Self Confidence

I am weary
The weariest of weary
Your kiss is warm
and sweet
My tears go dry
I can be happy
If I try
I throw my inhibitions
at you
I can be sad
Sometimes without
a reason and I don't know why
I am glad I have you
at least
I am weary
I feel weak
I am the weariest of weary
The weakest of weak
There is so much about me
that's good
I just can't tell you what they are
Even if I could
I don't know how take a compliment
Never could
I believe in doing good
In fact the best
At everything that I do
Forgetting about all the rest
I can be so many things
Some I've been for far too long
And there's the things that I have been
I wish would have stayed
longer than the song
I am weary
I feel lost
Living, loving
At such a cost
It takes it's toll
God I'm weary
I feel so old
My body aches
and my feet are cold
I sit and think sometimes
until I cry
I sit and think sometimes
and I don't know why
Your kiss is warm
and sweet
and once again
my tears go dry

Ice cold words

I hear and I see
But it`s all so confusing to me
The long whip of her eye lashes
Cools me down as
The car crashes
Long since that day
There`s been so much to say
And all the while
Time carries on
Like the words of a song
Never to be heard
Or sung
Ice cold words
Coming out of her mouth
I never thought
I never really had a doubt about
Anything she ever said
Until last night
As we lay together in bed
She told me she loved me
So many times
But little did I know
In fact I must`ve been blind
No feelings
Cold bodies in the night
Hers against mine
The mistake was I believed in her
When she treated me kind
It`s too late now
To believe her
I see I was wrong
Ice cold words

Wisdom

I thought I was so wise
In the ways of the world
and mankind
I watched it all unfold
From the confines of my
cynical room
I watched all the sadness
the darkness and gloom
Then pulling the blinds low
When I've had enough
It's time to go
Counting inside
The days gone by
Wishing I could go back
and make a change
To the things that I've done
To the things that I've said
I wish it time and again
That I could get off
this runaway train
It moves too fast
When life takes hold
No matter how young
No matter how old
All those days gone by
Wishing I could go back
and make a change
Or is it too late
Could it be
The end for me
Could it be
The end of history
For me
I thought I was so wise
In the ways of the world
and mankind
I watched it all unfold
From the confines of my
cynical room
What is the reason
Or the excuse
I've tried to explain
But it's no use
I thought I was so wise
In the ways of the world
and mankind
But you saw through me
You saw right through me
You know me better
Than I know me
The answer is in plain view
It's easy to see
But me
I'm wise in the ways of the world
and mankind
I've seen it all before
And left it all behind
It's not my problem
It's a little bit less
and a little bit more
But either way
I've seen it all before

Give a little love

Watching the tube
I see too many guns
Too much hate
Too many guns
Not enough love
Where did the love go
Surfing the web
I see too many crimes
Too many crimes and criminals
Everywhere you look
They're there
They're in your face
They're everywhere
So just keep doing what you're doing
Keep on doing right
You must be right
Because there's a gap between
What you do and see
It's up to you
And it's up to me
To pave the way
To take the lead
To be the first
To love
There's too much hate
But it's not too late
Take a little love
Watch that love grow
Shake somebody's hand
Let your fear go
Help someone who's troubled
Go the extra mile
Give a little love
Watch it grow a smile
There's too much hate
But it's not too late
Take a little love
Watch that love grow
Shake somebody's hand
Let your fear go
Help someone who's troubled
Go the extra mile
Give a little love
Watch it grow a smile
Give a little love
yeah
Give a little love now
Give a little love
All it takes is a little love
So give a little love now
Give a little love
Give a little love now
Give a little love

