hear them all the time
I want them all the time
I want Christmas time all the time
I want it in my life
I want it all the time
Christmas time
I want it in my heart and soul
I want it in my mind
Christmas time
I want it in my heart and soul
I want it all the time
in my heart and soul
in my mind
in my mind
in my mind
in my mind
in my heart and soul
in my mind
in my mind
in my mind
in my mind
in my mind
it's Christmas time
I wanna hear the laughter
I wanna  hear the children
I wanna  hear them all the time
In my life
In my life
In my life
I my life
I want them all the time.
In my life and mind
all the time.

Easy

What`s going on?
I think I should know,
my head's in the clouds though.
I don`t think that it`s as easy
it`s certainly not that easy.
Not as easy as that!
What`s the hold up?
What`s going on here?
Is there a problem?
If there`s a problem
I don`t want to hear.
I know it`s never easy,
in fact sometimes it's hard.
If it`s too hard though
I may not want to know.
But if it`s not a concern
and if it`s not my problem
I still wouldn`t think it`s that easy.
Nothing is easy these days,
at least not as easy as that!
But if it all goes well
and according to plan
well we`ll all be off better
later when this all sets in.
It won`t be easy,
but then nothing ever is.
Check back in with me later
my head's still in the clouds.
Sure, you were thinking that it`s easy,
but not as easy as that!
Thinking it's easy is easy
but even that's not as easy as that!
Nothing ever comes easy,
no Lord it don't come easy,
I thank you for the challenge though.
Things around here aren't average
they're pretty much well below.
It gets harder with each passing day
and it's time that the big easy got made
and made it this way.
Because nothing comes easy
round here anyway.
What's going on?
I think I should know?
My heads in the clouds though
but I don`t think that it`s as easy
it`s certainly not that easy...and
not as easy as that!

Screw

Like a screw
tightening
into my head
I listened to
everything you said
constantly
going deeper
getting tighter
inside my head
up and down
turned all around
coming and going
all over town
do you even know
or do you care
I'm spinning
out of control
out of love
everywhere
don't you know
you only get once chance
one crack at it
you drive me crazy
complacent and lazy
you can't have one
without the other
have faith religiously
be religious faithfully
believe the intention of ascension
fear the deflation of descent
beware of the flooding damnation
avoid the detention retention
too much of a good thing
or no good at all
be careful climbing ladders
beware the fall
be a little bad
or don't be at all
the truth is
we all lie
honestly dishonest
rich beggars
climb the ladder
beware the fall
on the step stool
watch your step
and know the rule
be no ones fool
what goes up
must come down
you can't have one
without the other
have a sister
be a brother
be a man or be a woman
be a he or be a she
whatever you want
you can be
go anywhere
with no way there
find your way back
on your own
find yourself all alone
sooner or later
it had to be
all that is yours
is all that you see
play a game
play with yourself
any move you make
the next move you make
you win again
you can't be beaten
your record stands
run into the stands
your own biggest fan
you am
cheer for yourself
although it's
too little too late
it has to be fate
at the front
of the end of the line
all of the time
waiting to be first
starving obesity
drowning thirst
still watching
waiting anticipating
the tightening of the screw.

Beside you on Christmas Day

If I could have just one wish
on any given day
I wish that I could be at home
beside you on Christmas Day
if I could have just one wish
on any given day
I wish that I could be at home
beside you on Christmas Day
Whether it's cross the rocky shore of Nova Scotia
and the shield in Ontario
or the lowlands and plains
of Saskatchewan
or the Rocky Mountains that you go
I have been everywhere in this great land
and seen much more than any other man
and if I could have just one wish
on any given day
I wish that I could be at home
beside you on Christmas Day
my hands are cold and as they reach out
for the door and the comfort of home
I realize that I always manage
to find my way here no matter how far I roam
from the rock of Newfoundland
and the coast of Labrador
through the North West Territories
and to the BC coast once more
I have been everywhere in this great land
yes I seen much more than any other man
but if I could have just one wish
on any given day
I wish that I could be at home
beside you on Christmas Day
if I could have just one wish
on any given day
I wish that I could be at home
beside you on Christmas Day
yes a thousand miles I've travelled
I've come such a long way
and it's memories of you and me
at Christmas time
that fuel me every day
so if I could have just one wish
on any given day
I wish that I could be at home
beside you on Christmas Day
yes if I could have just one wish
on any given day
I wish that I could be at home
beside you on Christmas Day