I miss you

If I could turn time back I would
but not for the reason you think
If I could turn time back I would
just to spend a few moments with you
I am not magic nor could I endure
all the things that you've gathered
I'm not your miracle cure
But I would to go back
and spend a few hours or days
if I could
with you just with you
To listen what you have to say
to hear what you have heard
and see what you see
just because I want to
and you mean that much to me
you were always so easy to get to laugh
and if I said something odd
or a little crude
you would look at me and say, "Oh my"
and we'd both laugh until we cry
Now I just cry
I want to sit beside you again
I want to make you laugh again
like I used to in the good old days
In my car, the one you loved so much
We drove for a long, long time
only to end up a few miles from home
even though we drove all night long
I remember once we drove
in the early morn
due west fast and far
in the early morn
just to turn around and drive back
into the bright morning sun
on that early morn
God we felt alive
boy we sure had a lot of fun
laughing on that early morn
in the morning sun
I loved you then and I love you now
I wish that I
could reach out now
reach out now
and touch your hand
or hold you tight
take you out of the
eternal night
I never ever can recall
any harsh words or anger
none at all
I never heard you say
or ever wish anyone bad
I guess if I were to take a poll
you'd be the kindest friend I ever had
If I could turn back time
I would I'm sure
to spend more time with you
than I did before
The people you touched are so many
and we all sure miss you right now
If I could turn back time I would
to spend a few more moments with you
and also to allow
you a few moments
the ones that you choose, too
It's selfish perhaps
but I can't help myself
I've tried to put you on a shelf
I can't believe you're gone
How can I tell you
or let you know
that I'm sorry we lost touch
and you had to go
I miss you, we miss you
I love you, we love you
please wait till you see me
or hear my name
I'm hoping you get this,
until we meet again.

In life and in dreams
everything is not as it seems

Thought # 101

Life is useless from beginning to end
With spasms of pain it begins
With pain and spasms it ends
Nothing more than a hot flash in a cold pan
Life is useless from beginning to end.

Let us save our breath
For what is breath after all
But the beginning and end
For breath delivers our words
Be they kind or not so
From here I have watched you
As you walked along
The side of the street
Where the light slices
Into the darkness
Silence follows you
Everything else is left behind
Your voices echoes
Your promise is a song
Your memory is sad.

Can I come too?

Where does my heart belong
Why does my heart beat now
Now that you’re gone
Where will my eyes look now
Why do they see at all
Now that I can’t see you
What good are my arms
What will they do for me
Now that I can’t hold you
My feet are so sore
But what good are my feet
If I can’t come to you
I can’t get you off my mind
But what good is my mind
If I’m losing it over you
I’m falling apart since losing you
And I don’t know what to do
Because
My heart still beats
And belongs
Only to you
My eyes still see
But they only see you
My arms are open wide
But only for you
My feet are happy now too
Standing here next to you
And you are always on my mind
No matter what you do
So if you're thinking of leaving
If you’re leaving
Can I come too?

Remember

I remember once when you went away
I counted the seconds, day by day
Each day that passed that I spent without you
The pain in my heart from your absence grew

At times like a ghost I thought your were there
Warm scent of your skin and your long silky hair
Your voice echoes softly through the rooms of my mind
I find treasures of words you spoke, all of them kind

So think of me as each day goes by and remember as you do
Your thoughts will all be greeted by my own warms thoughts of you.