So plain

I don't know why my life is so plain
It's always just been this way
It's okay
It's all I can do
to just think of what to do
And then think some more
about what to do
With you
I don't know but I suppose it's in my brain
The fact that my life is so plain
I feel insane
I feel so sane
At times I even bore myself
There I've done it again
You may come and sit with me
Cross legged we can sit
You may come and pray with me
Then if you like you can stay with me
You're welcome anytime
But you may find that
I am not what you thought
But then who ever is
The feeling that you thought you had
Is something good or something bad
I don't know why my life is so plain
It's always just been this way
It's okay
It's all I can do
to just think of what to do
And then think some more
about what to do
with you
I don't know but I suppose
it's in my brain
The fact that my life
is so plain
I feel insane
I feel so sane
Sometimes I think I'm right
when I wrong
Sometimes I sing
when there's no song
But one thing's for sure
For this there's no cure
Because there's no cure
There's no cure for plain Jane
And there's is no cure for me or my life
So plain
I don't know why my life is so plain
It's always just been this way
It's okay
It's all I can do
to just think of what to do
And then think some more
about what to do
with you
I don't know but I suppose
it's in my brain
The fact that my life is
so plain
I feel insane
I feel so sane
I don't know why my life is so plain
It's always just been this way
It's okay
It's all I can do
to just think of what to do
And then think some more
about what to do
with you
I don't know but I suppose it's in my brain
The fact that my life is so plain
I feel insane
I feel so sane
There's no cure for me
There's nothing but more of the same
It's more of the plain
So plain
life for me

Rose tinted glasses

If I have to wear those rose tinted glasses
Then I'm not sure that I can do this
For if life were always bright and full of sunshine
I would not need them nor would I even ever care
Without the drab or boring days
The days when the sun doesn't shine
We'd have nothing to compare
to
Or ever look forward
to
We'd never know when we are fine

Not long ago I saw the light of day
That same day you went away
Like the wind on a sunny day
You went away
So please take these shades away from me
I don't want to see
The things that are not real to me
Let me see the things I need to see
Let me see them exactly as they are

So if I have to wear those rose tinted glasses
I'm not sure that I can do this
Perhaps someday in the pouring rain
Or if you should pass my way again
I'll find the time to realize

For if life were always bright and full of sunshine
I would not need them nor would I even ever care
Without the drab or boring days
The days when the sun doesn't shine
We'd have nothing to compare
to
Or ever look forward
to
We'd never know when we are fine

I've been blog lazy...
To tell you the truth I have been blog lazy but life busy and that's a good thing. I spent as much time as I could with Colette. We are so good together when we get along instead of fighting like cat and dog. It has been a nice beginning to the new year. I hope that everyone had a wonderful and safe time at whatever they were doing to bring in the new year.
So it's already January 3, 2010. May all your wishes come true and may you have the strength to fulfill all your New Years resolutions.
I more than anything wish good health and recovery for myself and anyone else who suffered injuries or disease. So if you're reading this and would like to share what you have gone through I would love hear from you and we can perhaps strengthen each other in the process. I have found that disclosure/sharing your condition with someone like a friend or relative can be therapeutic and cleansing at the same time.
I know talking about things to be a definite positive thing to do from my own experiences. I'm not a doctor merely someone who can say been there and done that, experienced that, went through that, I'm someone who is both sympathetic and apathetic without being an enabler. I believe in positive support and reinforcement which may mean that I don't necessarily support what you're doing but rather a different spin or more positive way of doing the same thing. I'm far from perfect and therefore cannot be your judge or jury but I do make a good sounding board to bounce things off of due to my open-mindedness. I hope to start the new year off and spend some of it helping people or simply listening because that's how we learn. I plan on making this the year in which I make my biggest and most influential changes. I hope to make my commitments a lifetime thing, a change in life style if you will. It's not all about you ya knuckledragger! I plan on practising what I preach, I plan on being patient, pleasant, nice, amiable a quiet and good listener, helpful, less critical. Sounds both hard and easy, kinda like life, but I plan to do it one day at a time.
Maybe you don't have or feel like talking about anything personal or medical well hey, that's cool too. But what about a resolution you care to share or a change that you plan on making in the new year, I'd love to hear about it.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
GOD BLESS
GOOD HEALTH